Kimo Land

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2005-05-07T16:31:00.000+10:00

It has been brought to my attention that people specualte me in some sort of confuzzled light. It seems people think I am some what different here than in real life, I'm a little self centred or that .. I dno >insert something just as annoyingly untrue that's kinda hurtful<

Example:

how come you are so different on the net to in person.. I mean.. is it because most people don't know you and they probably don't give a damn so you feel you can release yourself.. or is it just all an act type of thing

How come? Does it seem as if I haven't posted too much lately? correcto? It's because nothing majorly fucked up has really happened lately. You people make it sound as if I consciously think "oritey, i gotta change my personality now and make everyone think I'm some kind of nutcase. Of course, they don't know everything that's going on, so i won't tell them and make them think I'm talking about them and that I want their sympathy. Hmm, how can i offend as many people as possible in the fewest words?" yeah, THAT'S how it goes. As if you CAN'T see me saying this stuff to you. I can see me saying this to you. Of course, there are some things I can't see myself saying to anyone, and that is because I haven't. I wrote it here, you're the ones who read it. Meaning, should I be the one at fault for posting it, or you for reading it?

Another example:

i have to agree with ainslees comment on ur site you think that ur the poor little invalid that no body likes and that we should all have pity on this poor little girl who gets left out.

I have to disagree with you on that one. I could go on using the whole
you-don't-know-what-I've-been-through thing again, but I won't. Would you like me to illustrate a picture for you all to see? Here:

One day you come home from school. you're tired and irritated. You got up at 6:30 that morning and sleep's the only thing on your mind, but you can't. You can't because you have a whole stack of homework to complete. So you go to do it, but you can't concentrate because your parents are having a screaming contest with your brother. yet again. about nothing much. So your half done homework is put off while you trudge off to your parents milkbar to help out while your parents can do something else. just a break for them coz it can be a little stressful, not to mention tiring to work 12 hours+ a day. When you get there, a large man abuses you about the prices of the stock. Customer's always right. So after that, you trudge back to do your homework, when you realise you can't concentrate because of your mother's screams... So you jump onto the computer to let out steam because what CAN you do? so you try and talk to someone about it, but then it turns out they're too busy to talk to you. you find that people don't want to hear what you say. you find that everyone's left and there's no one to turn to. So you type it all into your blog. then you get fired from all sides saying it's somewhat inhumane or some shit to publish that kinda stuff. You find that everyone has this vision of the perfect persona nd if you don't fit into that category, you need halp or someone to talk to. no. you don't need someone to talk to. you just need to let it out and it just helps if there's someone on the other side.

Can you people see where I'm coming from? Where do you get the idea that I make things up? Do you think I think you want to read a page full of swear words? Do you think I'm here for your entertainment? Do you think that by not visiting my blog and indirectly talking to me through other people's blogs is gonna get us anywhere? Well, if you want to know, it's over now so you probably won't be getting an eyeful of swear words for a while. Maybe. Just maybe, if you have a problem with what I say here, you could ask me here, rather then posting on someone else's blog and hope that I will stumble over it.

So I just wanted to clear that all up and put it behind me/us. I don't see the point in going back to whatever we're talking about and just move on. I thought we had. But then I looked at Ains's blog. Oh and on that note, since blogging has suddenly become cool or soemthing, I'm not gonna post again, unless need be.

have a nice time,

Kimo.

Warning: it's my blog.

2005-04-22T23:09:00.000+10:00

i'm posting for the sake of posting.

What's happenin', yo? [wth, that doesn't even make sense!]

You know what i don't get? The whole, "let's release black or white smoke so that people will know when we've gotten a new pope". wtf? Why didn't they just get some person to walk out and say, yeah mate, you know, it's gonna take a little longer.. and I mean, the black and the white smoke looked the same anyway! [i've stopped doing the double exclamations coz they make me look comical. pshhhh, me? comical?!] And he's like, 78! hahaha, anyone watch the shambles the other night?! I love that show. They like, dressed up as the pope and "interviewed" him, and they're like: what would you like to be in 10 years? Alive. Describe yourself in 2 words: The Pope. BAHAHAHAHA, well I found it amusing. hahaha, for those who did [or didn't] see the shambles, did you see when they were going around the city to random people? Question: If you could be anyone in history, dead or alive, who would you be? [bald guy with beard] did you know your hair fell to your chin? [some school chick] "the toothfairy." The toothfairy?! What, do you have a lot of loose change you want to get rid of? hahaha ha hah.. Well >I< thought it was funny.

Anyway, you know what else, religiously related that is annoying me?! How people think that God's trying to send them some sort of message through cracks in the wall, pieces of toast and whatever bullshit, they wanna try and convince themselves with. As in. That "virgin mary" which was actually just a crack in some wall in the middle of some place. it looked like a mouldy wall that needed to be fixed coz it was leaking, causing the faint colour of the crack. Jeeeeez. i mean, what the hell?! What about that piece of toast or bread or something that looked like Mary. Ooo, let's all worship some BREAD! wooo, we certainly are the intelligent race.

Well. enough of religion.

hmm, anyone know how to draw blood? as in drawing with a pencil, not drawing as in taking it out and doing stuff with your blood...

Anyway. mmm, lag. I've finished my preface, if anyone wanted to know. I know you all do. You know. I went to the optometrist today and i dno for what reason, but the lady gave me a pair of daily contacts to wear, so I'm just like, umm ok, sure and then she's like, yeah, nothing's wrong with the glasses you have at the moment since your eyes haven't changed since last time. so i'm like, yeha, cool. so why do i have contacts in? Well. omg, have you ever been to the optometrists? I was actually scared of going today coz i didn't want my eyes to change coz that means a change of lenses [$200] and well obviously, a change of eye sight. [Left:6; Right:7] not good.. and anyway. U know how they do the whole, which one's clearer: this one, or this one. the green or the red? Well, is there a right and a wrong? coz i've gone: umm.. the red? her:..are you sure? about the same? me: ...umm. i dno. : / And that wasn't it. she shows me the same thing [well I think they were] but just darker. and then she's like, which one's more clearer? I'm just sitting there, thinking. they're the same! I even said that, and she said:..are you sure? am i sure?! no! i'm not sure at all! stop asking me! :s

phewww. So stressful sometimes.

omg. the ring 2. If you don't wanna know what happens [really. NOT that much] or, if you'd like to get scared by it's mighty scariness in the near future, then don't read the next paragraph:
Well. the ring 2. I went into the empty cinema [maybe i should have walked right out and asked for a refund at that point]. Well, as i said, I walked into the empty cinema with my friend [which is technically not empty anymore..] yeah and we got the whole cinema to ourselves coz other people just don't go to the cinema at 11 in the morning to watch the ring 2. Nayway, [haha, nayway] i went into the cinema, knowing full well i won't find it too scary, but i was open minded. Well, it was scary at bits, but only coz the people were ugly. hahaha, that's quite mean, actually. that's like saying, any kid with black hair over her face is evil and you should drown her. or something. to tell you the truth, i have no idea what the hell the plot was. I mean, it started off all spooky coz some guy melted or something, well not exactly, but that was more graphic than the movie was. all they fricken showed was some guy who was scared-> static-> water coming from nowhere-> dead guy in ambulance with stupid look on his face. geeeeeez. there's a lot of guesswork involved in such a dumb film. Anyway, what I wanna know, is why didn't the lady just throw out the tv if people kept crawling out of it?! hahaha, i love saying that.

ok, here's what i got out of the plot: boy watches video->boy dies-> lady comes from nowhere with son and gets rid of video-> son has nightmare and is suddenly taken over by a ghost-> blur-> oh yeah, simon baker's in the movie!-> kid gets freaky. even more so than he was normally-> blah blah ramming deer-> freaky kid-> blur-> and they all lived happily ever after or some shit.

omg, 12:20 am. i have to go now or else my parents aren't gonna be happy. oh deary me, they're not happy as it is.

so long, all.

Kimo

What I'm listening to:

2005-04-16T22:45:00.000+10:00

P.O.D.- Youth Of The Nation

Last day of the rest of my life
I wish I would’ve known
Cause I didn’t kiss my mama goodbye

I didn’t tell her that I loved her and how much I care
Or thank my pops for all the talks
And all the wisdom he shared

Unaware, I just did what I always do
Everyday, the same routine
Before I skate off to school

But who knew that this day wasn’t like the rest
Instead of taking a test
I took two to the chest

Call me blind, but I didn’t see it coming
Everybody was running
But I couldn’t hear nothing

Except gun blasts, it happened so fast
I don’t really know this kid
Even though I sit by him in class

Maybe this kid was reaching out for love
Or maybe for a moment
He forgot who he was
Or maybe this kid just wanted to be hugged
Whatever it was
I know it’s because

chorus:
We are, We are, the youth of the nation

Little Suzy, she was only twelve
She was given the world
With every chance to excel

Hang with the boys and hear the stories they tell
She might act kind of proud
But no respect for herself

She finds love in all the wrong places
The same situations
Just different faces

Changed up her pace since her daddy left her
Too bad he never told her
She deserved much better

Johnny boy always played the fool
He broke all the rules
So you would think he was cool

He was never really one of the guys
No matter how hard he tried
Often thought of suicide

It’s kind of hard when you ain’t got no friends
He put his life to an end
They might remember him then

You cross the line and there’s no turning back
Told the world how he felt
With the sound of a gat

chorus

Who’s to blame for the lives that tragedies claim
No matter what you say
It don’t take away the pain

That I feel inside, I’m tired of all the lies
Don’t nobody know why
It’s the blind leading the blind

I guess that’s the way the story goes
Will it ever make sense
Somebody’s got to know

There’s got to be more to life than this
There’s got to be more to everything
I thought exists

chorus

where can i donate to farmers? [edited]

2005-04-15T22:01:00.000+10:00

I wouldn't want to live as a farmer. god, there are enough low lifed workers in the family.

I was up late and don't have a lot of energy because i think i'm sick.

I didn't like camp and if you don't want to read what I thought of camp, then you can piss off.

I was shitty on camp. I didn't like being away that week. Perhaps any other week I would have been fine, but I just didn't feel like it. Not to mention the fact that I felt manly sitting next to some people because of the way they could hold themselves so femininely. I felt as slobbish as the next person... if the person next to me was a bloke with a flannel shirt with a beer gut, slouching [slouching?? that's not the word, is it?] on his back rather than sitting on his arse.

I hate the fact that while we may or may not be comfortable in our groups, there are those that aren't in any and those that don't belong. I know of some at school and it saddens me. And I don't know what to do. perhaps there's nothing I can do but i just don't want to see columbine happen at our school. perhaps it will happen. and perhaps i'll say suck shit people, you all fuckin deserved it. or perhaps i won't. Here's a story:

One night at one camp some girls sat down to their evening meal which couldn't compare to their mother's cooking. As they sat down, the thought that there wasn't enough space to seat all had not crossed their minds and when they actually did realise, the ones that were left out were saddened. How could they forget us, they thought. They held back tears and sat at separate tables, but didn't think much of it. One has to get used to trivial matters to stay in a large group.

They moved on with their lives and although they knew it was bad, they did do some bitching and gossiping. Of course, doesn't everyone. And so from the view of an observer, they were cut deep, but what the fuck do i know? i'm just the writer.

If you don't wanna fuckin get hurt then look at what you're doing. but the fuck to that, you fuckin deal with your own problems and i will mine. Release your anger in any way you want and deal with it, but don't come near me. God, I've dealt with enough fuckin anger already.

Since you all can't fuckin see my view, i tried to make it simpler in this edited version. If you want to recount what I previously wrote, it's up too. So why don't you make the decision. God help us all, kick me out of the fuckin group if you can't stand my fuckin thoughts. And i'm different here, eh? do you know the insides of my head? of course I don't say everything I think outloud, coz who the hell wants to hear it all? You, when you come and visit my blog. God, why the hell do i bother with this? just looking back on what I've previously written, >i< wonder why you people keep coming back here. A list of my favourite songs? A couple of stories? Rants on little kids; trips to space; homework? god, no wonder i've fuckin stirred things up. Talking about something that actually matters, and the fact that you people can't hack it kinda shows something... that I should either change my perspective on the world or the topics I write about.

Kimo.

2005-04-13T12:30:00.000+10:00

Sorry for expressing my opinion

where can i donate to farmers?

2005-04-09T16:53:00.000+10:00

They shouldn't have to live in those conditions! :P i'm so rude, but i couldn't live in the country in some small hick town with one "general store".

God. I've was gonna type this up yesterday, but i couldn't be stuffed. well seriously, i had a cold with a temperature and all. And my calf muscles seem to have stopped working so i can't bend my knees, which are covered in bruises not to mention the fact that my sleep went like this: woke up at 7 am thursday morning. Went to sleep: 7am friday morning. Woke up at 8am friday morning. went to sleep: 12am friday morning[or night?] [or is it saturday morning?] and i woke up at 11am this morning and here we are. and i can't talk properly either. not man-ish yet, but getting there, i think.

Well I thought it was over-rated and i didn't have as much fun as everyone thinks they did. But i did learn quite a bit. yes, i did learn about snorkelling, horse riding, sailing and surfing, but i also learnt more about people. perhaps more than i want to know. well. i know of course that everyone here, or at least most people that read this blog are friends from school, but it's my blog and i'll speak my mind if i want to. and i want to. names aside, i'm gonna give you a load of my thoughts.

Well firstly there's me. Shitty. the first night i couldn't stand being away from home. I've never been one of those ppl that cry coz they're home sick but i was all shitty for being stuck with a bunch of wankers for 5 days. I'm not calling everyone a wanker, just the fact that i can't stand people in general. then there's living with them. I mean, i know i can smell, be annoying, leave crap everywhere, whatever, but that doesn't mean i don't get irritated by others. I mean, do u know how manly i felt sitting next to some ppl?? I felt like some slob with a beer gut in a flannel shirt burping and farting my night away. well, anyone would feel like that sitting next to a pussy lil annoying shit with stacks of make up with their hair loose and talking in that fricken voice that just shits me. I can't really say more without mentioning names and stuff, but i just can't stand them. sometimes. i mean it's not an all the time thing. I'm sure they must bloke up sometimes. surely. maybe?

Anyway, that's not it. what else was the rankings. rankings of groups. i hate it. I mean a friend told me that she didn't fit in. actually, come to think of it, 2 friends told me they don't fit in. well, i didn't know what to say to them and i just tried to switch the conversation around to something else. Well i went to bed thinking about it. I'm a bit of an outcast sometimes. I mean, there's the big group. then there's the sub group. In the big group, altogether, all's fine. but if the big group kinda breaks up, it's like there's: the girlies. the "active" [or energetic] ppl. the normal-even-headed ppl who have morals and sense. there's the chinese speakers. then, there's me. actually, that's the sub groups. so yeah. so i told my friend that and she laughed at me, but now she knows. and so do you. there's the background. now let me tell you all a story that may or may not have non fictional attributes:

One fine evening a group of girls sat down to their dinner. it felt as if lunch was hours ago, possibly because it was, but it also felt as if dinner should be illegal as it was only about 5 pm. who has dinner at that time, they thought. old, crusty people who go to sleep at about 7 and get up at 5 am just to do tai chi. so anyway, the girls sat down at their chosen table. greedily wihtout thinking of their friends. but they were like that. they don't think of the future and take t as it comes, which can be dim coz they don't foresee obvious problems in their way. so they sat and as they slowly, very very slowly realised there weren't enough seats to seat all 14 people, they yelled to pull up some chairs. of course, even with so many chairs, there wasn't enough table space for all. So the solution would have been to take up another table where everyone could be seaten comfortably, still in their group. But no. As mentioned, they were a short sighted group of girls who decided to just spread out across many tables to eat the meagre, under/over cooked food that was always queerly soggy. Of course this was a trivial matter that took place in only a few minutes, but haunted them for days.

That was just a small feature to their problems. They started to collapse internally. they gave each other nasty looks and slammed countless doors. They talked about each other to another while they were being equally talked about by another. They were prone to bitching, although they would always deny it. Who could pass up on some gossip, they'd always say, knowing perfectly well they could easily walk away from it all. It was easy to see this group of nice girls would be just as bad as the next with secrets. Anyway, blah led to blah blah [[i really wanna go play gunbound now]] and so they were cut deep. Perhaps it was the salt water, or perhaps it was inevitable the group were going to split up. So they all jumped onto a magic carpet and flew home.

As i said, there was some fiction and nonfiction in there, but still, maybe everyone should take a look at what they're doing and see the faults in their actions. Open your eyes and see what's happening guys and maybe you won't get as hurt. Just a little something from me. And before I go, how about trying to control your anger a little more. I mean, instead of taking out your anger on someone, take it out on someTHING, or maybe just cool it a little. I know i get angry and all, but it really scares me when other people are. I dno what it is. It's like i'm scared they're gonna do something to me or someone or like just hold some grudge for ages or something. maybe it's just me. yeah. go get angry. woo angriness. go. yeah.

Kimo.

Get f.

2005-03-18T23:48:00.000+11:00

heh.

Ok, quick post coz i gotta go sleep soon. Weeeell. You know what. Yes, I'm just a little annoyed. nothing in particular, but this'll be one of those random - god i hate that word- rants on nothing in particular. [alright with you?] get f. hah, i like that. anywho. You know what pisses me?!! When people compliment you on something of yours. see, that doesn't even make sense!! I mean someone goes something like, i like your top. or i like your hat. or i like something you're wearing and not actually something that's PART of you. I mean, you're expected to say [thankyou] as well. gee, thanks for complimenting my WATCH. coz, gee, you know if you hadn't've told me you liked it, i would have just had to shrivel up and die. geeeeeez. And you know what else's been pissing me? Easter. WTF?!! Jesus dying..chocolate eggs..crazed bunnies..chocolate wallabies.. oh yes, that allll fits. o.O I mean, I'm no professional Chrisitian or anything, but isn't Easter about Jesus dying and then getting resurrected or something? or did i miss out on the bit where Jesus's disciples partied with chocolate eggs and buggered rabied bunnies...? Get f.

And then, dyu know what [I just had to] do just then? Reboot my computer. stuff this fricken computer. You know, this is the 5th or 6th time?!! Well, I shan't ramble about my dislike for this grey lump of matter. Matter? jesus Christ!! I have a feckin science test on Monday. gee. [I've been the bloody walking DEAD this week!!] Like totally, i've realsied and possibly tried to wake myself out of this like.. trance or something i'm in. Except, it's 12 o'clock and i got up at 6:20. [hmm not good.] I'm sleepy. mmmm sleeeeeep. I'm hungry too. [Have you ever] had dinner and it's like a normal dinner that should fill you up, but i was still hungry after i'd eaten!! and that was 5 hours ago!! pfff. can't be stuffed finding something to eat. I'll have a butter menthol instead. :( I [have no music.] well i do. but it's actually the crap my bro saved. Coz oh yeah, thanks for reminding me that i have to get another CD-RW. actually, i got no more music to put on it. achh. Damn hip hop. get f. ahhhah. Brand new. [thanks Ains for introducing it to me.] XP and i don't have anymore pictures!! geee, after rebooting, you realise all your losses. Well, we had the chance to save them, but none were really worth keeping and who can REALLY be stuffed. heh, search "bananas in pyjamas" in google images. and look for the freaky pictures of these freaks who dressed up as the bananas. their masks are falling off!! and there's one where this guy had taken his mask off and so he's walking around in these blue and white striped pyjamas- which makes him look a little crazed. mmmm eyes glazing over.

you know I found that: if i concentrate on something, then i have a chance of learning.. [heh. i'm just a tad slow sometimes.] or maybe it's only coz i've been the walking dead this week that I've been tuning out when people open their mouths to talk. for example, prinx, if you're reading this, i kinda tuned out when you started talking about maths. heh, but [i do apprecitae] the help. ahhh 12:20. ok. fave songs of the moment: kittie and Korn- this town. i love it that they swear so incessantly. "Here we fuckin go" well, it's not throughout the whole song. ohhh, what is a good song with incessant swearing- jumpdafuckup by soulfly ft. corey taylor (lead singer of stone sour and slipknot). ehhhhh. i love it. which reminds me. i should be listening to it!! :0 not before i listen to 3 doors down -let me go. top 40 music? niiiice. It's been a while since i've listened to the radio (voluntarily) it's all crap anyway. and then people probably think i listen to triple j or something, but i think it's as weird as you do.

It's been a while since I've written this kinda post, desu ne (Jap). kablahhh. I have a Japanese outcome this coming thursday. [kill me now.] I'm so feckin scared. shitless. scared shitless. oh, you know i actually found an old friend, no, two, old friends through one of those stupid make-friends-with-me websites?!! Well, I hadn't seen these people in like 6 years!! [well, actually, i lie.] I saw one of them the other week. and i din't recognise her. well, people change in 6 years. they've all turned into sluts. nah, i dno, but i heard one of them is a huge slut. huge? that pisses me too. I know i sometimes do it, but why is it that people describe people who are majorly something as "huge". i mean, they're not ALWAYS fat, you know. [It's as if you're subliminaly trying to say something.]

happy? you have the right to be.

Kimo.

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2005-03-14T00:08:00.000+11:00

see, you've forgotten it all already.

The only one

2005-03-13T19:50:00.000+11:00

Three posts in a row. are you surprised? well I'm not gonna type for you. i'm typing for me. for me. is anything out there for me anymore? everyone's so selfish, everyone's out there; each to their own. Well, i'm sick of it. I'm sick f you. I'm sick of school. I'm sick of erveything. Why don't you all just piss off to somewhere else and leave me alone. but then i don't want to be alone. Lone soldier. no. Well it seems you're making me the lone soldier. can i fight the war alone? i need you here, but you're just gonna hop up and leave? how can you do this. this is what i mean by selfish, ya mother.. can i ask, do you have a conscience? do you feel anything? or are you as numb as i am? you. are you numb. numb with cold. with fear. with resentment. with anything other than happiness. happiness? is there ever pure happiness? have i ever felt that? i miss it, though i've never known it. i hope to meet it one day. and say screw you, to it's face. i'd say something like, why the f weren't you ever with me before? why have you always favoured others? why don't you get f ed. I know some other people i'd like to say 'screw you' to, but can i? no. that's breaching the rules. rules. everywhere. hah, get f ed, rules. ooo, there's talking. ok, maybe not. no, no voices in my head, it's just not talking. it's indescribable. stubborn person + stubborn person? what do you get? a couple of stubborn people, duhh. yeah, but what else do you get. what? what DO you get? i don't know, so i'll repeat the question, just so it can sink in. what do you get if you add a stubborn person and a stubborn person? what do you get if you add a stubborn person and a stubborn person? what do you get if you add a stubborn person and a stubborn person? what do you get if you add a stubborn person and a stubborn person? what do you get if you add a stubborn person and a stubborn person? what do you get if you add a stubborn person and a stubborn person? enough. I highly doubt anyone will be reading up to this far. i wouldn't read this, even though i wrote it. slap slap. well, that's what it sounded like. what? what just sounded like that? who knows. not me. not you. the person getting f ed over would, though. lucky it ain't me. lucky? are you lucky that you're not getting f ed over? would you rather wallow around as you do than get f ed over? I miss it. not the happiness i've never met, but i miss those days. those days when it was plain . it was so... and . nothing major, nothing scary, nothing life changing. i liked that. i like that. it will one day come back to that. yes. strive for that. but is aiming high the best thing? how about aim low and you won't be disappointed. i hate disappointment. hate disappointment? but in HATING it, well, you have a problem. disappointment is inevitable. so why make it life changing. like uni selections. i'll aim for tafe or something and i'll get there. if i aimed for melbourne uni i'd probably miss it and hit some college institute in the middle of the bush. do you see my logic? well my logic is impeccable. angry? no. i'm not angry. "kimo, you know i've never seen you angry. i've seen you cry, but never angry" with that, can you tell when i'm fake? fake laugh. fake smile. fake looks. i'm a f in all rounder in that department. can you tell. can you really tell. can you tell what i'm thinking. can i mask it. or is it obvious. can you read me like a book, or read me like a brick wall? can you? can you not? these questions matter to me. how about, how am i being judged? being judged is nothing new. anyone, anywhere, anytime. judge judge judge. that's all the world does. can you see that? that girl's in a mini- must be a slut. that guy's got black hair and piercings- must listen to metal. that man's in a suit- must be rich. that woman's fat- must be a pig. that kid's crying- must have bad parents. that man's unshaven- must be a druggie. that girl's wearing a slipknot t-shirt- must be suicidal. how about on another level. that person got 83% on her test- must have been lazy. that person's applying make up- must have low self esteem. that person's getting out of a Merc- must have everything. that person's wearing the coolest clothes- must abide by cosmo. well. if all goes like this, as it mostly does, then we have a problem. yes, i know, i'm guilty of some of these thoughts. i'm not denying it in the least, but what are people thinking about me? How do i reflect on others, if at all? How are others reflected on me? is it all bad? is it all bad. is anything really all that bad? can everything in the world be solved? well this judging dilemma we've discussed is a world wide epidemic. and it's in everyone. it's in everyone. that's undeniable. everyone's guilty of it and it can't be stopped. it's one of the worst human traits. It's not even generical. it pops up whenever it feels. it can hurt more than physical violence. actually, that's probably what causes anorexia, bulimia and all that, as well as suicides, drug use and alcoholism. are you proud. can you tell it's harsh. can you see some people actually process what people say about them. about those close to them. about strangers. oh. really? you want out? but you're here. now. why. why you want it. you're gonna cry. i hate you. wow. i just said that. i can't believe i said that. it's unbelievable. you just said you hate your mother. that's not healthy. geez. fuck off. yes, mother. fuck off. i'd say it to you personally, but if you're reading this as you would if you could read, you'd've already realised what i just said. fuck off. prance. harder. prance around. i command you. you love it. you love gloating about it. you just love it. f us all over. and once you're done, what are you gonna do? yeah. huh. what was that? louder. LOUDER. I CAN'T FUCKING HEAR YOU. FUCK YOU AND YOU'RE FUCKIN FEELINGS. FUCK YOU AND YOUR "I'M SO HURT" BULLSHIT. YOU'RE HURT?!! THAT'S MORE SELF CENTRED THAN I CAN EVEN THINK OF!! YOU'RE THE CENTRE OF THE WORLD AND EVERYONE SHOULD OBEY YOU. EYAH, THAT'S HOW IT IS THEN? YOU KNOW, IF YOU'RE SO FUCKIN HURT, THEN WHY? WHY DO YOU DO IT? WHY HAVE YOU DONE IT? WHY DID YOU DO IT? YOU FUCK US ALL OVER AND LEAVE US WITH WHAT? AND IN ALL OF THIS, YOU DON'T EVEN TRY AND REFRAIN FROM FUCKING ME OVER WHILE YOU'RE AT IT. GO AHEAD, IT'S A FREE SHOT. OH, SO YOU DON'T MIND THAT, BUT WHEN I DO, IT'S THE FUCKIN END OF THE WORLD. IF THAT'S HOW IT'S GONNA BE, THAN SO BE IT. MAYBE I'LL BE WALKING HIS FUCKING PATH TOO. MAYBE WITH HIM. IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT. IT FUCKIN SEEMS LIKE IT. SO WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU LECTURING ME, WHEN IT'S HIM AT FAULT? WHY?!! WHY? why. i'M SO SICK OF THIS FUCKIN FAMILY AND I CAN'T TAKE YOU PEOPLE ANY MORE. IF HE'S GOING, HOW LONG WILL IT BE BEFORE I DO? ARE YOU GONNA DO THE SAME WITH ME AS YOU DID WITH HIM? FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU ALL. AND TO YOU, THE READER, IF ANY, IT'S NOT ONLY MY MOTHER I'M TALKING ABOUT. IT'S MY DAD. IT'S MY RELATIVES. IT'S EVERYONE IN THIS FUCKIN WORLD. "YOU KNOW THE MOMENT YOU STEP OUT OF THIS HOUSE, YOU DON'T BELONG HERE ANYMORE". FUCK YOU. FUCK THE LOTTA YA. HATE. HATE IS A STRONG WORD. AND HERE IT IS IN ITS GREATEST CONTEXT: I HATE THIS WORLD.

so how are you?

blahhhhh

2005-03-12T22:29:00.000+11:00

eurch.

I realised how much better i feel after posting on here. heh, it's also satisfying to know that everyone hates it that they don't know what i'm talking about. and so you should, but in me saying that, i'm still gonna give you cryptic posts that don't make sense, or at least to you. hah, my revenge on the world [[little as it is]]. Not only am I cold, bored, hungry, sleepy, busting to go to the toilet, bogged down in homework, but my computer is stuffed and with all these windows randomly closing and MSN not working, I feel so ...isolated or something. I mean, it's a long weekend and I was invited to go out to MOOMBA [[heh, why, people, why?!!!]] and i'm not going because i have to go to the age expo the day before, and i'm already strapped for cash. here are some problems heh, or at least, "challenges" i'm facing -cryptic and non-cryptic-:

> I can't play my music loudly
> Everyone's in a pissy mood (not excluding me)
> The teacher won't let me back out of the Japan study tour- I DON'T HAVE THE MONEY!! Can't she get that through her head?
> I have been this > <> I can't sleep until after 12 nearly everynight (that's late for me)
> He's going some time this week
> I'm helpless
> I've resigned
> It can't be helped and even if it could, to what use?
> He will be back
> Third time so?
> Gently is playing through my head
> As Bittersweet symphony plays through the speakers
> Everyone's asleep. all, but me.
> Not as many "challenges" as plain thoughts
> No one will read this
> I'm feeling the same way i told myself, no VOWED to myself to never feel ever again. I can't help it and I'm almost giving up from it.
> "I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down. Been down. Ever been down (x4). Have you ever been down?"
> Why me? Right in the middle of it. HOLD FIRE.. until i'm gone, at least.
> Fuck you

I'm going. i'm not expecting any comments. two posts in two days. hasn't been like this since the holidays. since then. a long time. i have a long time ahead. ahead. will there be a future. for anyone. maybe. or not. gotta.get.out.of.this.place. no. i can't. or else. like him. like them. never. ever. that's a fuckin vow. how many must i do? no more vows. just empty promises.

going. going. gone.

Plop

2005-03-11T18:36:00.000+11:00

well.

Yes, it's been a while indeed. well, I'm stuck for what to say. It's like when you haven't seen a friend in such a long time and you suddenly meet again. Such awkwardness. Well, how's life? muh. - no comment- Well, it was my birthday, yes, a while ago too. homework? yes. and lots of it. Bored? yes. hey, wanna see inside my head? not see, just see what's happening:

homework- literature - english- maths - science - history - japanese ; japanese - study tour -$3800 - scary teacher who won't let me back out?; back? - that's all I ever see of you; you? who are you; The age expo - VCE - future career - optometry?; future? have you heard of that term?; ignorant shit - kicked out - bum - end of semester 1 - that's not logical; sense- what does sense mean? - how does one make sense?; MSN - piece of crap - virus - i'm not feeling well - slag; cry - sleep - book - weird - camp - groups - birthday - alone - shout - slave - slipknot - ignore - ignorant - what are you doing if you're not smiling? - is that bad - that is bad - where are you - who are you - those days - these days - shit - gaia - 812 gold - game? - is it all a game? - best speaker - score even with two others, so why me - why did that guy write my name on the score sheet to be best speaker? - boxing gloves - hockey stick - Bowling for Columbine - violence in society - i put my hand up in class today - good comment, kimo - makes it pat on the back work, don't it, then? - noticable - school tours - meals on wheels - screwed up - old people - man with bad slouch - deaf lady - smelly trays - smelly houses - I hope to never get old - hopefully that doesn't come true - smells like teen spirit - lost - not the show - anorexia - kid in year 7 - long - so it is - are you reading this - I'm not reading this - bump - newbie - year 11 - exams - japanese sucks like a bitch - i hate it - i hate you

get back, dirt off your shoulder - fun - you hate it - why - confuzzled - random - or - shuffle - mp3 - music - saviour - screamo - scream-a-long - hate that too - hate everything - hate - opposite to love - disgree - jealousy is the opposite to love - or not - still - fuckin hypocrite - fuckin conformists - you love that - society - you love it all - but me - left unspoken - bathe in your victory - yes, you - we don't know what you're talking about - good for you then - better this way - not same person, people - keep your feet on the ground - come see my cage, built in my grave - only friends? - i don't know - do you know - why ask - saturday night then - but sunday's the next day - fuck it - fuck you

i'm hungry - another one - oh yes - i never strapped you down to read - piss off then - picnics in the garden - who picnics these days - the no seatbelt song - suicidal? - you did well - where are you now - did i do well - email - fuck off - msn - fuck off - virus - fuck off - homework - fuck off - family - fuck off - food - fuck off - friends - fuck off - everyone/ everything -fuck off - bad mood, ey? - no - fuck off

Gently - Slipknot

Gently, my mind escapes into the relaxing
world of pleasure, a pleasure that'll take
my mind off the reality of my life,
my past life... life as I know it now.

And whatever may come, it slowly
disappears to somewhere in the back
of my mind. It will remain there,
until I wish to retrieve it.

Yes, I will stay here for a while,
for I need the break. A break from the
pressures of life, and everything
that lays in the palm of life's hands.

This mode is incredible. It's out of
this world. Too bad I must always leave it...
... but that's life.

All that about sums it up. Listen to the song, it's goodness at its best. Like me at the moment. Can you tell I'm happy?

Kimo.

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2005-02-25T21:48:00.000+11:00

To whom it concerns,

I am deciding between cutting off all OH MY GOD I'VE JUST FOUND THE IMAGE UPLOAD BUTTON!!!!!!! =O -shakes fist- damn you all. Well, that does it then, doesn't it. -stamps feet in frustration- i was gonna.. but.. i.. guh, fine. after a few pics up here, i'll do it. do what i was MEANT to do today. -hasn't stopped shaking fist and stomping feet. [[multi-tasking]]- well, thanks for the awesome comments guys... my hit counter's gone up like 50+ counts, but... only ONE comment?!! -cough- gah, i don't know how to use this thing!!! i'm getting freaked out by it. Well, i'll just let you know, you've all been SNUBBED by ME. hah, eat that. and if you wanna find where Kimo Land 2 is hiding, i suggest you start looking at a certain place called http://gaiaonline.com or not. i'm just bored and that reminds me, my character needs some clothes.. well, i'm going.

cyaz,
Kimo.

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2005-02-18T21:39:00.000+11:00

3 dead give-aways that you've been crying:
- You're eyes are all red and puffy
- You're all clogged up
- You're voice is shaky

God. Fuckin hell. I try to be reasonable, I try to talk calmly and evenly, taking all sides. Jesus Christ, it always ends the same. I just want them all to piss off to somewhere else. WHYYY?!!!! Go talk to ... Go talk to ... tell them this, tell them that. Yeah, well, fuckin hell, you don't think i've tried?!! They think I just sit there and enjoy it, don't they?!! Get fucked, I'd like to say to their face, but i'm outnumbered. 1:the world. and they never give up. When was the last time we were all at peace?!! god forsaken a year? two? that's horrible. and why dyu always have to raise your voice?!!we've all heard it before. yes, we do appreciate you. ohhhh god, don't bring it all back again. I'm trying to back the other ALL the time. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of all of you. leave me alone and get fucked, wankas. bashed with a hockey stick? that's new. ohhh god. it's so quiet. -sob- i'm not sick if i'm not hungry. not heard of? i just had maccas, whats ur problem?!! urgh, bringing in him too?!! why can't we all get along? SICK OF IT.

we only end up going in circles. just stop and see how unreasonable you're all being. how is it that every other can get along just fine and we can't? why must you have me in tears everytime you open your stupid mouth?!! Correction: you actually start shaking, not just your voice. stop it. please. just. stop. it. PLEASE.

Jaws theme swimming by Brand New:

In a car outside, we stalk the idle kind.
If you're leaving, just let me know.
Tobacco and peppermint, dusting for fingerprints.
A film in her eyes from the glow.
Some rules are made with all intentions to break
And she defends it with a warped rationale.
And I've seen what happens to the wicked and proud
When they decide to try to take on the throne for the crown.

[Chorus:]
And we learn as we age.
We've learned nothing and my body still aches.
And you take cause they give.
Though I love you and my body it leaks like a sieve.

When it got old outside, smoke beneath the playground lights.
If you're coming home, just let me know.
Sucking on your breath mint, dissected and stuck with pins.
A film in her eyes from the glow.
Concrete and water, she's looking for her daughter
At midnight in torrential downpour.
And everything I said about how messed your head is,
Was cut up and left in bits and pieces on the cutting room floor.

[Chorus x2]

Take the picture from the wall when you think that nothing matters.
Take the picture from the plane and it's a long ways to the floor.
Cut your finger on the edge cause it's sharper than they told you.
Take a leap from out the window cause it's way too far to go through the door.

[Chorus]
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Thanks for the comments guys.
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Oh yeah. Thanks for that, I'm always there bullshit. As if. And to think i even believed you for it!! What now? you're gonna jump at me, grinning and all saying "sucked in!!". get fucked. waste my time and your time. and of all the posts, you'll probably read this one. well, good. you get a kick outta it, don't you. "i'm so good. i'm so great. i know everything." yeah, well if you did, then why don't you do anything? screwed over. i don't wanna talk to you again (though i probably will) Not only you, that other one as well. "we're always here" yeah, my ass. get lost. the lotta ya.

Me.

Can I go to sleep yet, ms hayden?

2005-02-17T18:49:00.001+11:00

yeh.
goddddd. maths test. jap test- vocab, kanji AND listening. ongoing TEDIOUS homework from Literature and English. public speaking and debating (speaks for itself). SCHOOL debating. ONLY 3 WEEKS AWAY!! (what's the topic?) uerrrrghhhh. and thanx for the comments guys. the nerve of you!! i KNOW you've been here too. coz u TOLD ME!! gee..

well, i'm in the midle of typing up a story i just made up. tell me, what turns a man sour? what makes him kill? well, i took a stab at it and here's what i've produced. not much, i haven't even finished it yet:

"Get outta here, fag," I yelled across the playground at the short tubby kid. He just stood there dumbly, and looked at me funny. I'll have to show him how to do it, I thought to myself. So I did as movies taught me; I'll teach him a lesson. I punched him in the guts twice and another time for good luck. God knows, he deserved it.

My name's Jon and I'm guilty of manslaughter. I'm serving twenty five years and I've been here for two and a half. The shrinks here are making us "no-gooders" write a reflection on what went wrong in our life. How we screwed up. Who screwed us up. Who we screwed up. I had a few words to say to that, but I thought better of it. I'd rather have dinner, thank you very much. So anyway, instead of writing my life story, they said to write about my childhood to start off with. Geez, could they be any more boring? Well, that’s probably what happens when you stay in a prison for a few years. Your brain starts to disintegrate and you forget what fun and interesting is. Well, here's what has happened:

"What's 25 over 75?" the teacher asked. No one knew the answer, except for me. I pitied them, for what little brains god had given them. I yelled out the answer and then got into trouble for not putting my hand up. They yelled and yelled, as per usual. Mum against dad. Dad against mum. Mum and dad against me. I would usually go to my room and slam the door to their screams, but sometimes I would stay, just for the fun of shouting at my parents. But at the end of the day, I'm always riled up by their fights.

"Did you steal Henry's shoes?" the teacher asked me for the third time. I just looked at her hard and answered as I had the other times she had asked me.
"No, I didn't."
"We know it was you, so stop lying. I am going to report this to your parents and you will get after school detentions for a week. Is that understood?"
Denials fell on deaf ears.

He pushed a smoke into my hand. All the other boys behind the shed were already sucking the horrible gases. They were probably only doing it to feel older. Stupid 11-year-olds who think they're so great. I refused and got taunts from all.

The yelling had finally ceased for the day at about nine that night. It usually finished around then, when they were both yelled-out. They slammed doors and that was when I could turn my music down. I spent a lot of my time on the computer, to get away from the life I was living. I loved to role play; the only thing I could control in my life.

"You failed maths?" "Why do you bother attending school these days?" "Your grades have dropped so much this year." "Are you doing drugs...?" and so it went on the night my year 7 report card came home. My dad didn't even go to school.

A spit ball hit the teacher on the back of the head as he wrote on the board. His head snapped around with his face bright red. He looked straight at me so I didn't have enough time to wipe the smirk off my face.
"GET OUT!"
He stalked out behind me as I reluctantly sauntered out of the classroom. He leaned so close to me I could smell the faintest hint of whiskey in his breath.
"You are to go straight to the principal... no, you are going to have an after school detention for the next two weeks, not to mention a note to your parents and your next offence will be suspension. Understood?"
My denials fell on deaf ears. Again.

I stepped off the bus after the third afternoon of detention and walked home. I've had enough of school. I wish it would burn in hell- teachers and students. When I opened the door and stepped inside, it was quiet, so I assumed mum and dad were out somewhere. I dumped my bag in my room and slumped on my bed. The room span and I realized I was crying. That's for losers, I thought, and wiped them away. I trudged into the kitchen to grab a bite to eat and was startled to find my mum on the floor crying. I loved my mum. I always have, always will. I wondered if she knew that. I went over to her and put my arm around her. She didn't say anything, but stopped crying. We sat there for a while and I wondered why I didn't hold her more often.

One day after another detention, I got off the bus. A bunch of hard looking guys in about year eleven stepped off as well. As I walked, I realized they were still behind me. I had been growing pretty quickly and was standing at about 170cm and like many boys that age, I was tall and lanky with not enough meat to fill out my muscles. I kept walking and turned the corner into my street and then they came. The boys from behind pushed me into a wooden fence and made a semi-circle around me. I didn't recognize anyone, except the leader. He was a well-built, good-looking Vietnamese guy who was slightly taller than me.
"What're ya doin' punk? Dyu realize you're on our turf?"
I shook with fear, but I tried to hide it, so I said, "Who says?"
"Ooo, a tough guy, ey"
He then proceded in punching me in the face. There was blood everywhere and I made a blind swing at him, but only to make a fool of myself. They all snickered at my inability to fight. The next bit is a blur of punches and kicks, but all I can say is that by the end of it, I could have drowned in the pool of blood that had been made. They swiftly jumped a fence and left when the look-out spotted someone coming their way. I lay there, splattered on the concrete path wishing it was a magic carpet of soft cushions that could take me home.

A month or two after that incident, I got home only to find my mother like before; crying on the ground. The only difference was that there were bruises on her arm that weren't there when she had handed me my lunch that morning.
"What happened?" I asked.
"You're father's gone to live somewhere else. I don't think he'll be coming back for a while. He told me to tell you to study and not fight with other kids again."
Then she broke into tears. I did as before and held her, trying to comfort her and keep my anger under control.

I made a routine of working out my muscles everyday. One hundred push-ups and a hundred sit-ups everyday before school and when I got home from school. I'm going to kill those bitches when I see them again, I'd think.

My mum couldn't handle the divorce. She got depressed and cried everyday. She couldn't help it and in the end, five months later, drank some poison and died while I was at school. I got home and found her lying on the ground, still clutching a bottle of cleaning detergent. I panicked and ran next door, only to scare the neighbours with my nonsensical gibberish. It took me a few hours to calm down. The next thing I knew, my dad was there to ship me off to his place; a unit in a suburb twenty minutes from there. I hated the world. Actually, that's wrong. I hate the world.

I disappointed my dad again. I kept going to school, but that year I had failed all my subjects. I had to repeat year ten. My dad had a fit and screamed until I thought his veins might have busted under the pressure. Well, needless to say, he was not a happy man and kicked me out for that night. He told me to get out and have a think about my future. So I did. I had no future. I was angry. I was alone.

I had been eyeing this girl for a while. She wasn't like the rest of the girls around. She wasn't a girly girl, but she wasn't manly. She laughed at my jokes, even though we both knew they were lame. I couldn't help it, but she knew I'd been through a lot, and no one showed it like she did. I talked to her when I could, without giving away the fact that I thought I loved her. She was the centre of my world for a long time. We were friends for about a year and then we realized we liked each other. So I asked her out to this party everyone was going to. So we hooked up there and things got a little steamy. So I was going to do the whole hog, but she backed off. I hadn't realized and kept going. She screamed, slapped me and ran off. I can never forget that look of rejected disappointment in her eyes.

I was angry after that incident with her. I got pissed and when it was late, and I hadn't seen her at all again that night, I left. On the way to my dad's house, I staggered into a beaten guy. In my drunken stupor, I recognized him in the moonlight, as the ringleader of the gang that had bashed me months ago. He was leaning on a fence with his eyes closed, actually, I think they were so swollen they couldn't open. So I towered over him and tried not to sway.
"Hah, where are your buddies now?"
He stirred at my voice and squinted through the darkness and swollen eyelids. He tried to speak, but only a wheeze managed to come out of his mouth.
"Nice one, maaate."
And I gave him a hearty kick to the side. He slumped over and didn't get up.

I found that the guy I had kicked was still alive, but in a serious condition. His story was in Crime stoppers the next day and anyone with information should see the police. Well, I made a pact to myself. When that guy gets out of hospital, I was going on a manhunt. The anger had risen from unknown depths and I became obsessed with this guy who had beaten me up and scarred me. Perhaps he was just the scapegoat to all my problems, but I didn't care. He was going to pay; pay for beating me up, my parent's divorce, my mum's suicide and for my girlfriend leaving me.

[[1815 words]]

So there you go. Yeah, I know all my puntuation crap is all wrong and it probably doesn't make sense, but well.. like i said, there you go. So please comment and hope you enjoy '-' and, just to justify myself, i have no idea how a guy thinks, so sorry if i got it wrong. well, more homework. ahh crap, it's like 8. and i haven't started studying. if i got to sleep at 9:30 that'll give me an hour and a half. feck, im tired already.

Kimo.

[[Just been and corrected all, yes ALL my mistakes- geeeeez, never realised how bad my english was.]]

@: ) IT'S TURBAN MAN!!

2005-02-13T14:21:00.000+11:00

Ohiyo gozaimasu.
yaha, watashi wa nihongo o hanashite imasu ga yonde imasen yo. (yaha, i am speaking in Japanese, but i am not reading) ogenki desu ka. (how are you) abunakunai desu yo. (that is not dangerous(i think)).

Yeah, well, i have to do some japanese everyday, and even though there's that pile of work staring at me and saying that it's due in tomorrow, that'll do for today. yeah, well i ALSO read some MANGA, yes, i, hater of japanese READ a japanese comic book that used to be for pussies only. yeah, well, did you know? ohh what a nerd i've become. I am turning into one of those people i usded to despise. i mean, i actually paid attention in SCIENCE class. yes. and what's worse [[maybe not WORSE, just ...different]] is that i actually understood what the teacher was talking about. but what IS worse, is that i felt like slapping the people who were yelling and complaining of the work. geeeeeeez, i'm turning into an ashleigh/ gabi- no diff, they're practically one person... what? who said that..? moving on. yes. nerd i am. and do u know how nerdy i felt when all the year 10 classes were in the library and i went off to do my work when all my ither friend's were getting told off for talking in the reading place? extremely. and you know i got excited when i found out that the scanner i was using could READ the text off the page i was scanning? i thought these were mega rare!! yeah, well, there you go.

Yes, Valentine's Day is coming up. -snort- what losers. lol, i mean, my friend was telling me how his friend spent like $55 on roses or something. The only good thing about Valentine's day is the fact that in exactly 2 weeks later will be my birthday!! yay. and yeah. I think everyone's bagged Valentine's day as much as possible, so i dno what i can add to it. blah blah materialistic blah blah money could be spent elsewhere blah blah what the f do roses do blah blah.. you get the point. and speaking of points, since when were roses romantic? geez, good one to the idiot who thought that one up!! "i'm gonna give this blood red flower with thorns all over it to the love of my life" Not to mention the chocolates. boxed chocolates? most of them taste awful, like who eats those orange chocolate ones?!! not me for one. not anyone in my family. and you know in the boxed chocolate section, there's always the after dinner mints? does that mean people actually give AFTER DINNER MINTS to people? yeah, here's some after dinner mint, coz after dinner, you're breath is always disgusting. that's always nice. And then, there's the teddy bears. Teddy bears are the last resort for presents, in my opinion. I mean, teddy bears are bought BY the boring or FOR the boring. well, not exactly, but dyu get what i mean? like, the buyer couldn't think of anything to buy and, you go you brain, got them a teddy bear, coz they're just all rounders. coz every guy or girl just looooves cuddly little replicas of dangerous mammals. well, i don't. if anyone was PLANNING to get me a teddy bear as a present, don't. nothing personal, just i don't do anything with them. they're as useless as roses. and orange chocolates.
[[conclusion: valentine's day is useless]]

Look at what I found for my`````````

Umm.. yeah.

2005-02-05T17:40:00.000+11:00

Hallo all,

Long time no see, talk, whatever. Well, school's started and i guess it's alright, except i can already feel the loads of work i'm possibly gonna get. oh my dog i still have to write something on the first act of "the imprtance of being earnest"- a rather dumb play by some guy who homosexually harrassed someone or something. In the 14th century- I can't remember if that was of this guy, about hitler, something to do with rockets or i'd just made it up; the first week was pretty weird. yeah, well, anyway.

You know for english, we have to do some anthology or something that'll take a term to complete. Yeah, well, that means it HAS to be good, doesn't it? well, i've decided to start on it, get it out of the way and if my computer bungs up again, I won't be TOO stressed out. So anyway, for those who are interested in what my topic is, it's: the journey through abuse, or something. damn this "journeys" thing. i mean, everyone's just gonna have their own topic anyway, so why not just cut out the whole "journey" bit of it? That doesn't make it any easier to choose, you know. Well, the way i picked was to find the nicest looking biography and base it around that :P Well the guy was abused or something, so i guess i'll just do it on like abusive behaviour or something, like domestic and stuff. who knows. Well, here's a story i wrote in 3 hours- i'm just guessing coz it's 5 now and i've been eating and doing other homework and stuff in between. which reminds me, did anyone see that ant documentary just before? it was pretty good. so good, that i just had to watch the whole thing. you know, we got this booklet to "think about our goals" and how we do our homework or something and one of the questions was: do you take credit if you suceed. and my friend answered "yeah. i reward myself when i do my homework" there are two things wrong with that. 1. what are you "suceeding" in when you do your homework. and 2, that wasn't even what the question asked. ^.- yah, well anyway.

Oh yeah, that story, right? well, keep in mind i just wrotre it and you will be the first people to read it, well, apart from me. [[please read]] So I hope you enjoy:

He struck her once, twice, with the closest utensil; a ladle that lay on the cooking bench. His composed, proud stance never changed and one could be mistaken into thinking nothing had changed and all was normal. But there was something wrong.

She walked from the rice fields, bare feet slapping on the dirt track with her shoulders slouched. She had worked at her parent's rice fields for seven of her thirteen years. She was tired, as always, but she knew when she got home she would have to cook dinner for her family and do a hundred smaller chores. Since her mother had died during a miscarriage three years ago, all the responsibility of her four younger brothers and sisters sat on her shoulders. Her father spent his days at the market trying to sell what little rice they obtained from the dried up fields. It had been an awful hot season and few crops had survived the heat.

She picked herself off the ground when she was sure he had left, wiped her tears with the back of her worn sleeve. She was accustomed to these outbursts of rage from her father; ever since her mother had passed away he was convinced he had done something truly evil in his past life to deserve this. She sighed and turned back to the pot of porridge she was cooking for dinner. Why must he pick on her, she wondered to herself. She thought it was always good to get a good beating to know one’s place if one had stepped out of place, but she had done nothing wrong. She pushed it to the back of her mind and blamed it on the probable low price of rice.

When she crossed the bridge over the riverbank on the way home, she saw a group of boys in the distance. As she got closer, they turned to her, so she quickened her pace to avoid their taunts and sneers. As she walked past, one of the bigger boys, perhaps a year or two older than her blocked her path. Another came from behind with a stick and smashed it on the back of her legs. She heard the stick splinter and the pain was excruciating, but she only had one thought, and that was to get to the meagre safety of her home. Cruelty from a loved one is more understandable than from a complete stranger. While on her knees, a boy came from behind and tied her to a tree with a long piece of course rope. The boys took it in turns to do whatever they pleased to the girl; violent, sexual or both.

She finished cooking and gathered the family around the creaky, termite eaten table for their second-rate meal. The stony silence was usual; no one had much to say anymore and the young ones were indifferent to the monotonous meal of rice. They were on such a tight budget these days that soy sauce was as far as their father dare venture. When they had finished their food, she collected their bowls and took them down to the river with her youngest brother to wash. They walked the familiar path in silence, each with their own thoughts. All the children were uneducated, with school being a distant unnecessary dream that would do no good to them in life, but she still thought the young ones should not have to work so hard in the fields everyday.
She went to sleep on the thin mat in the same room as her siblings. She heard her youngest brother whimpering in his sleep about how he missed his mummy. She rolled over and tried to block it out and get some sleep before another day’s hard work. Then she heard something she was not used to at all. The sound came from under the hut. She froze and tried to hear what it was, but her brother was making too much sound to make out anything from under the hut. The noises got louder and louder until she need not strain to hear it. It sounded as if her father was fighting with someone. She got up quietly and saw her second brother, only a year younger, had also heard the noises. They both crept out of the room, making sure they did not wake the younger children. The tip toed down the corridor and looked over the edge of the balcony of the hut and strained their eyes through the dark to try and see what was happening under the house.

When the boys had finished with her, they left her tied to the tree and went in the direction of town. She struggled to free herself and finally, ripped skin and all, got free of the restraints and ran home sobbing. Her home was only two kilometres away, but she was numbed with shock and terror. She did not notice how much blood she had lost on the way until she collapsed unconscious a few metres from her home.

There were four silhouettes in the darkness under the hut; one was being held by two larger silhouettes and another a little way off regarding the three with its arms crossed. The three tangled together was a mass of writhing shadows, but it all stopped when the lone silhouette barked a command unknown to the brother and sister watching. There was a heavy silence that hurt to be in, with the tension becoming increasingly harder to bear. Then the single shadow spoke, a voice surprisingly powerful, "I have warned you three times already to pack up and leave and we will not hurt you or your family. I advise you negotiate now or prepare yourself for a death so close you could taste it, loathe it, love it. You will be working from dawn until midnight, sleep with the animals and have half a meal a day. Not much different to now." It looked around and felt the stilts that held the hut up and hit it hard, making the whole hut shudder violently.

She woke to find five faces staring at her. She sat up and the world swam around her, but she shook her head a couple of times and it levelled out enough to see that she was still a few metres from her home and it looked as if not much had changed since she had collapsed. Her father told her brothers and sisters to go into the hut and do their chores; clean up, get water... Her father leaned close to her and laid his hand on her shoulder, got up and walked away. She was puzzled. Was that his way of expressing his affection?

The shadow brought his hand back and punched the middle silhouette in the stomach. It let out a loud exhale of air and doubled over in obvious pain. Suddenly its head snapped up and it spat into the single shadow’s face. Immediately, the two outer silhouettes tightened their grips and dragged the middle one away. All four went further into shadows out of the brother and sister’s view. They heard a struggle and a sudden gurgling sound, as if someone had put their head under water. They looked at each other in fear and strained their eyes harder into the thick darkness, but could not make anything out of the black. Then the sister saw something shift close by. It was a red band on a bare arm with rippling muscles. She grabbed her brother and retreated back into the hut and woke her younger siblings and whispered direct instructions. They were to pack all their belongings, only the basics, and run into the nearby forests that they had always been banned from entering. She went back out onto the balcony to check where the red banded shadow had gone. When she heard and saw nothing of the shadows, she waved her siblings to escape through the back window. When her last brother had disappeared, she took one last look backwards and caught sight of the arm banded shadow. A mere arms length away. And it looked straight at her.

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yaha, that's it. please tell me what you think [[only if it's good :P if you thought it was crap, than good for you, but say it's good anyway:D]] And you know my friend that rewarded herself when she did her work or whatever, she's like really really super smart, so i rewarded myself after that ^. with spider solitaire :P actually, that a change of CD and some chocolate. And dyu know what i did today? I wore a beanie and ate an easter egg (that wasn't my reward). MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL!!

Kimo.

BIG DAY OUT '05 AND I WASN'T THERE!!!!!!!!

2005-01-30T18:44:00.000+11:00

eh,

: ( I woke up depressed coz i knew that i was missing out on a chance to go crazy with a whole bunch of other smelly strangers at Big Day Out with Slipknot playing at 5:30 to 6:30 PM. That and the fact that I still have a couple pages of solid Jap to do and my mum insisted on cleaning the house. who cleans these days..? man. I had this countdown in my head. Is it at all suprising that i couldn't find ANY radio station or tv station that'd be generous enough to show some live stuff from it? I mean, there'll DEFINATELY be SOMEone there, so why not share? dickwads. @: ( turban man's sad. It's like the whole Livid thing all over again!! All i remember of that was that Linkin Park and The White stripes were playing: October 12. Not that i like the white stripes, but that's all i remember. oh, and it was $98 or something.

Well anyway, moving on. it's past and all i can do is look forward to the next gig that i won't be allowed to go to. -shakes fist- floof. Well, while I WASN'T at BDO, I was just thinking. What kinda name's Ned? The last person I know by that name was Ned Kelly, and he turned out quite mad. Well, in fact, I saw a mother saying "come here, Ned" wah?!! Ned. Is that even short for anything? It's like the name Ernst. It's not even Earnest!! Not that Earnest is alright. Who's called that anyway? uhhh, the guy from the stupid play thing i had to read for lit.

Well i've got a bloody stomach ache that's not gonna go away until i eat, so i'm off to the kitchen for a food hunt,

Kimo.

-

2005-01-27T19:00:00.000+11:00

Hallo.
Yes, I can finally make a new post through blogger. Keyword: finally. So anyway, what has happened since I left off with my listsof stuffs? Well, here's another list for you:
- My computer died. Not as in it reached the end of it's short lived life. As in, it just said "no, I refuse to let you get past the windows logo and i WANT you to hit me. Yeah, hit me with you're best shot, wanka." I was sooo tempted to give it a kick or two, but I refrained myself (just) because it would be harder to fix in the long run.

- After rebooting it, (btw, what kinda name is that? re booting it. well, i wouldn't mind booting it, but should/would i? no, so stop trying to tempt me.) I realised "hey, everything's been wiped. - silent fit of rage / hate / loathing at the computer, including an assortment of swear words in TWO languages.-" Just for those who have never felt the wrathe of a bunged up computer, it wiped out ALL my pictures, ALL my music, ALL my programs, ALL my documents and ALL my settings. Dyu know what?!! I'm stuck with a fricken FLOWER as my background. ya like that, don't ya?!!

- I had to do this burning of fake money, clothes and stuff (some chinese tradition for the dead or something) and now i bloody well smell like smoke. and that's not a good thing.

- It's bloody fricken hot. I hate hot weather. actually, i don't but i'll just say i do for now.

- I am the scatergory CHAMPION!! With total points of >60<> I love maths
=> That man is a sumo wrestler and he's fat
=> The boys mucked around after dinner (is it just me, or does that sentence look dirty at first glance?)
- I can TASTE smoke.
- I found myself CHEERING for Alicia Molik and Lleyton Hewitt the other day. For those hiding under rocks and were luckily able to get away from the madess, this was in the AUSTRALIAN OPEN. -cough- as in TENNIS. yes, Prinx (if you read this) I actually sat down and watched the tennis. shame on me. well, i guess it's not saying much since i sat down and watched the cricket too :P
- and last, but not least, I CAN TASTE SMOKE!!

Well, that'll do for now. OMG, just today, i've been bitten, by who knows what kinda SICK creature, on my last count: >8< times. AND I'M ITCHING LIKE HELL!! Well, i'm going to eat. :D I like this whole traditional chinese thing or something. Well, apart from smelling/ tasting like smoke (i'm sure i do) my mum had to cook all this food as some sort of peace offering? who knows. But what i do know is that i get to eat it!! and i'm hungry, so make way,

Kimo.

And you really WOULDN'T mind leaving a comment, would ya now? You told us all off for not on YOU'RE blog. You're mad Bill Smith.

Eurrghhhh

2005-01-14T13:31:00.000+11:00

piss off,

hpmh. i just don't know what to do. i'm so fricken lost. i mean, did you know i was starting to turn into one of those wankas i hate that cry over guys?!! well..i just had something in my eye. no, don't look at me like that, i don't even know why i started. but it's not like he's that great. i hope he reads this. yeah, you're not that great. fkn 6 am my ass. And now he's pissed at me for playing with his stuff. well, you shoulda thought of that before you messed with me. jesus christ. you and your bloody mood swings. get a life. so anyway, so it's just like that now? then why the fk isn't it the same? and where are you when i need you? fine. you do that then, i'm over it.

This is the part where i write some sort of extremely sad or moving poem or song, but since i'm unoriginal, i'll just stick my favourite song at the moment (keep in mind it has nothing to do with him, it's just i really like this song) :

No Seatbelt SongSo, it's sad this doesn't suit you now.And me fresh out of rope...Please ignore this lisp, I never meant to sound like this.So take me and break me and make me strong like you.I'll be forever grateful to this and you.It's only you, beautiful.Or I don't want anyone.If I can choose it's only you.Fix me to a chain around your neck and wear me like a nickel.Even new wine served in old skins cheapens the taste.I shot the pilot, now I'm begging you to fly this for me.I'm here for you to use, broken and bruised.Do you understand?It's only you, beautiful.Or don't want anyone.If I can choose, it's only you.But how could I miscalculate... perfect eyes will have perfect aim.If I can choose, it's only you.“We're wrecking” and I'm dry like a drum...when you screamso fine I'll leave... we're spent... we've got time and trials...measured in miles... we slave for days (and weeks).It's only you, beautiful.Or I don't want anyone.If I can choose. It's only you.But how could I miscalculate... perfect lies from a perfect dame.If I can choose... it's only you.

So there you have it. Well actually, i’ve written a poem, or at least, i’ve written a bunch of words stuck together. Nothing much but if you don’t want your eyes soiled, then i suggest you don’t read:

I'd like to call this poetry,
but think whatever you like.
here's me,
scrawling away.
while the world passes unnoticing.
Except you.
You notice. you cared. you talked while others ignored.
Call it jealousy. Call it indignant. Call me.
is it fair that you spent more time with another she?
One that could make you lose all notion of time?
Someone other than me?
So you're sorry?
I did what i did to make you laugh,
not for you to go wild and punch a wall.
Now you're pissed. I'm pissed. piss off.
Bed with me again and i'll kick you in the balls.
Life ain't a movie and you know it.
can't you just say you hate me and let it be over?
Nah, i like being the prissy princess with fkn guy probs.
What a wanker i've become.
So hear me out,
if all else fails, can we still be friends?

Now do as i said and piss off.

me.

No optimists were hurt in the testing, though they should've been.

2005-01-10T15:31:00.000+11:00

hello losers,

yeah yeah, i'm the one that was stood up yes. well news to you, wendy in particular, i wasn't gonna CRY, not even close. I'm made of more than that. but i'm still pissed off. have no fear, i have invaded his msn, having signed in and called him a dipshit and all. niiice, but have no doubt, he'll be after me. ehehehehe, what a loser.
Anyway, i'm not here to talk about him, or am i? no, actually i'm not. so anyway, thanks for the comment garrett, nice to hear from someone. well, britt answered me, but that was kinda WRECKED, wasn't it? lol, no, don't go back and look. yeah. him. so anyway.. why is it that everyone, well a lot of people, are completely PARANOID about my safety, but i am hardly concerned? I mean, death is inevitable so why not embrace it? well, perhaps not "embrace" it exactly, but how about, not be scared? geez, i really would have liked to see someone pull a gun/knife/anything out on me on saturday, coz i was so pissed of i woulda given him/her/it a piece of my mind. You know what's scary? mad women. For example, my mum, my grandma, my aunties, teachers. you get? and isn't it true? you'd go outta your way just to avoid them. well, i dno about you, but that's just me.

Does anyone else have problems with blogger? it took me like 5 presses of the refrsh button to even get here, and two more to actually get the layout to look normal. where the fk is the publish button? wtf? jeez.

you know what i realised? i LIKE being in a bad mood. i love muttering insults and swear words under my breath. i like threatening people. i like radiating a sense of hate and loathing. actually, if i ever do this to you, i'm probably laughing inside AT you. ahahahaha, i'm a cynical bitch. And i think, after saying that, i like being pessimistic. think positive my ass. Who does that? gay people who're so high they think the world's a nice place. i mean, nothing against them or anything, but that frame of mind could really get you in trouble, couldn't it? hypothetically, you were being stalked by some huge guy who could squash you with his toe, weilding a full gun and shit.

Optimist (is that the right word for THEM people?): oh, i might get away with a few limbs!! score.
Pessimist: jesus christ, wtf is this guy doing? he's gonna fkn kill me!!
Optimist: hmm, he's holding his gun wrong. i should show him how to do it, in case he shoots me the wrong way.
Pessimist: ah fk. he's gonna fkn blow me up the wrong way. i'm gonna be a fkn paraplegic. i'd rather go to hell.
Optimist: i'll see you in heaven.
Pessimist: i'm not even fkn gonna go to heaven. jesus christ. whats this world coming to.

Conclusion: optimists are bloody pussies and WILL no doubt GET their asses kicked and pessimists are so much cooler and funnier. oh how we should rejoice at my findings. lol, i love that show, 30 seconds to fame or something. ELIMINATE THEM ALL. muhahahaahaha. i love pointing and laughing at people like that. well have a great day, coz you know you'll need it since school starts in 23 days. yay, i've decided against my resolution to be more positive, as studies show, only pussies are optimists. So lets go wild and have saladas with tuna,

Kimo.

hmph, you again.

2005-01-06T23:18:00.000+11:00

hallo.
yes. I'm sick of bloody writing here. Damn you people. Go here:
http://maddox.xmission.com/c.cgi?u=ruin_world thankyou alan, for the link. yeah. jesus christ, i was ready to bloody type something here, but i only realised after half an hour of waiting that it wasn't working. well, not half an hour, but a while. and then it took me another bloody 20 minutes to get to this page. jeeeeez. sick of it all. and dyu know what else i'm bloody sick of? Fkn rich smart people. geez, some people just have it all. and bloody fkn don't give a about anyone. fkheads. Then they expect everyone to bloody bow down to them coz they're that damn great. Any sort of constuctive critisism is a stab at them. And you wouldn't mind talking to me in the least, would you? yeah, great one sided convos i'm always having with you. AND YOU!! The nerve of you to bloody try and read my MSN conversations. so bloody rude. i don't care if you don't care, coz i bloody care and thats all that matters. jesus christ. "it's 11:30, you should go to bed soon" yeah, goddam i realise it's bloody 11:30 and what are you gonna fkn do about it? drag me into bed? yeah well, i'd really like to see that. bloody oath. And what was that stab at christianity you just made?!! I know i've said i don't agree with them, but i've never called then evil brain-washers. well, neither did you, but that's the bloody idea i got from what you said.

And so what if my fkn music has swearing in it?!! dyu fkn suddenly have a problem with it?!! it's not like you don't use those words in every fkn fight u fkn have. jeez, would it be better if it was fkn bleeped?!! no. fkn, it's the same thing. get a life mutha fka. And it's not just that. i know you think i'm weird. QUOTE from you about slipknot "you do know there are better looking guys to listen to" fk. that wasn't even one of those brainless stabs at one of my favourite bands. that was downright rude. i don't get you people. yeah, well this one's for you guys up there -turns up slipknot- eat that.

And where are we at? you fkn talk to me all the time. nearly everyday these holidays and i think we've bloody talked for so much that i reached the maximum conversation saving thing. That's more than my best friends. possibly put together. -.- i'm still glaring at YOU, guilty until proven. Anyway, where ARE we? i don't wanna ask, but i wanna know. but then again i don't. what if..? hmph. you dno what i'm talking about do you? -shakes head- good. and why. jeeez, this is what i wrote in my diary last year: something's wrong if life's good. I just found it coz i read through it yesterday. isn't it sad that i'd think that? well, no sympathy for the poor. i'll leave you now to wallow in that sorrow of yours. yes, you have it. the stain is all over us. and i'm gonna keep informing you in metaphors coz you're in space without me. you're all guilty until proven.

Me.

When you have kids, i hope they have three heads so you'll go broke buying hats for them.

2005-01-04T21:46:00.000+11:00

hi.

Well, it's the new year. i guess this is where i have to say: yay -.- i'm sorry, but i was a little more jolly before. before, being yesterday, or the day before, or lo and behold new year's day. Well, i'm in a brain numbing boredness that has godforsaken taken over me!! that was an optimistic approach, by the way. I mean, i could have said: i'm fkn bored shitless, but i didn't. yes, you see, i have gone by my resolutions. 4 days running!! -cough- though i could highly doubt some of my thoughts, especially those concerning school. but as EVERYONE says, school is jolly good fun and i should be enjoying it. well, i'll enjoy it ater, i guess, coz i'm on holidays at the moment. yeah, the glass is no longer half empty, but a matter of who stole my water.

Anyway. hmph. i'm trying to talk to someone on msn and type this at the same time; one of the biggest no-no's of a blog i can think of. Well, that's just me. my uncle came up with these rules to stretch your stomach so you can eat more, no offence, but he's a little chubby :P He said, 2 hours before your big meal, have a snack, but don't eat too much. Don't drink too much. and other stuff that's helpful, if you wanted to eat more. yeah. I'd be more interesting, but this person's a special one. ehehehehehe, just kidding.

Yeah, well i can think of something. A list of my favourite songs:

- Iris by the goo goo dolls.

- My happiness by Powderfinger

- I wish by R. Kelly (r'n'b)

- Purity by slipknot

- Cure for the itch by Linkin park

- Secret song on Reanimation album by Linkin Park

- Inhale by Stone Sour

- The no seatbelt song by brand new

- Appreciation by 213 (rap)

- Thug love by 2Pac (rap)

- Sic gloria transit by brand new

- Song 2 by Blur *bangs head around*

- pretty girl by Sugarcult

and -just for garrett-

-Brackish by kittie -it's not bad. really.

So yeah. I can't think of much else to say at the moment so i'll go now. well, actually, my mum's telling me off. not off, just that i spend too much time on the computer and that i should study or something. get real, school's another few weeks away. So going now,

Kimo.

Rest In Peace

2004-12-31T20:16:00.000+11:00

-Minutes silence for those lost in that damn big wave (does it havea specific name?)-

60.59.58.57.56.55.54.53.52.51.50.49.48.47.46.45.44.43.42.41.40.39.38. 37.36.35.34.33.32.31.30.29.28.27.26.25.24.23.22.21.20.19.18.17.16.15.14. 13.12.11.10.9.8.7.6.5.4.3.2.1.

-that took me longer than a minute.-

It's the end of the world!!

2004-12-31T14:04:00.000+11:00

Hallo.

yes, as my title says, it's the end of the world. I have compiled a list of reasons and here they are:

- That/ those (was it one or heaps?) tsunami/s that hit Asia is physical evidence that the world is falling apart. Soon all the plates will move and then Earth will shatter into a million pieces, smashing to it's demise; destruction; DEATH!! People will float around in space for eternity or at least until their heads explode with the pressure, and even the cochroaches will cease to exist.

- Global warming will just drown us all. Then giant fish and squid will rule the world!!

- Some country will make a weapon so powerful, it'll blow the world away. on two levels.

- Imagine, perhaps with the world in a giving, helping mood we might get world peace. And has there ever been world peace? no. So that would be the end of the world coz nasties like George bush wouldn't know how to cope.

- When everyone starts thinking like Alan (Simple Plan are better than R. Kelly) that will be the end of the world right there!! Who in their right minds, ok, maybe i'm over exaggerating and being a little rude, but WHO would/ COULD listen to Simple Plan, ordinary teeny "rock" over R. Kelly, a pretty good r'n'b kinda guy. no, i haven't converted, but i can't bring myself to say Simple Plan are good. I refuse to. Still, it's kinda sad that i'm saying r'n'bs better than some form of rock.

- We'll kill ourselves with our great technology. Well not us personally, but those people who do that stuff. They'll create something like on "I, robot" and then there'll be evil killing robots in the not too distant future.

- On the topic of movies, it's the whole "The day after tommorow" happening to us all. Let's all move to mexico.

-And, if we say it like this, perhaps we'll turn out like gattaca and i'll go around and kill all the valids myself.

-Everyone's gone all self-centred (including myself. look at me, i can't stop talking about myself) and then, all those people who think the world's against them will commit suicide. that wipes out all angst teens, rock band members, Britney Spears (yeah!!) and mid life crisees (mid-life ranging from 20-50). That'll leave the elderly and the crippled. And they'll have to have a play-off for top spot.

- people will just get plastic surgery coz they're all so damn vain and they'll melt when they finally spray away the o-zone layer.

- I'd say some more, it's just my mind's been soiled by the large amounts of television and street fighter that's poisened my mind, so i can't think of anything else.

So. Is there hope for this sad lump of substance? Don't ask me, i'm just a weeny 14 year old kid with no idea about all the crap she just went on about. But I was just thinking, is there hope for those Asian countries now? I mean, does this gives them a chance to start over and perhaps make it a better place? Or i could just be too hopeful in thinking so. Well, don't let me bog you down. Go out, have a great new year and cy'all lata,

kimo.

Bloody pearls.

2004-12-29T17:18:00.000+11:00

hallo.

yes, as my title says, bloody pearls. Not the white kind found on necklaces and jewellry, but those bloody slimy black gross things in bubble tea. bloody hell. I went to that jj ice-cream place at knox, not that many of you would know it coz you've probably never been, but anyway, not the point, and back to my story. so anyway, I walk in and wait behind two guys and since it's a small shop and it was only us in there, i sat on these really cute squishy orange chairs. So i'm just sitting there and waiting while watching this fricken group of TB BOYS and girls come intot he shop. then this asian lady who looks all snobby and all strolls up and PUSHES IN FRONT OF ME!! I'm just standing there (i'd gotten up when the TB's walked in, in case they wanted something. geez, i hate tb's) so anyway, she orders away, while i'm just glaring at her and then, that wasn't the worst bit. the bloody worst bit was that when i'd ordered: lychee red tea with fruit jelly. And dyu know what i got?!! lychee red tea with PEARLS!!! man. why don't you just give me fricken mango GREEN tea?!! that's the bloody second time someone's done that. geez, can someone please tell me how fruit jelly sounds like pearls.

muh, just thought you might want to hear about the stresses of my life. And now to my little book review that i must do. for my sake.

Goat -A memoir by Brad Land
Well, i think i enjoyed it. I need it to settle down first, then i could probably do a better review, but then, i'll probably forget it by then, so here goes anyway. Personally, I think Brad Land could do with a few extra english classes on punctuation and tenses, but he's like 28 or something so it's probably too late for him. Well, in this book, you'll find no talking marks whatsoever, but let's not concern ourselves too much with that. I think the only reason i picked this book up was coz it was red with a white goat face thing on the front and it looked good. But there's NO blurb!! i hate that. no preview for the keen. jeez, i couldn't even find out much about Brad after i read his AUTOBIOGRAPHY!! i mean, i just wanna find out what happened to him, but it's like: go read his biography, jesus christ, i have. what the hell? so anyway, i don't wanna give too much away, but all up he pretty much gets f...ed up by some people and he goes through college with it hanging over him. overall, i thought it was alright, after you get over the lack of puntuation and stuff. And can someone PLEASE tell me what the hell a pledge, a brother and a fraternity is?!! I was thinking the whole time, why the hell do you want it? isn';t college about getting degrees and going to class or something? half the book was swearing and the rest is telling us about him smoking. well, that's about it. I thought, poor guy after reading a review where this guy's full bagging his book and saying he couldn't get past the 20th page.

Well, i'm going now. food calls again. cya lata,

Kimo.

if i say read this, will you still read it?

2004-12-26T23:48:00.000+11:00

hallo all.

Sorry about that other post. jeez, i said don't read people!! Well, thanks for the comments.

TGIO <- thank god it's over. christmas. jeez, i was so sick of it.. 2 MONTHS ago. man. it's an over-rated pubic holiday. that's saying something. coz as australians, we value gambling so much we have a public holiday to bet on horse-racing. So anyway, back to christmas. I woke up thinking, gee, i should be excited, shouldn't i? So i crawled outta bed, groggy and all and sat around thinking, now that i'm up, what shall i do? before long, i heard my mother telling me to clean my room. jeez, i thought, we're meant to make merry and eat mince pies. but no, i went off to clean my room, and ahhh my saviour, my aunty came to take my brother and i to our grandparents place for christmas. Man, all i can say is food, food and more food (and extremely christian christians.) so anyway, we ate and stuff. then god almighty, THEY insisted on some play with puppets. man, that was pretty bad, coz i couldn't even laugh AT them, coz it's not like i could laugh with them. geez, how funny can some pieces of paper on chopsticks be? And then it was time for presents. man, santa's f...in scary. especially tall, lanky, AZN santa's wearing BOXER SHORTS!! My uncle, who was filming it, had to say: could santa please close his legs. So anyway, thoroughly disappointed with my presents. but, then again, christmas ISN'T about presents, it's about the joy of being together ^.-

So yeah. I was gonna say something. Well, don't you hate it when you message someone/s and they don't reply?!! well i do. And omg, bloody unreliable piece of crappy brick looking phone company 3 wouldn't let me send any messages yesterday, christmas, and so i look like an idiot if i send any today. jeez, so much for cheap sms when you can't even send any. Well i like this song even though it is -cough- r'n'b -cough-. well it's a nice song, here's the lyrics to the chorus:

I wish that I could hold you now
I wish that I could touch you now
I wish that I could talk to you
Be with you somehow
I know you're in a better place
Even though I can't see your face
I know you're smiling down on me
Saying everything's okay
And if I make it out this thug life
I'll see you again someday
I wish, I wish, I wish
I wish, I wish, I wish

hmph. i guess you have to listen to the whole song to get it all. And i really don't have much to say. so i'll leave you all now, and just wondering, totally random thought, i know, but you know how you need like 8 hours of sleep or something or else you'll get heart disease or attack or something? well, what about those people who are in comas for years? is that like a guaranteed (geez, how the hell dyu spell that?) heart attack/ disease thing? well, yeah, just wondering.

going now,
kimo

Don't read. i just need to get it all outta me. [3rd hate letter to the world]

2004-12-23T21:51:00.000+11:00

fuck man.

i'm fucking shaking. i'm fucking scared. i'm fucking crying. i'm fucking not in the fucking mood. fuck it all. What's people's fucking problem these days. what the fuck. fuck. if i was a violent person and there was someone standing next to me, i'd fucking punch them. but i'm not. fuck. If i had a fucking thought, i'd fucking shout it. but i don't. fuck. if i had any fucking power, i'd fucking stop it. but i don't. fuck. if i coulda done something, i should've fucking done it. but i couldn't. fuck. what's fucking happened? i dno. fuck. if you hadn't fucking noticed, i'm fucking upset. and i can't do anything. left fucking stranded. fuck. if i could draw, i'd fucking draw. but i can't. fuck. if i was a fucking lunatic, i'd fucking kill someone. but i'm not. fuck it. if i could fucking do something now, i'd do it. but i can't i dnt even know what i CAN do. fuck. man. what. the. fuck. fucking hell, if you've never seen my mum, you've never fucking seen psycho. fuck. why don't you fucking get a fucking life and fucking leave me alone. and my brother. what the fuck have we ever done? and dad's not any fucking better. you're all fucking against us all. aren't you. can't you go a day or two without ending it in a stupid fucking fight. fuck.

i hate it when people fight. and it's so much worse when it's your parent's. and what's worse is when they swear. at the top of their lungs. jesus fucking christ. if other people weren't so fucking pissed, i'd fucking turn up slipknot and fucking scream with it. but i can't. fuck. and the fucking bloody milk bar doesn't help in any fucking way. i'm all fucking upset and i have to fucking compose myself every fucking couple of minutes. fuck. and it's just me here. fuck. everyone's fucking left. fuck. go. fuck. never liked yuz anyway. fucking hell. oo that's the fucking sound of them coming back. fucking hell. go away. it was fucking better when you were gone. fuck. don't act like nothing's fucking happened. jesus christ. grrrrugh. fuck man. i just want it to be tomorrow. fuck. and if tomorrow's bad, i want it to fucking be next week. or fuck. why not go all out and fucking say i want it to be when i'm fucking outta here. fuck. and fucking, if that's your fucking best, WHO GIVES A FUCK?!! jesus fucking christ. and it's not like i can up and go like that. nah, you're fucking lucky i don't have the fucking nerve. and neither do you. fuck off.

fucking going to fucking do something. fucking hell, it'd fucking help if i fucking knew what that fucking something was. well i got some fucking satisfaction. i fucking scared the shit outta kid with a fucking death glare.

Kimo.

I forgot to stick a title on my previous post.

2004-12-21T23:17:00.000+11:00

hi,
omg, im so bloody, fricken bored. Normally when i'm on MSN, i can't concentrate enough to write a post, but i'm THAT bored at the moment. Well i went to georgia's party today and it was pretty fun. DYU KNOW WHAT?!! we bloody waited for an hour for Jong, but she got the days wrong. So she didn't end up coming. So we went to the beach which is a walkable distance from Georgia's house. A walkable distance is definately walkable if i say so. So we hung out at the beach and i involuntarily got into the freezing cold water and had to swim to the sand dune a k away. lol, maybe not, but it felt like it. I don't get people's fascination with the beach. i mean there's only two things. no, make that three. water. sand. sun. i hate the sand and the sun and the water was bloody freezing, so i might as well hate that too. So anyway, we played the egg throwing game which was alright coz our egg kept bouncing in the sand coz i can't catch for crap. And then we got some water balloons and piffed them at each other, but since they all broke on the tap, that didn't work too well. So we kinda sat around for a while. actually me and a few people, while the weirdos went back out into the water.

Well after that, we went back to georgia's and into her pool. Geez, don't you people get SICK of water? geez. And there was this pole in the middle of the pool so you could walk across, well, a lot of people excluding me can walk across. And then we had pizza. but the thing that annoyed me was that i had to leave early coz of my bloody parents. who knows. and my brother went out and got back 20 minutes later than he said he would and now he's grounded for the rest of the holidays. like i said, who knows. And so yeah, that's about it. And i didn't even get to play any music. oh well, Britt brought Collision Course by Jay-Z and Linkin Park. Pretty cool. far out. im sorry guys, the last few posts've been shitty coz im getting sick of this blog. Well, i thought i woulda gotten sick of it before now, but i seriously am. I mean, i have NOTHING to talk about, yet i seem to be able to drag out nothing for a whole 4 or 5 paragraphs. man, im tired. You know, i'm only typing this coz i have nothing better to do. yeah. you people r second rate. lol, jk. but seriously, i'm just waiting for my cd to finish burning and i'm outta here.

Did you people listen to Omega? MEH, I'M OVER IT. GAH bloody caps, what's this world coming to? You know what i've over-used lately? -bloody.-the thing is.-what's this world coming to. it makes me sound crazy when i use them all in every second sentence. oh well, crazy i am. And i have a question for you people. Do you feel bad in downloading music or whatever? Personally, i don't really, but then again, i'll steal anything. teacher's stuff. friend's stuff. stuff from anyone. if i worked in an office, i'd probably steal office stuff too. So what's the difference if i steal from a stranger? not a lot, unless they find out. Well, go ahead and steal my stuff, i really don't mind. lol, good luck to finding something worth stealing.

Yeah. god, why can't people give you a straight answer when you ask what they want for christmas. we're not ALL mind readers you know. and i know i know, it's the thought that counts and shit, but who gives a f when you can have something you really want instead. you know, it's your fault you have to fake appreciation for something you don't want. that's what you get for not answering in the first place. everyone should have a christmas and birthday registry. Just write a list of everything you want and send it around. easy? yes. then you won't have to spend the rest of the year practising fake appreciation smiles.

Am i a little too pesimistic? i mean all i talk about is stuff that i hate, stuff that annoys me and all the worst bits about everything. well, like i said, next year, i'll be more optimistic. dude, it's like 11 and i'm really sleepy. i usually last longer than this. meh. beats me. oo, there's my cd now. omg, more over-used words: like i said. i was just about to use it again. dude. perhaps this is why i need a bigger vocab. well, stuff that. oh yes, i was gonna say this: I figured out why slipknot are good. I mean, i can see where people are coming from when they say it's just noise. well that's the thing (heh) it's just NOISE. noise to block out everything else. noise to drown out your thoughts. but some of it actually sounds good. ooo, like 5 songs just finished downloading. there. i said it. i downloaded some songs. omg, please don't arrest me :'(

so anyway i'm gonna head off now, coz im bored shitless here and that time could be better spent in lala land. or i could go to sleep.

cyaz,
Kimo

2004-12-19T16:44:00.000+11:00

howdy y'all,

yes, me in a better mood. Well i've just come back from my grandparent's house and yeah. Yesterday, no actually, the day before that i went to chaddy with alan coz no one else wanted/ was allowed to come. Yeah. NOT that he was a last resort or anything. So anyway, i got this really scary-looking-but-really-squishy-cushion-slash-pillow for georgia coz it's her birthday soon-ish..omg, it's on tuesday. mangz.lol, anywho, there really isn't much to do with no money these days. So yeah, hung around, did not a lot and that's about it. then yesterday, since it was really hot and all, we -my bro, cousin, aunty and i went to my aunty's boyfriend's house to swim in his pool. god, it was freezing!! it's like a 30-something degree day and we're all shivering in this bloody freezing pool. and what was worse was that i turned all black. nothing against dark skin, it's just i have this major tan line where my bikini was. god damn, u should see it. lol, maybe not, coz then i'd have to take my clothes off :P let's move on, shall we? so anyway, we went back home and after we gave my aunty her birthday presents and stuff we watched this hellova shitty chinese movie about some lady who pretends to be blind and some guy falls in love with her and so does some other guy and in the end the lady dies coz one of the guys were jealous and stabbed her and she had litres of blood coming out of her heart, yet stays JUST alive for like half the movie, yet, when one of the guys gets a little cut to the leg her just collapses and is assumed dead. -.- there's some great stuff out there..and that wasn't one of them.

So after that grouse movie, we played taboo. it's where you get a word and you have to get your team-mates to say the word and you can't say the taboo words, which are related to the word you have to get the other person to say. so anyway, one of my words was: army. so i said: George bush has a big one. and everyone just gave me a funny look. lol, sorry guys, i didn't mean to. my uncle broke the awkwardness (what the hell? how dyu spell that?) by saying: hat? but yeah, got there in the end. and my bro goes: it's sorta like an elephant. and his word was giraffe. and my aunty had beaver and went: roar. lol, well i thought it was funny. and then we played boggle til 3:30 in the morning. but the thing is, my cousin refused to sleep in the other bed so there was my cousin, my aunty and me in this double bed and she bloody kept kicking me, hogging the blanket and shobing me into the wall. one thing i hate is to be disturbed when i can actually get some sleep.

omg, andy, my aunty's boyfriend HAD a Skyline R-33 and had it all done up and everything, but he sold it and got a rex instead. AND WE GOT TO GO IN IT!! the Rex with a blow-off valve and momo steering wheel!! sure, they're only small things, buy that's the best car i've ever been in. yeah, yeah, i know most of you readers wouldn't give a about the cars i've been in, but i do. so anyway, that was my weekend, the most interesting part of my holidays.

so yeah. gah, bloody pop-ups. what happened to that thing that blocked them?? bloody computer. Dyu what SOMEONE said to me?!! "I don't like reading your blog coz you're so damn depressing." god, well sorree that i am. geez. Well you could at least comment and say hi, i read your blog. i mean I DO, even when you're talking about god knows what about how great oz idol was. lol, nothing against you if you don't like what i talk about. Dyu know what i had in my head? lol, well apart from initial d music that my bro listens to, but i had this thing called omega by stone sour. it's like, not a song but it kinda flows. try it out if you can find it. it's like 2 minutes of Corey Taylor, lead singer of stone sour AND slipknot. but just warning you, it might be a little weird. But yeah, anywho.

what was i gonna say...? hmm, i smell food. hmph. i'm not even hungry. well my bro's kicking me off, yet again. yeah, nothing interesting in this post, but at least it's a post. well cya lata then,

Kimo

I got 99 problems but the bitch ain't one

2004-12-11T13:32:00.000+11:00

Hi.
Gah, bloody internet not working, so I'm reduced to playing spider solitaire. Geez, what am I coming to? Anywho, did mean to post earlier, but I was just too lazy. That and the fact that we had speech night a few nights ago. 1. coz it was so bloody boring. 2. it was in the city. 3. I wasn't getting anything. So I was bored outta my brains for about three hours. Three hours of me screaming in my head at the people on stage. Three hours of dwelling on what I could be doing, instead of sitting in a terribly uncomfy seat slapping my hands together to show my appreciation of some dweeb that won some award for dancing or something. Jesus Christ. And what the hell is this whole GIS thing? i'll explain. Every year level from 5-12 a representative gets to make a speech about their year. And some year 10 chick gets up there and talks about some GEOGRAPHY PROGRAM!! Oo, yay, I have a geography program to look forward to. -.- don't get me wrong, I love learning about places I'll never go and using some computer program to find MOUNTAINS and RIVERS in some outback hole, because they are just so hard to miss.
You know what else is pissing me off at the moment? Bloody spindrift, the school magazine. If I'm not spindrift editor, or at least some person on the team, I'll.. i'll.. scream!! But, all is not bad this year. I had my little evil red eyed fishies in it, but they didn't even acknowledge me!! That's the second art thing I've had in there. The other was another fishy that I made and they didn't acknowledge that either!! Well, yeah.
I've thought up a couple new year's resolutions for 2005:
Be optimistic I've found that I've been a little pessimistic this year, but can't really blame me.. can you? Well, life always runs into a bleak patch and theres nothing anyone can do about it. Not even me.
Conform As I found in English, individuality is frowned upon. I will conform and be like everyone else. I will not try and do better, as that always leads on to a different mark from everyone else. A worse mark. As well as that, I will not question the point of maths and it's useless topics. That just leads on to no answers anyway. And it's not only in English and maths. I'm sick of people pointing out MY differences, or what I like to call PERSONAILTY. Jesus Christ, can't you people hack it? Just shuttup and leave me alone.
Go out of your way to be nice to people I've noticed that, funnily enough, people that are nice to other's are much more appreciated. But that's not saying I've been mean or anything, it's just people don't realise I'm nice, do they? No, go ahead and ignore me, i don't mind. really.
Be motivated, or at least pretend you are I didn't do well this year coz of lack of motivation. Why? Coz what is there to be motivated with? The fact that they made us do stupid, annoyingly boring things that were supposedly MEANT to motivate us? Yay, swimming, looking after elderly people, gardening and pretending to be someone else is the best way to do that, isn't it -.-
Swear like there's no tomorrow Swearing is therapeutical.
Piss off people that piss you off I let people off this year. I let them go easy. But you just wait til next year. Don't you dare piss me off.
Laugh everyday Laughing is meant to be good for you or something. So do that. Yeah, some days laughing's one of the last things you wanna do, but if you don't people'll think you've got problems and will recommend professional help.
Here are a few tips you could use next year:
Do not try to convert anyone I tried converting, or at least showing people the better side of what I like, but no. that would be too hopeful of me to think people will enjoy what I listen to.
Do not voice your opinion when outnumbered. Especially by azns. I'm also sick of having my head bitten off every time I think out my thoughts aloud. Jesus Christ, sorree for talking.
Do as people say coz fighting is just too much effort If someone says jump off that cliff, I suggest you do it, coz if you don't they'll pull out a gun and 3 shots to the head, you're sure to be dead. That was just a metaphor for reality. Why waste energy arguing with someone stubborn coz they'll just end up getting violent.
Work on your greasies/ death looks Some people say I can't give greasies. Well, you need to be able to so you can scare little kids. Or at least give the impression that you don't want to be disturbed, god knows, I never want to be.
relax After a big exam or test, I always wonder why I stressed so much. Big whoop if you fail something. You don't care, I don't care, so why bother stressing over something NO one cares about? Pointless, really. (Don't say anything Alan, I know, I know, school's good, hail your work, you're evil for saying that...)
Kimo.
-If you haven't noticed, I'm not in a good mood.

My shadows the only one that walks beside me

2004-12-03T08:31:00.000+11:00

Hihi,
My gosh, it seems everyone else enjoyed this boat ride around some water out in the middle of nowhere, except for me. It wasnt like excruciating pain or anything, it was just a little dull: oo look, theres some water, and omg, look over there, theres MORE water!! The only highlight was that I got to drive the boat!! All wasnt bad; the walk through the mangrove/swampy/sewage-looking place was GREAT!! -.- Well it could have been worse. Well, the bus trip was better suited; reading about some kids killing some pig and sitting/lying in weird positions is great. Whoa, I nearly fell off my seat coz I can still feel the boat under me. *sways forwards and backwards*

Hmm, someone said she read some of my last posts and that they made her feel nostalgic and depressed. Cool. I really hope that you people DO read what I have to say, irrelevant as it may be. Man, im so out of it today. Ive been walking and talking like a zombie and I dno whats wrong. I hate it. Perhaps its my low from my high I was on the other day. Whatever goes up must come down. BUT IT WAS ONLY SUGAR!! Ahh well, ill get over it. Why is the room spinning?

Well I was planning to say something interesting, the only problem with that is that I dont have anything interesting to say. Ahh crap, just remembered I dont have any batteries. Oh well, ill just be musicless for a day. God knows, maybe itll be for the better to not listen to people wanting to commit suicide. Anywho, the idea of Christmas is stupid. Didnt Coke make it up or something? Hah, trust. Christmas is possibly the biggest waste of money in the world: oo, lets give presents to each other coz some dude was born. ^.- and what the hell do Christmas trees with decorations have to do with it? For the religio guy, what does santa have anything to do with anything? And what the hell does seasons greetings mean? And why the hell do candy canes come into the same scene as virgins and red nosed reindeers? Ok, heres my view of what Christmas is: some lady pops out some baby without having sex (Damn, thats gotta suck; no sex AND a baby. ^.-) so some old guys follow a star (or possibly a planet) and gives presents to some guy they dont know and immediately worship. Then some fat person in red said ho ho ho and got a little jolly at the south pole and decided to get little kids on his lap and ask them what they want for Christmas. Isnt it a little too sexual? And then some BRAINIAC said, hey presents are grouse, lets give some to each other. So they do and spend heaps on their credit cards and spend the rest of the year complaining about it.

You have to admit, its kinda crazy. Celebrating some day just coz everyone else is. Then theres that whole, we shouldnt make Christmas so public coz some people arent Christian. Have no doubt, I love Christmas, even if im not Christian, so why cant they just ignore the whole jesus thing and pretend santa popped out of a virgin named mary. Hah, so what did Mary and joseph do on their wedding night? Or maybe Jesus is just a bastard. Well thats the story of Christmas. And wtf is with holly? And roasted animals? And thanksgiving? And stockings around some fireplace? God, where the hell did the coming down a chimney come from? I bet there was some totally smashed guy saying: we sh-should.. TREE!! BIG TREE!! Whoops, my socks red, I-Ill stick it on the fireplace. Oo, lesh go down da ch-chinemy..chimney.. -.- not trying to be rude or anything to the creator of Christmas.

Well, im off to write in all my Christmas cards now!! Yay, love Christmas.. :D

Kimo

Do you serve a purpose, or purposely serve?

2004-12-03T08:30:00.000+11:00

Howdy howdy,
Back at my grandparents house for another week. Another week without MSN or the internet. Yay -.- Well anyway, this week is * Marine week * at school. A week where we all get to do mariney kinda stuff. W00t. Yesterday we went surfing and sit-on-top kayaking. OMG it was SO much fun!! And I ended up STANDING on the surfboard. The only thing was that I started jumping and getting all excited so I ended up falling and hitting my butt on the sand coz the water was so shallow. Anyway, today we went to the Melbourne aquarium and by golly, that was a jolly great tour -.- Bloody 2 and a 1/2 hour tour to look at some great ugly fishes. Woohoo, that was grouse. And the lady got all excited about some baby crocodiles. Yay, only problem, miss, I think you lost one. God, they didnt even let us on the stimulator. Lol, stimulator? Or simulator? Haha, sounds dirty. I just looked it up in the dictionary.. its definitely SImulator.

GOD!! Im SO sick of my bloody 3-nearly-4 year old cousin. Bloody wont leave me alone. GAH. Throwing things at me too. Goddamn, PISS OFF!! Hes not cute anymore. In the space of a week and a bit, hes gotten annoying. I hate kids. Not hate hate, just get annoyed by them easily. Especially ones that are really slow, talk heaps, ask heaps of questions, are ugly (just kidding), are taller than me, throw things at you, wont go away or are constantly screaming. And I dont really like old people either. They say that our generation will probably live till about 130 or something. What the hell? I dont wanna live to that age!! I thought 100 at the most. Only those really fit people who do like jogging or something everyday since they were 50 or something. Nah, ill be one of those weirdo old ladies that just talk crap, have no idea of what theyre doing and everyones scared of them. Hahaha, thatd be the day. Like I was saying, what the hell is the use of living up to 130? Wouldnt you like have major arthritis, 5 broken hips, broken joints, no teeth, heart failure.. by then? Well ill probably be the size of a Barbie or something coz ive already started shrinking!! And ill probably a wrinkly prune looking person coz I sizzled my skin (NOT on purpose) on house aths day. Ive been told I look black. Well thanks guys, so nice of you.

Whats with the obsession with little kids and looking good these days? I mean I heard on the radio, coz I havent seen it myself, that little kids like designer clothes and what not. They supposedly buy really expensive clothes or something. Jeez, I dont even wear designer crap. Crap, did I say that? -.- I just think its stupid to spend so much on something just coz its got some stupid label on it. Why dont I just make some see-through clothes and spread the word that its really cool and then ill be rich!! Plus, what the hell was with that whole * kids wearing bras even though they dont need to.* Whats up with that? I hope I was never that stupid. And it’s the parents to blame too. Damn stupid people that spoil their kids. And what was with that whole: oo, that lady hit her kid in public or something. If my kid (if I had one) had a stupid spaz attack and started crying coz they werent allowed to get something, id backhand them one too. and did you know some lady had to take out the word smacked from her book. Thats one of the stupidest things ive ever heard. Whats wrong with that word? Are they trying to get rid of *violence* in books? Yeah, we all know violent-druggy-alcoholic teenagers get their fix from kids books -.- geez. And its not like god-forbid ..SMACKING will cease to exist just coz some stupid editor took it out of some pov book that no ones gonna read anyway. And this is coming from the generation where they used to totally flog them with whips and shit.. or am I thinking too far back? Anywho, I think these people had a little too much hash and got a little too high when they thought theyd cut out violence. Itll never stop.

Im still peeved at the whole *lets make learners wait until theyre 17 until they can get their drivers license* thing. God, its not like once you get older, youll suddenly become a pro and will never crash. Ever. Theyre called accidents. Jaja, I know that its not nice when someone gets run over, but why should the rest of us have to be weighed down by those stupidos? Get over it and bring it back to 16. Yeah, we can mourn all we want about some people that drag raced, but that was their fault that they crashed into a tree. Not ours. So why are WE being punished? Coz THEY were reckless drivers. Great world we live in.

Have I ranted about trips to space? Places are starving and in poverty and stuff, yet they spend millions, probably billions on learning about the moon and space and shit. Oo yay, we have pictures of some dumb planet, yet about a third of EARTH are starving or at least struggling to survive. Thats another example of how great a world we live in. And dyu know what else? The bloody rich are ..bloody rich and the poor people are bloody poor. What the hell went wrong? Cant we just press some reset button and start again on the same level and see how far we get in a decade or so? I mean there are bloody people who are famous just coz theyve got big boobs. Woddup with that? And there are bloody people that are famous just coz their parents are rich. Geez, what can they do? Make a living from walking up and down some platform. Oo wow, that’s REALLY challenging.. IF YOU DIDNT HAVE LEGS!! Whats this world coming to?!! The end, perhaps. A world where the rich get richer, the poor get poorer, the smart get smarter and the dumb get dumber. Have you realized that were living in a world where the dumb are praised and fat people are ALWAYS nice? Not all fat people are jolly you know.

Eurhh. Im so not in the mood. For anything. Omg, one of my best friends got a boyfriend and kissed and whatever the other day. Haha, its meant to be a little hush-hush and Ive just told the world. Oh well, shell never know coz SHE NEVER COMES HERE. Anywho, does that mean theres some sort of pressure on me now? God, lets hope not. Not that im totally unsociable or anything. Its just I dont know many guys. Any guys with potential. Lol, just kidding but not really. Hahaha, I was on a high last night and this morning. Perhaps it was the sugar I ate. The sugar from McCafe in those little packets. Oo, that reminds me, ive got one left. Ahh, ill save it for a rainy day. Oo, looks like its gonna rain tomorrow. And DO YOU KNOW WHAT?!! I ordered an ice chocolate and they ran out of cream!! Damn you. And dyu know what else? They said they took out all the sugar out of something, cant remember what, but I remember thinking: NOOO not the sugar!! Anyhoos, hahaha, thats like Loos, that chick that supposedly had an affair with David Beckham or something. I read in the MX today that she was having sex with a pig or something, just coz everyone else on that farm was or something. Haha, perhaps that was what happened with her and Beckham: well.. everyone else was doing the pig, why not? Hah, nah, I like David beckham. I like to point and laugh at him. My gosh, im feeling witty. Actually, I think im on a high at the mention of sugar!! Wow, the power of sugar is mighty. Perhaps I should press the enter button soon. This is a long paragraph. Eheheh. Lol, just say that to yourself: eheheh. Thats so evil. Actually, looking at it again, it doesnt look that long after all. Oh well I feel like pressing it now -->

This long post is making up for the lack of previous posts. Im addicted to this blog. Just cant get enough of it. Dyu know that one of my all time favourite songs is Blur: Song 2. Its one of those songs where you just wanna pull out your air guitar and dance around. And you can only listen to it turned up full. Yah!! \m/ OMG, I tried on this full-serious 10cm skirt today. It was one of the cutest things ive ever seen. I felt like bloody sailor moon in it!! And it was only $6!! Well im, as Lauren said, a slut; a cheap slut. Hahaha, that has two meanings.. hah, so funny, although it took me a while to register. Hmm.. tomorrow, on this very exciting week of ours, we have sailing and windsurfing. Im pumped. Actually, not really. Hah!! I could have gotten that skirt and gotten bloody silicon in my chestal area and been SAILOR MOON!! Ahh, im so lame. And I love it. And I love it that ive spread across two rooms, even though I only have two bags of clothes. Sweet!! Omg, I have to buy a KK for my auntys boyfriend. Dyu know what he said to me?!! Just coz I hold my chopsticks the wrong way, he asked if I needed a fork. :o Hmph. Well ive got slipknot pumping in the background, head banging, no homework, 5 school days left, cousins gone to bed and only Christmas presents to worry about. Ahhh, I love it!! The only problem with saying: only Christmas presents to worry about, is that Christmas presents are a big thing. Oh well, shove that to the back of my head and leave it to the last minute like everything else I do. Ah crap, you know how I said I went surfing. Well we went to the beach for that. beach. Sand. I have sand EVERYWHERE!! Bloody, I feel like Kraimer (sp?) from Steinfield in that episode where he goes to the beach to hit golf balls into the sea and he cant get the sand off of him. *spaz attack like Kraimer*

Well, I probably should chuck something into the washing machine and clean something coz I have to use that smelly soggy thing that looks like a towel and some clothes, but why? Neh, itll wash off in the sea and I can smell. I usually do anyways. Moof. Hah, moof man strikes again. Well that’s the end of this post then. Once moof man comes to play, no one has any fun.

Signing out,
Kimo
Word count: 1852

Mortally wounded: Freed from war, trapped by depression

2004-11-26T21:18:00.000+11:00

Me here just to say: goddam mutha fruitcakes and pie with shitsu puppies. Gahh!! This couldnt get any worse:
- Georgia isnt in my class next year
- The only class I have with her is Japanese. Well, at least now theres something to look forward to.
- Britt, Bec, Angela and T.A. arent in my class either.
- I have ms venna for science AGAIN!!
- Im so frustrated I cant even get my zappo packet open. I need my thinking lollies!!
- My eyes are itchy.
- I have to dress up as a giant witches hat tomorrow for our house athletics: Saftey Saints. Woohoo, what brainiac made that one up?!!
- Another someone bagged my music today!! Actually, make that 4 someones.
- My glasses are dirty.
- DAT testing was stupid. Who the hell spent their time in making those stupid things where you have to find the pattern (only an example; could be exaggerated): first box- single dot. Second box- two dots. Third box- five dots, two crosses and four squiggly lines. Fourth box- three dots. Whats the next box gonna have in it? A. a square. B. a triangle. C. two ovals. Or D. a single line. -.-
- I dont have enough money at the moment.
- I just had dinner and its 5:30.
- I have another 4 hours to kill.
- I havent asked my grandparents if I can go out with my friend on Friday and its Wednesday night and ive already told my friend that im going.
- I finally got that zappo packet open and it tastes like crap. How do you people like this stuff?
- I think im grinding my teeth, but I could be wrong.
- Georgia got to talk about yum-yum trees in geography when we had to talk about the effects of World War 1.
- Georgia gets to go on an excursion to pick strawberries and taste cheese in first semester when there actually ARE strawberries and we get to go in winter when there are just twigs and possibly leaves. If were lucky, we might see a green strawberry.
- Cheese just doesnt float my boat.
- Im in a pretty good class, except Georgia, Britt, Bec, Angela, T.A. and ..the funny one arent in it. They couldnt even split us evenly. Our class feels like normal 9Z and everyones just away. :'( not happy.

Im so downhearted at the moment. I wanna throw something at someone/ something, in a non-violent way, that is. I liked shouting at that person who didnt like slipknot; I dont even know her name, but she took my mind off thinking about my year 10 class. Im going to play spider solitaire and possibly read lord of the flies; I just wanna read the part where they supposedly eat each other.

Me.

Dont be scared, its not too bad to read.. I hope

2004-11-26T20:30:00.000+11:00

Howdeh,

Well, after spending some time with my 3, nearly 4 year old cousin, I had a little insight to his little world. Apart from sounding like a full dweeb at the moment, and the fact that hes sooo cute, I just wanna say, I WANNA LIVE IN HIS WORLD!! A world where theres nothing more important than finding out WHY everything works the way it does. A world where making no sense when you talk is normal. A world where it is totally acceptable to take half an hour to eat a slice of nutellad bread. A world where you can go and take a piss in front of everyone and still keep normal conversation going. A world where everything is new and exciting. A world where you can be content in just simply sitting and watching the world go by. A world without a care.

Sure im not under any real stress, if any at all. Heck, all im worried about is missing the bus tomorrow, but thats not the point. Imagine what itd be like to be little again. Jaja, im still little; I meant younger. A second go at life I guess. I dno if id do it any different the second time around, if I had the chance. I cant remember that many mistakes ive made, at the moment, but then again, I cant remember much. Blah. Jaja, I dont want another go at life, I just want to be younger again. Life was so much fun. I used to get excited about going to school. I used to get excited about going to the park. I used to get excited about going down a slide. I used to get excited. Another thing that sucks about being older is that life just speeds away like a p-plater (supposedly). 10 minutes used to be a long time!! I mean, I thought I was just typing the words: yay, its nearly the holidays. But the only thing is, that was LAST holidays, which seem like yesterday. Its that time AGAIN!! Not that I hate holidays or anything, but I thought I just started year 9. Bloody, im in year 10 in 2 days!! Bajesus!! I remember year 3 stretching for years!!

He, my little cousin, was happy playing with trains and trucks all day with me. For petes sake, the train track HASNT since the last time you went around it, and it wont change!! But I guess small things amuse small minds.

Dyu know what my brother said to me the other day that I couldnt get outta my head?: what happened to you? He said that after listening to some of my music. Everyone thinks im a weirdo. Well not everyone, and maybe not a weirdo, but along those lines. I mean I used to listen to the radio, think linkin park were scary and think English was fun. I dont think ive changed heaps or anything; the only things are that I listen to rock, turned a little pessimistic and dont appreciate school as much as I used to, but no one can blame me can they? Erhh, crazy uncle at it again, and hes not even a blood relative. Now ive lost my train of thought. Train of thought? Who thinks up these things? Truck of thought; thoughts are noisy and arent as fast as trains.

Ok then. Im seriously thinking of writing into the youth forum in the newspaper coz ive only read one really good entry before, and it really made me laugh. Here it is, by memory: why is it that when any young person dies, they were always cheerful, popular and had a bright future? Being dull, no real expectations with few friends makes me feel a little safer. Ahh, gotta love it. Some other bright spark wrote in and said he/she was sick of seeing the same crap every week. You go girl, only problem is that you havent brought anything new onto the plate. A way to fix that would be to complain about what goes in the newspaper and suggest something else: blah blah, smoking is mentioned too much, so is the Iraqi war blah blah. Well, what could I write if I chose to write to them. Or possibly email them.

Maybe I could say something lame like everyone else: theres too much rubbish, too much homework, too much smoking blah blah. Omg, brainwave. I could say something about how learners shouldnt have to wait until theyre 17 to get their learners. I mean, arent there just as many dangerous adult drivers? They cant discriminate against us youths like that!! Outrageous. Foomph. Is that decided then? What else could I write to them about? They should bring back banana man. Lol, I loved that show. I could complain that theres not enough gay people on TV. Some brainiac suggested a way to save water. Maybe I could complain about how hard the works getting. Nah, thatd lead onto the whole too much homework thing that everyone talks about. Or maybe I could just not complain at all. I could say John Howard is the coolest man on earth.. thatd go down well. I could say what a good job people are doing with saving water.. Nah, complainings so much more interesting.

Well I know youre all dying to know about my day coz im just that interesting. Well fujiko, Vicky, jong and I went to the city, mainly to buy school books for next year. Well we did that then had a look at the gardens for no apparent reason and we got some free food!!(highlight of my day) ill give it a plug here, coz you all live in Melbourne and really like greasy azn noodles: Yen sushi noodle 12 Centre Place Melbourne. But you cant just rock up and expect some free stuff, I only got the free food coz fujiko knew the owners. And thanks for the free lunch, I didnt get to say it in person coz it was too busy. Anywho, moving away from the free food, we went to south yarra, land of the rich people, and had a look around. We went into smiggle, I LOVE that place, and that KK something-something at Chadstone. For those who dont know its just a shop with really cool stationery. I got a clock for my Kris Kringle person. Pretty cool stuff. And dyu know what?!! That’s for my school KK, my KK for home, coz were all cheapos, is ANDY!! My auntys boyfriend!! Of all the people in the family. I hardly even know him. Oh well, all I know is that he has an R33 (!!) and hes Christian. And he likes the counting crows. Hmph.

Well we visited the Japanese bookshop before that. I understand my other friends complaints at that because everythings, well, Japanese.. I have nothing against japs, but if you cant understand it, then why bother? Jaja, outta line, ok ill go back in my hole. And alans obsession with sushi is kinda scary. I dont even like sushi. Hah, he woulda physically kicked me off the train if id said it out loud. Yeah, back to Japanese books, umm well yeah. theyre Japanese. Cartoon pornos. Ahah.. hah.. ok, don’t bite my head off. Anywho we went into this other shop called dreams or something. Pretty cool. I wanted these cool spikey earrings that were dangly and silver and.. youd probably have to see it to get it, but they were awesome!! And $10. was I being a cheapo? Nah, I only have $50 to last me 2 weeks and CHRISTMAS IS COMING!! Yay, omg, im so excited!! I love Christmas, and bad as it sounds, I love the presents. But all is not bad, I like to give them too. I love writing out Christmas cards and all that!! so much fun. It’s a time when you go all selfless and buy stuff for OTHERS. Not an everyday thing. Dyu reckon its better to know whos buying something for you in KK or not? Coz we just got who we had to get a present for and my friend flick just comes bouncing up to me and said, I got you for KK, what dyu want.. hmm, great surprise there. Oh well, the person im buying for doesnt know yet.

Wow, dyu know what? This is nearly the end of the 4th page on word. Yay. Hopefully theres someone reading this or else itd be a waste of my time.. moof, oh well. I might read it later. I mean if my memory gets wiped out then I could read this and have my thinking patterns back.. well it sounds like people are coming upstairs soon and theyre those kinda people thatd think its weird to write in an online diary without the internet. Well ill post it on later and hopefully it wont be too boring. Wow, if MSN was here, I wouldntve gotten past one page. Goes to show I can be half decent sometimes.

Kimo

Word count: 1516

Sorry for the lack of posting; no available internet

2004-11-26T20:21:00.000+11:00

Hallo,
This is being typed on word, again. Yes, Im at my grandparents place on their computer with no internet. W00t. anywho, I have to remember to not use any apostrophes or anything coz theyll look like this: “ or ‘ jaja, you get what I mean. Anyway, without the distraction of MSN there might be something a little more interesting than before. So, here goes.

Well. Hello? Inspiration? Well, why dont I talk about one of the most dragged out show on Australian television. Australian idol. God, it took them about 4 hours of: the winner will be announced very shortly.. very, very soon.. a couple of minutes.. well I sat from about 8 till 10:30. I thought they were gonna announce it around 9 or 9:30. but that was too hopeful of me. I dont even normally watch oz idol. Its stupid, well it has been since Marty got booted out. I was disappointed at the final two, but im glad Casey won over Anthony, but thats only coz no one was going for her and everyone thought Anthony was going to win. Ahh, the sweet smell of surprise. I sat there for a couple of seconds after they had FINALLY announced the winner, then I jumped up and messaged Wendy: ahaha, IN YOUR FACE!! Well they laughed at me when Marty, the only half decent singer in the whole competition, got voted out.

Look at me, talking about AUSTRALIAN IDOL like this. I was the one who wrote a speech at the start of the year on how stupid reality TV is. But it is. You cant get away from it these days. Either reality TV or crap TV. I was nearly driven insane over one Saturday night when absolutely NOTHING was on. Like seriously, Mary poppins or the wizard of oz. Great choice guys. Shame on those TV people, I mean theyve also dragged out the final friends episodes to near insanity: 3rd last ever friends show..2nd last ever friends.. ONE HOUR special finale. Oo, yay, cant wait.. jeez, get over it and just SHUT UP. Who cares about friends? Well millions.. but thats not the point.

I say they should cut all this crap and bring back banana man, power rangers, pizza cats and just make ABC channel a full 24 hour rage-fest; music all day. Except I stayed up late one night and I saw some pretty weird shit. Like: I love acid, I love acid, I love acid.. you get the drift. But also, on that note I also have something to say about the stuff thats being shown on TV and played on the radio. Well, I have no sympathy for you people that actually listen to the stuff on the radio, its your choice, but I have to strongly disagree with the choices. Eminem was number one on the charts for petes sake!! –who Pete is, I dno. Im not saying its all crap, but whats all the fuss about delta goodrem? Shes not that good a singer. And neither are Hilary duff, avril lavigne or ashlee Simpson. They claim to be *open talking marks* punk *close talking marks* chicks who are so hardcore and make up their own rules. God, you couldnt tell by the way they moan though..

Moving on, whats there to do these days? I mean sure, lets go to the city. The only problem is what do you do once youre in the city? We were thinking possibly the movies or bowling or something, but I was thinking something totally out of the blue like why dont we go to the zoo or something. Great plan in my head but everyone gave me a funny look. Oh well, movies or bowling will have to do then, well leave the zoo for another day. I have a whole day ahead of me. Dyu know I had $2 bread today. Only thing was that it was $2.60. why does everything have to go more and more expensive? And average house, by the time im old enough to get my own will be about $million. Thats not a good thing by the way. That goes back to our plan of going into the city. Everythings expensive. Just go to springy and you can get it for cheap. Fobbiness included. Im not making any sense am I? Of course not, who does these days? Moof. Why dont I just get a farm and live off that? ..coz id go quietly insane. Thats not a good thing either. I have to disagree with those that want to live in the city. I went there for a week, not even to live and I could have gone quietly insane. All the people!! I hate people!! Well not really, but so many at a time can easily make you insane. Im really liking the word insane. Bajesus. Can I make my own dictionary? The Australian Kimo dictionary:

Bajesus (n.): a general exclamation, could be blasphemous.
Ding (n.): an exclamation of excitement or joy.
Insane (adj.): 1) cool 2) not cool
Jaja (n.): to understand
Kapoof (v.): to vanish; to go someplace else.
Moof (n.): a general exclamation or sigh.
Well, 6 words. Thats a start. Making a dictionary doesnt necessarily mean you have to make up all the words in it does it? Well anymore good words are welcome.

My uncles kinda weird at the moment. Hes like singing at the top of his voice in Viet. Thats different. Well, im off to watch toy story with my little cousin. Yay -.-

Kimo

Word count: 932

Can you hear the music?

2004-11-18T19:05:00.000+11:00

well hi, me again.

thankyou to the -cough- comments. it's nice to get feedback on what you write. except i don't think mrs i-think-all-your-work-is-crap-and-will-give-you-a-crappy-mark Massey gets it. "guesswork to find which poems you wrote" WELL IF YOU'D'VE OPENED THE BOOK TO THE FIRST PAGE, YOU MAY, JUST MAY HAVE SEEN MY NAME KIMBERLEY a.k.a. KAETI!! jesus christ. phoomph. pissed off, but i'll get over it.

And how the hell dyu make something fun outta maths? i mean we're in a bloody seating plan and get told to shuttup for every little sound we make. well, i'm probably just a bitter old teenager. anywho, what's so funny? i don't get it. jaja, i know all that "think positive" stuff, but i don't think it works for me. somehow, a lot of the positive stuff i say comes out sarcastic, even if i didn't mean it to be... the usual. But i don't mind being pessimistic, it gives me something to contemplate on.

And i do realise that there's only 3 years left. and yes, i have started to freak out. i'm bloody doing VCE jap next year and while trying to suck in the new stuff she's giving us, I TUNE OUT!! of all things. and then i went all unco and couldn't concentrate. hopefully that was just a once off thing that WILL NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN. hopefully. so hopefully i won't end up on the streets. i go through this whole "school sucks" thing, but when i actually think about it, school's not bad and i don't REALLY mind it that much. it's stupid what kind of stuff we have to do. the government can just shove it.

oh, but this blog IS useless!! and it doesn't matter what kind of language i use here. coz i don't care and i don't think you do either.

And everyone's used that "i hate slipknot" thing. we, fans, just get a little defensive, as it's turned out to be an everyday thing to be bagged about our music. oh well, the converting thing hasn't worked very well. wendy, angel and them still don't like it. well, that's their loss.

well i really don't have anything to say. i was just curious to what everyone else had to say. did you know, of ALL the blog's out there, mine's the ONLY one that doesn't work on the school computers!! stupid tacky pieces of crap. and dyu know what i've found one of the most challenging things in the world?!! sitting down in a mini skirt. god, you either have to sit like a demented chicken or say hello to the world..

well i smell food so i'll be off.

Kimo

Round 2: kimo vs computer

2004-11-14T20:09:00.000+11:00

yah. second go at this. well i can't remember half of what i rambled on last time, but i'll try. here it is:

dyu know how boring i've become lately? i mean i used to be FUNNY, INTERESTING. god, what happened? i dno and i'm not liking it. i mean i would've made at least one joke no matter how lame it was it that space above, but there isn't one! at all. dammit. so here's me being unoriginal again and complain about how hard it is to be a teenager in this day and age.

can someone please tell me what the point in learning theories about space and science and crap if they may not even be true? i mean for all we know, we could just be figments of each other's imaginations. Why the hell do we need to know what a star sounds like or whatever the hell they're trying to shove into our small little minds. And what's so good about the moon?!! yay, some people spent millions and millions of dollars to land on some stupid lump of dust that only serves to reflect light from the sun at night, if it actually does that at all. i mean, who knows, maybe it lights up at night and that shit about reflecting light is all wrong. HOW DO WE KNOW?!! and woddup with learning about history? world war 1 and all that shit. i mean we can't change the wrongdoings of our ancestors. it's not our problem. geez, go did THEM up and shout/curse/whatever you feel like at them. And why the hell do we need to KNOW all this crap. "so you don't make the same mistakes". oh really? whoops i accidently killed a whole nation with my army that i keep in my garden for self defense. damn, it's a shame i forgot all that stuff in history. -.- or perhaps, oh, i forgot that it's wrong to take over countries. jesus christ.

and what's the use in learning how to measure, of ALL things, TRIANGLES. oh yeah, pass me that sin45 triangle. coz u know, i really would like to know all of it's angles and the length of all it's sides. And dyu know what else fascinates me? surds!! yay, let's just learn allllll about these stupid little square root shits that have NOTHING to do with anything. oh, i really would like to know the square root of 72. oh, look, it can be SIMPLIFIED to 6 square root 2. man, it turns me on hardcore. -.- jesus christ, what was up these peoples ass when they figured these useless things out. god, WHO GIVES A?!!

while i'm at it, what the fuck is a passive voice? why the hell would we need to know how to spell perjuries? what the fuck is a "perjuries" in the first place?!! And what's the use of learning how to critisise a POEM. for bloody pete's sake. "what's the difference between stanza 2 and 3?" THE FUCKIN DIFFERENCE IS THAT THE PERSON'S HEAD GOT SHOVED FURTHER UP THEIR ASS!! geez, i don't know, i don't fuckin care. the stupid thing, not that this WASN'T stupid before, is that you end up writing some lame rambling answer that has nothing to do with the actual topic just coz you dno what the hell they're going on about. sure, why not?

what else can i sledge? far out. one thing that has nothing to do with school. SLIPKNOT'S PLAYING AT BIG DAY OUT!!!!!!! does that sound like i'm at all pumped for it? yeah, the only problem is I'M NOT ALLOWED TO FUCKIN GO!!! 1. there's a pretty big chance that there'll be freaky druggies/alcoholics/people like me (assuming everyone thinks like wendy's mum; i hang around a place known for it's druggies ONCE in a while, so OBVIOUSLY i'm a druggie. in the meantime, SHE practically lives next door). 2. It's $103. 3. no one wants to come with me. 4. repeat from 1. sure, i can easily say: what can possibly go wrong. hah. bad mistake: rape, drugs, rape, alcohol, rape, murder, rape, kidanapping, rape, sex and possibly, rape. well, that's coming from my paranoid parents. -cough-

well, funnily enough, i have other stuff i probably should do. food, t.v., bed are some of the many things awaiting me.. as well as a pile of unstudied crap. so, this is my departure, "latahz"
kimo

Mutha funky, i can't think of a title

2004-11-12T22:28:00.000+11:00

man. second time around. my computer just restarted without even asking me!! funky. hah, funky. that's just as good as yesh. ahahahaha. hmmm, maybe i'll go on a high. ahahahaha. nya nya. lol. ok, that's not working. I really want to say something intellectual and funny or at least interesting. man. i'm outta whack. i'm always outta whack. HAH, I'M IN THE LIGHT!! I'M IN VCE JAP!! go me. yay. hmm. over it. >< <-attention span. moof. moof man strikes. yahaha. hallucinations of life. me. wow. i'm sleepy. ok, i know boring, jaja. well thats just me. hmmmm. mmmh. sooo bored. why aren't i funny? well i guess it might be coz my parents aren't. they're not too interesting either. hmm, runs in the family i guess. what to do..? what is there to do? have i already asked these stupid questions before? total dejavou. i probably got through this everymonth. hmmpph. let's talk japanese. watashi wa tsumaranai desu yo. juuni ji ni nemasu. gohon gohon. over it. ahh. i luv that evermore song. and ston sour!! awesome. actually, that should've been stonE sour. moof. moof man strikes again. ding. has anyone seen jim and dom from syn tv/ synFM? ahaha, they're funny lassies, lads. who the hell knows the female form of lad. lol, laddy? female of boar? boaress? meh, who cares. not me

second paragraph. foof. hah, female version of moof. the sky will never look the same again, tell you show how this could be...ahhh. i like that song. anywhos. never download anything recommended by anyone unless it's in enlgish. i don't trust that kinda music. freaks me out. well done for reading upto here. lol, i doubt anyone just read that statement i just made. ahaha, me funny no one hear it. hah, i not funny at all. woOO000oo00ohoOOOooOOooOOoo00Oo0ooOO. that's someone singing a woohoo in a song. you know how it goes high and low and stuff. yeah. me so cool . moof. moof man strikes again . ding . double spacing..who woulda thought of it . well im gonna fall asleep right here so i think i'll go crawl into bed now,

Kimo

Moof man!!

2004-11-09T20:06:00.000+11:00

howdy all,
Thanx for the comments. yeah, the quiz is gone and too bad if you missed it. hah. is anyone sick of my ranting and complaining? well you really don't need to read from HERE if you are coz i'm in a pretty ranty mood. anyways, dyu know what i'm soooo sick of?!! tests, exams, school, the usual. but you know what else? has anyone seen that show called "brat camp" where unbehaving, drug-taking, angry teens go into the middle of nowhere to fix themselves up? well one of those girls had a whole wall of posters and that included slipnot and stuff. not the point. my point is that i have slipknot posters on my wall, for a while actually, and my mum steps into my room for like the first time in a year or so and she suddenly realises what kind of posters i actually have on my wall. now she thinks i take drugs and crap just coz i listen to slipknot. gah. and my dad, i can't believe it, but he said: there are better looking people out there. omfg, that's not nice. lol, and playing in the background was Korn singing" ..why do these little girls make me feel so goddam exhilerated..." well, i really don't care if they don't like slipknot. stupid people.

...Oh yeah, i still didn't finish what i'm sick of. I'm sick of all the stress at the moment. i'm sick of being uptight and biting peoples heads off. do you know how long it's been since i've been on a high?!! too long. well not much doing. i'm actually not really in a very good ranting mood. i'm just tired and could do with some sleep. sleep and food are one of my favourite things in the world and i haven't been getting a lot of it lately. well major jap exams over so maybe it'll all be good tonight. as in, i'll be able to eat dinner and go to sleep at my normal time. i like my full 8+ hours of sleep. picky picky, i know but i just can't function very well on less than 8 hours. hmmm, schools nearly finished for the year. yay!! i just hope i'm in a good class next year. or, good classes. hopefully i get into the VCE jap class. i'll be pissed if i don't.

ok, i know i'm being really boring, ya ya i know i know, i'm a boring person. mmmmmm. nooothing to say. damn, my bro's kicking me off. oh, and if you're reading this josh dude, i really can't find the slipknot link, but add me to MSN, if you have it and i'll send you a pic of sid and corey, if you want. but how do u know if tat's really them? could just be some pricks pretending that's them. well i gotta go now, bro cracking the shits. stupid fuck. well, cyaz
Kimo

Homework makes us fat

2004-11-06T15:20:00.000+11:00

Im not gonna say sorry to those people mentioned in the previous post because they deserve everything ive sed. But im over it. Ive been too stressed out to bother about them. And thanx for the comments people.

Phew. Im so glad my science test is ova coz i crammed a whole chapter so hard into my head the night before that it started leaking out by first period. Luckily it was in 2nd period, or else i wouldve lost it all. My moods were kinda scary. I went from hysterical panic to freakish calm, then bak to hysterical. Still, i wonder what i got. I really tried. Like i REALLY tried learning when the teacher..err. .taught it? to us, but i mean seriously, how big does your attention span have to be when she’s talking about photosynthesis and respiration? Well the only bit that got into my head was that fruits are swollen ovaries and that wasnt even relevant. Mmm, well it ova now, so im glad.

But that’s not the end of it. we now have all these tests and exams and orals and crap. I know i shouldnt complain, coz everyone from otha schools have to do exams on all their subjects, but i still think that its stupid that we have 2 science lessons to learn about astronomy. We have 2 lessons to learn about all of world war 1. what else thats stupid is that we are gettin tests that we don’t even know whats on it. like pe theory. We havent even LEARNT anything, so how r we gonna get tested on it? huh? Answer me THAT!! Stupid conspiracy to get us all. Hmph, paranoia strikes, JK JK.

You know what i find stupid? Amongst otha things; spending heaps on education. Private schooling. Ok, i know i go to a private school, but i still think it’s a stupid waste of money. Money that could easily be spent elsewhere. I mean i could be talking extreme when i say this, but there ARE starving kids in 3rd world countries. I mean all up itd nearly be 100K. !))K!!
Well that confirms it, schools a waste of time. Hang on, i mean PRIVATE schools a waste of money. hah. Id rather be a dum cunt than spend that much on schooling. Its all going to the principals cars anyway. Stupid fag.

Kimo.

Official hate letter to the world

2004-11-02T17:19:00.000+11:00

So u thought the other post was a hate letter to the world..

WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT FROM ME?!!! Fuck. Fuck it all. This is the 3rd time I've tried to publish this post and it's not working. MUTHA FUCKIN PIECE OF SHIT!! If you can't tell, I'm in a fuckin pissy bad mood and it's not funny. Jesus Christ, why can't you leave me alone?!! I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT WOT U WANNA DO WITH UR LIFE!! And if u wants a fuckin holiday, GO ON ONE!! And if ur gonna worry, FUCK OFF TO SUMWHERE ELSE, somewhere where I can't hear you. People like you were made to be seen and not heard. AND MY FUCKIN PRINTER HAS NO BLACK INK!! What the fuck is this world coming to?!! Mutha fucka. AND MY BRO DOESN'T NEED A WIFE YET!! Jesus Christ.

Ok, I need to chill a bit, BUT IT DOESN'T HELP IF YOU'RE BREATHING DOWN MY BACK TELLING ME TO STUDY!! No, funnily enough, it doesn't help and it'd be nice IF YOU STOPPED. I'm sick of hearing you say: I'm counting on you kim, u need to do well in your exams, but there's no pressure, just do your best. MY FUCKIN BEST ISN'T AS GOOD AS YOU THINK IT IS!! Fuckin hell. AND THE FUCKIN CREAM ON THIS CAKE IS MAKING MY TEETH FEEL FUNNY!! Fuckin goddam, get a life. i played doctor for 5 minutes, before I cut my heart open and let the air out.. broke away my tears as I lie there.. I wasn't much fun to be around with anyway.. biding my time until the time is right..<- slipknot song that should make me feel better. Once again, if you see fuckin things like this: … it's coz im doing this on word coz YOU won't let me have a comp in my room, coz u just KNOW that I'll look up porn and go into chatrooms and give away my number and address to strange people who claim they're 14 but know all the different positions and how good it feels coz they've fucked sumone exactly 56 times. Jesus Christ, ur always praising me for crap and saying that im smart but you think im THAT dumb? Shit, I hate it when you're so fuckin paranoid. I'LL FUCKIN GIVE them A PIECE OF MY MIND BEFORE THEY THINK ABOUT GETTING INTO MY PANTS, OK?!!

And the rest of you aren't any better. Sure, go runaway with ur bigshot boyfriend and leave me all alone, why don’t you. I'd like to see that fuckin work out. like full serious. Next time ur shoving ur tongues down each other's throats, I hope you choke. Then that might give you the sickening feeling I'm having at the sight of you. And fuckin ignore me one more time and I dno how much longa this'll last. *filthy look* dumb cunts. And I only wanna be friends, wot the hell r u wanting? 9 out of 10 times ur talking, I'm not listening. Fuckin touch me again and I'll fuckin kick ur ass to whoop whoop. But, oh, what’s this? WE'RE ALREADY IN FUCKIN WHOOP WHOOP!! fuckin bullshit. God. Fuckin don't talk to me on MSN then. Don't answer my messages. Don't bother talking to me. Don't bother telling me anything, I'll hear about it in the end anyway. Just fuckin leave me alone. With all your stupid nagging and TALKING to me, I'm sick of it all.

Jesus Christ, what would it be like to runaway. Great, if you had cash. Not so great if you're trying to runaway from life. My anthology of bitter poems name's Prisoner of life. I thought of that all by myself. But that's not the point. How nice would it be to have no restraints. No nagging people like you. no one to piss you off but yourself. People taking their time out to worry about you. Hah. That'd be grouse, wouldn't it. But then they'd find you. They always do. Then you'll be in deep shit. Then it starts all over again, but worse than before. No thanks, I prefer how it is rather than any worse.

You know what I really hate about you? When you get drunk. Jesus Christ, if it's anything like last time, I'll runaway for sure. Jesus Christ I you haven't caught on, I'm rambling on about different people that are pissing me off at the moment. There isn't one huge stupid mutha fuckin cunt out there. You all are stupid mutha fuckin cunts. And I’m glad I pissed you off the other day. I hope I made you feel like shit coz you make me feel like that more than you think. Yeah, go do drugs stupid mofo. Go do all that u fuckin skank. I wonder if anyone actually read that other post of mine. Thanks a lot guys. Jesus Christ, no one did read it, isn't it? Well Im probably the paranoid one now. jesus Christ, I better not turn into you. I'd rather die.

And you know what else?!! I hate it when you say shit like: I'm tired. I'm sick. I'm so worried.. jesus, I don't give a fuck!! I know I've already been through all this but it still hasn't left me. I wanna throw something at you. Pass me the scissors dude. No, I'm not seriously gonna do it, dumb cunt. My bro took my compass. That looked therapeutical.

moving on, I think I've calmed down, but if this doesn’t save one more time, hell's gonna break loose. Yeah, shit happens, but so much at once? Jesus, maybe I should go back to pretending I believe in god. Maybe my life'll turn for the better. Jesus, I'm sick of saying I'm an atheist. It's branding me so badly, I give up. From now, I'm a Buddhist, ok? Yeah, like all those other full azns. I'll go that far, but don’t you dare drag me back to Christianity and it's stupid churches and blessing you with sum fuckin water from out the back that you claim is fuckin holy or sum shit. Sorry for the blasphemy. No, actually, I'm not sorry. Jesus, I'm not sorry for anything I've done. DEAL WITH IT!!

35 "fuck"s and anything related
14 "Jesus Christ"s and anything related
1064 words altogether

Kimo

I haven't heard a lot of good music lately

2004-10-28T19:54:00.000+10:00

hallo all,
Long time no post. well a long time for me. I've been kinda busy with homework and all. I'm this close -> <- to finishing. actually, more like -> *edit everything, correct my preface, write a bibliography,print everything onto black paper* <- to finishing it. but that's better than where i was at before. I had a nice morning, but it was wrecked when everyone started pissing me off. Well i'll tell you about my morning: I woke up at about 8 and couldn't get back to sleep so i worked on my english and problem solving until about 1. then i actually left my room. then i baked a cake and it was all good. then everyone started pissing me off. But up until then..about 2 oclock, i was in a great mood. I wrote a preface for my english anthology and it's meant to be about 500-600 words. heh. mine's 959 words long. whoops. ah well, i had to go on about poetry techniques. ^.- Oh yeah, my internet's been upgraded to 1 gig!! so it's all good. and my title is a little deceiving. I have heard some pretty good music lately, but it's old stuff. I need something NEW that's good as well. ah well. this has been blank for about an hour. well i'll just copy and paste the much more interesting comment on britt's page here. Britt's post: Pondering
Whats the point?? can some one plz tell me what the point is?

My comment

Here's a couple of point ofs:
this blog? to talk about crap
talking? to tell the other person how weird they r
school? no point
msn? to talk to weirdos
english? so we don't converse in grunts and snorts
downloading music? saves ur money
maths? no point
trigonometry? to pretend we're smart coz we can measure triangles
daylight savings? i dno
the colour brown? so u can draw poo
bedsheets? ..lol, u dont want any stains..
a sense of humour? so u don't look like mr bean
cleaning the house/ my room/ anywhere? i dno, it's only gonna get dirty again
learning about buddha/jesus/guru nank? i dno, i'm an atheist
doing an assignment on crop circles? i dno, stupid mr tilley
making a useless webpage? to clog up the school computers so they'll be even crapier and tackier and'll stuff up more than usual
weekends? just so they can't call school a prison
wot did i just say? school isn't really a prison, it just feel like one sometimes
the world? so aliens can point and laugh at how funny we look
life? no point that sounds so dark. i just meant that there isnt any, coz we live we die that's it.

Kimo

2004-10-24T13:53:00.000+10:00

hallo
I'm recovering pretty well except i woke up choking on a cough. I really don't have much to say in this post coz i have to do heaps of homework. damn, i have all these stupid tests. And i've had to write some poems. hmm. Well be proud, I wrote three last night. But that's not saying they're any good. ah well. And it's stupid, coz you have to be in the right mood to get the right poems. and it doesn't help that my theme is bitterness and i was feeling pretty good last night. lol, danicng around to linkin park. nice. Does anyone want to hear them though? well just tell me if u do.

Well i still have to go and study for my tests and stuff and yeah. so i think i should go now. well cyaz,
Kimo

My water's creeeaaaammy...

2004-10-20T14:48:00.000+10:00

grallo.
That wasn't a typo. that's what it'd sound like if i actually sed hallo coz my throats soooo sore and i got a headache. I really DON'T recommend Slipknot at a time like this. And the reason my water's creamy is coz of all that slag in my throat. ahahaha *cough, cough, choke, collapses on the ground* And my head's all squishy and my coughs hurt so much they bring tears to my eyes. Either that or the sad poem i just read:

But you didn’t

Remember the time you lent me your car and I dented it?
I thought you’d kill me…
But you didn’t.

Remember the time I forgot to tell you the dance was
Formal, and you came in jeans?
I thought you’d hate me…
But you didn’t.

Remember the times I’d flirt with
Other boys just to make you jealous, and
You were?
I thought you’d drop me…
But you didn’t.

There were plenty of things you did to put up with me,
To keep me happy, to love me, and there are
So many things I wanted to tell
You when you returned from
Vietnam…
But you didn’t.

Well anyway, we have to do some anthology thing for English and i dno what topic i should do mine on. arhh well my head's so stuffed i can't think properly. allen's talking about britt and i dno what he's going on about. and i dn what i'm going on about and so yeah. dw. my throat's raking. oh, and thanx for the comments before people. And i've decided to make a list of all my "loves" to counter out my "hates":

I love a freshly burnt CD. i love having a clean room. i love the first day of school. i love new stuff. I love new stationary. I love it when my internet's fast. I love waking up after a good sleep. I love getting out of bed with no pressure. I love reading a good book. I love hot chocolate. I love listening to good music. I love sunny weather. I love my birthday. I love a good conversation. I love getting letters. I love holidays. I love finishing a test/exam. I love lying on grass. I love drawing a good picture or writing a good poem. I love a lot of things that i can't think of at the moment.

I thought that a counter-counter..what's that word where it has to balance the other side? well woteva, i thought the list would've had to be longer than that. ar well, i dont care at the moment. i'm going to bed coz my head's not being nice to me...

Well cya lata,
Kimo

Man, god, far out, fuck, hate.

2004-10-16T20:45:00.000+10:00

hihi,
omg, sooooo braindead. dammit. And why the hell is my internet sooo slooow? well as i'd normally type up some stuff in Word and then stick it onto here, i've decided to try frontpage today. well actually i was gonna do sum IT but i can't be stuffed. partially coz my internets so slow it'd take at least 10 minutes to open a single picture. oo yay, what fun. omg, this week i've been in such a bad mood. lol, PMS to the max. goddam. but who can blame me? god, i've alreay had like a whole "essay-like" post earlier this week outlining a couple of my troubles. arg.

Dyu know what? well the swear words have just been rolling outta my mouth like full on. Weird. And i swore in front of my parents and i kinda didn't realise until after. Well, they swear so they can't tell me off or anything. god, i found out today something i could have done without. well, we'll just keep this between you and me..well, some girl at school, well some of you people out there might find this completely normal and won't have a problem with it. well i find it..different. Well anyway, some girl was telling the world about how she thinks someone may have filmed her with two guys, but she wouldn't know coz she was too drunk or high. And i hear she's had her clit pierced. ugh. go ahead, i have nothing against it, just don't come running to me if you get infected. gross.

man, i'm meant to be writing about S15 200SXs, but instead i'm writing my post waiting for my "new post" page to open. god, can it be any slower? and dyu know why it's so slow?!! COZ MY BROTHER'S BEEN DOWNLOADING VIDEOCLIPS!! i mean, just borrowing them from the internet..he'll err give them back...later. ahem, moving on. ggggod. fuck. <- man that's wot i mean. i didn't mean to type that, it just came out. omg, i'm in such a bad mood. not bad, just not in a good mood. ugh, don't tell me i'm going back into THAT place. noooo. oh well, see yall at the otha side.. well let's get into the whole atmosphere:

I hate it when my internet doesn't work. i hate it when i'm cold. I hate it when i can't sleep. I hate homework that i can't do. I hate history. i hate photosynthesis and respiration, whateva that is. I hate dusk. I hate living in whoop whoop. i hate milkbars. i hate skanks. I hate it when things don't work. i hate fractions. I hate it when my bro kicks me off the computer, especially when the internet's fast. i hate it when my mum tells me off for stupid little things. I hate it when people fight. I hate it when i can't do something. I hate bad hair days. I hate my brick of a phone. I hate it when i'm ignored. i hate being braindead. I hate being boring. i hate stupid people with knives who try to rob milkbars. I hate that title bar/\. I hate it when it's windy. i hate pop music. I hate girl TV. I hate people who hate what i like. I hate it when i do something nice and no one notices, but when someone does the same thing and makes a big deal of it, everyone notices. I hate it when people stare at me. I hate my room. I hate spiders. i hate moths. i hate huge moths that i mistake for small birds. I hate writer's block, or at least amateur-writer's block. i hate not having an appetite. I hate it when i don't understand. I hate it when i like a song for it's music and the lyrics are really bad. I hate it when people swear unnecessarily. I hate it when i'm lame. I hate it when i get signed out of MSN. I hate stupid rules. I hate it when it's raining; IT'S SPRING, GODAMMIT!! I hate blank pages. I hate it when my cousin's being annoying. I hate RE. I hate it when i'm hungry. I hate pastel pink. I hate pastel colours. I hate headaches. I hate boring convos on MSN. i hate it when i don't get a joke. I hate being sick. I hate saying something funny, but the other person doesn't get it so you repeat it and it's not as funny. I hate glasses. I hate cramps. I hate vomitting. I hate I hate not being able to word my ideas. I hate 30 -50 minute car drives;anymore, you can do stuff, any less isn't too bad. I hate assemblies. I hate being bored. I hate it when no one comments. I hate songs that aren't in english. I hate wiggas. i hate people who think they're hardcore, but theyre just not. i hate most of the clothes on the catwalk. I hate being the convo stopper. I hate it when ppl t0rK Lyke DiS Nd deY NeVa Sht0p. I hate kanji. I hate freaky people on MSN. I hate it when people think they're so good and try and help you even though you're fully capable by yourself. I hate it when people criticise what I do, the music i listen to or how i look. I hate this layout. I hate aniseed. i hate it when people don't get something i say and then when they do, it's not funny anymore. I hate it that my eyes are screwed up; I'm nearly half blind. I hate it that i'm hungry. I hate it when i can't remember something. I hate that feeling when you know you've forgotten something. I hate it that i can't think of anymore hates. i hate saying hate, coz hate is such a harsh word that i'll probably change my mind about half of these and contradict myself 10 times over. god.

Man, god, far out, fuck, hate. such over used words that've probably appeared at least 10 times in this one post. fuck. i hate these fucken words, man. god. <- ugh just to prove my point. i'm not in a bad mood. i'm not angry. actually i am, but not for any valid reason. Maybe coz my arse is sore coz i keep sliding off this stupid chair. god, there goes my mum again. ' it's like 11 something. don't you think it's time to got to sleep, or are you just gonna sit there til tomorrow *in a majorly sarcastic voice*" ugh. fuck off. and if you don't comment, i don't care. i've given up on trying to force you people to comment. i don't care anymore. I don't care coz obviously none of you care. ugh, leaving now
Kimo.

The moon's bright..hang on, it's a streetlamp..

2004-10-13T18:46:00.000+10:00

hello people,
God, this is like the 3rd time i've tried to publish this post and if this doesnt work..well 1) you wouldn't be reading it, and 2) i'll be pissed off. Well anyway, moof. I was gonna complain again about boring stuff aboutme again, well i'm not gonna anymore, since the computer disagrees with me everytime i try to. Well here's my rant for today:

Far out, my computer's internet's gone all slow and it took me 5 minutes to open this page, so you'd better be grateful. If you're not gonna friggen comment on my posts, then don't bother reading this. Don't bother wasting your time on coming to my blog. Stop reading from now, you ungrateful people. By the way, thanx for the comments johnny. That's 2 up on everyone else. And why the hell am i in such a bad mood?!! COZ MY INTERNET KEEPS STUFFING UP, THATS WHY!! You know what, i just realised my caps lock on msn is so un-impressive. it's perhaps even smaller than my usual writing. and if your not gonna update your blog, THEN DON'T HAVE ONE!! phar out. like i said, just a rant, don't be offended. and i've just contradicted my first bit. so i will complain about myself and stuff, but well if you don't wanna hear/ read about it, then go away and live in morbid curiosity. far out.

Well anyway, god, i hate this convo i'm in. no offence or anything but .. i dno how to say it.. well i just didn't like it. I invited heaps of people, then only one person and i were talking and stuff. to make a convo work, especially one with about 6 people in it, YOU NEED TO TALK!! can i emphasise that anymore?!! god, if you're just gonna sit there and read wot everyone else is saying, don't bother being there at all. And even worse is when it's really boring. how do you expect a convo of that many people to be interesting if only two people are talking?!! just press that little red cross in the corner to show everyone you don't care and couldn't give a. <-and when i say that, i mean don't give a.. like: what the..? Just explaining it for those who don't get it. And dyu know what really gets me?!! friggen people who ignore oyu. when i face you and open my mouth and funnily enough, sound comes out of my mouth, that DOES mean i'm talking to you. OR if i have a convo on MSN and it's only me in there and i type stuff, that IS aimed at you. I'm not just talking to myself or looking at how pretty my font is on the screen. far out.

Far out, this is what's been getting to me for a couple of days now. my bro is 17 and finishes school next year and my friggen mum's just whooped out these pics of sum chicks from CAMBODIA!! "Woddaya reckon of her? as your SISTER-IN-LAW?!!" omg. far out, i couldn't give a fuck more. just as long as she's not a skank, she doesn't smell like cambodia and she has a sense of humour, i'll be fine. but can you tell these things from a picture?!! NO YOU CAN'T SO STOP PISSING ME OFF!! J. C.!! far out.

AND WHY THE HELL DOES MY BRO ALWAYS SEEM TO BE ON THE FRIGGEN COMP?!! and when i'm on, oo look, he's come to kick me off with his only reason "you've been on for ages" blah blah blah blah. god, here he comes AGAIN. lol, that was pretty cool, i didn't even mean to press caps lock. hah. god, pissy mood. just snapped at wendy. god, oh well, she'll get ova it. she's been ignoring me for a while anyway. and god, THEY can all speak fluent english, so why speak in chinese around me?!! god, if your talking about me, then go ahead, speak about me in front of me. I DON'T GIVE A!! far out.

OMG!! Now i'm pissed at the weather. it was just 32 degrees and it's friggen 20 something today. god, just f***n stay at either hot or cold. jc, make up your mind and leave me alone. if it's gonna rain, can't it pour? if it's gonna be warm, can't it be boiling? one or the other. god, great arguements i got going. well it's just pissing me off like everything else is. god. far out.

And i feel so bad for sublime. god, stupid f***s. see, i feel sorry for her. people can't just do that. that's so rude. if it were me, i'd back hand him one. and if he has a knife, i'd get a gun. far out. i can see why you hate him so much, well i have a few ideas you might find handy, if not, i'm just a morbid little girl:
- put an airconditioner under his desk and freeze his toes off.
- unscrew the shower head before he goes in, and then it'll crash on his head, or he'll drown.
- accidently break a glass bottle on his bed and then he'll either be stabbed to death, or he'll be spikey and stupid looking.

ahh, so many flaws, but so funny. well, i dno, maybe they're not i'm in such a sarcastic mood. god gotta go now, cyaz all lata
Kimo.
and don't forget to comment.

I DON'T care..

2004-10-09T23:53:00.000+10:00

Hihi,
Well I haven't posted some actual stuff lately. So here's some stuff for you people. and you better read it, I mean just coz ur all getting ur own blogs and haven't said anything that's actually been interesting. No offence, but "it's the first day of school...i don't think this works..." and stuff doesn't really count. Well britt's does, but i've already commented like 5 times on her blog. PRIANKA!! What the hell? where's your posts? At least wendy's been trying. Lol, I know your internet isn't working and rah rah rah... Anyway, I can't tell you what to do on your blog, just keep it interesting.

So yeah. As my title says "I DON'T CARE!!" god. I hate it when someone tells you something completely useless with absolutely no connection with you and it's not funny or anything. I mean the election. sure, the outcome might have some sorta connection with me, but far out, i DON'T GIVE A!! OMG, it was on like 4/5 channels at once. and what was up with the newsreader lady? she was like unco. i dno, you'd probably have to see her to get it.

What's up with keeping my room tidy?!! What the f-hell? i mean it's only gonna get messy/er anyway. And it just looks messy to the untrained eye. If you look carefully, everything goes in it's little area. Like all my books are around my desk, so that it's easy access when i'm at my desk and all my clothes are easy access too. And it's in an order of how long of worn it, so i know when to wash everything. It all works, but my mum or my dad don't seem to be able to understand it. IT DOES WORK!! And my bro stole my poster of Evo cars. damn him.

I was having this whole debate with my bro, what is pop? I said it's popular music so Eminem and stuff can fit in that category. But my bro said that eminem's rap. I said that it can be rap AND pop. I mean crap like good charlotte and Simple plan are more pop than rock. i dno, my definition of pop is something that's overplayed, overrated and is on the radio at least 5 times a day on one radio station. Maybe i just like being a weirdo that doesn't like what everyone else likes. but i mean seriously, HOW THE HELL CAN YOU LISTEN TO THAT STUFF THEY PLAY ON THE RADIO THESE DAYS?!! stuff, i don't wanna offend anyone by calling their music crap or anything, but i mean can you seriously listen to Darren Hayes without cringing, or actually enjoy Maroon 5? I mean some of the stuff they play could be good, it's just they play it SOOO much, it just goes bad. but i'm not saying that i'd listen to Britney spears or something if they didn't play it on the radio.

Aghh my back's hurting and my hands are cold. Anyway, thanks for commenting guys. ohh, it's like flooding in, slow down... Didja know, even Georgia's scared we might have turned all boring because we've been friends for so long. Noooo. I don't wanna be old. she said we'd be like those old silent couples *not that we're a couple*. Anyway, I still wanna go to sydney in the christmas holidays. anyone who wants to come with me, just comment. well actually, i still havent told my parents. still, i wanna go. and speaking of christmas holidays, it's exactly 77 days til christmas and 142 days until my birthday. I'm not sad. lol, it's this little "dateulator" thing on my phone that counts down days for you. pretty cool. that's why EVERYONE wants a 3 phone, don't they...*nods* of course.

gah, it's like 11 something and my mum's telling me off. I think she's saying go to sleep or something. moof. gah. I don't feel like it. Who was it that said they were turning nocturnal? i can't remember, but i work better at night too. well, I dno for sure, but i think i work best between 7PM and 3AM. actually, make that 2 AM. Well, that only works if i have enough sleep. Has anyone watched Rage at night? that's some freaky stuff. Lol, there was this one video clip and they were like "I love acid, i love acid..." pretty scary. pretty funny.

my butt's getting sore from sitting like this and so i think i will go now. I'm getting used to talking like this. as in talking to someone who does not know english very well. well i have been talking to a couple of people that are not very good at english today. ok, ok, i'll stop talkin like that. dude. was that any different? maybe not. well it sounded weird in my head. Meh, i have to go all the way upstairs to my bed. mmm, bed. lol, ok, i'll leave y'all alone now.
Cya lata,
Kimo

And don't forget to comment.

Ooo, looky what I found

2004-10-06T11:14:00.000+10:00

1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold/underline the things that are true about you.
3. Whatever you don't bold/underline is false.

01. I miss somebody right now (my uncle)
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love olives
04. I love sleeping
05. I own lots of books
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I love to play video games
08. I've watched porn
09. I believe in honesty
10. I have acne free skin
11. I curse frequently
12. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year (Far out, do u think imight have MATURED?!! :( bye bye highs.)
13. I have a hobby
14. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
15. I'm really, really smart (as long as you count street smarts and not book smarts)
16. I've never broken someone's bones
17. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
18. I hate the rain
19. I'm paranoid at times
20. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scars
21. I need money right now!
22. I love Sushi
23. I talk really, really fast (sometimes)
24. I have fresh breath in the morning
25. I have semi-long hair
26. I have lost money in a bet
27. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
28. I was born in a country outside of Australia
29. I shave my legs on a regular basis
30. I have a twin
31. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past
32. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
33. I like the way I look (sometimes)
34. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
35. I know how to braid hair
36. I am usually pessimistic
37. I have mood swings (sometimes)
38. I think prostitution should be legalised (I have nothing against it)
39. I think Britney Spears is hot
40. I have cheated on a significant other in the past
41. I have a hidden talent (it's hidden so well, I don't even know it)
42. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
43. I think that I'm popular
44. I am currently single
45. I have kissed someone of the same sex
46. I enjoy talking on the phone only if its someone I want to talk to
47. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants
48. I love to shop
49. I would rather shop than eat
50. I would classify myself as ghetto
51. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
52. I'm obsessed with my Blog
53. I don't hate anyone
54. I'm a pretty good dancer
55. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
56. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
57. I have a mobile phone
58. I believe in God
59. I watch MTV on a daily basis
60. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
61. I have never been in a real relationship before
62. I've rejected someone before
63. I currently have a crush on someone
64. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
65. I have changed a diaper before
66. I've called the cops on a friend before
67. I bite my nails
68. I'm not allergic to anything that I know of
69. I have a lot to learn
70. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger
71. I am very shy around the opposite sex
72. I'm online 24/7
73. I have tried alcohol or drugs before (I tried beer and orange juice. never try it.)
74. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past
75. I own the "South Park" movie
76. I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on my Blog
77. When I was a kid I played "doctor" with a neighbor or chum
78. I enjoy some country music
79. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
80. I watch soap operas whenever I can
81. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
82. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
83. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all
84. I watch Saddle Club and I like it
85. I have dated a close friend's ex
86. I'm happy as of this moment

Do you actually read the title?

2004-10-06T10:58:00.001+10:00

Words to live by:
1. If you are choking on an ice cube, don't panic! Simply pour a cup of boiling water down your throat and presto! The blockage will be almost instantly removed.

2. Clumsy? Avoid cutting yourself while slicing vegetables by getting someone else to hold them while you chop away.

3. Avoid arguments with the Mrs. about lifting the toilet seat by simply using the sink.

4. For high blood pressure sufferers: just cut yourself and bleed for a few minutes, thus reducing the pressure in your veins.

5. A mouse trap, placed on top of your alarm clock, will prevent you from rolling over and going back to sleep after you hit the snooze button.

6. If you have a bad cough, take a large dose of laxatives, then you will be afraid to cough.

7. Have a bad toothache? Smash your thumb with a hammer and you will forget about the toothache.

8. Remember: Everyone seems normal until you get to know them.

9. Never pass up an opportunity to go to the bathroom.

10. If you woke up breathing, congratulations! You get another chance.

And finally, be really nice to your family and friends, you neverKnow when you might need them to empty your bedpan.

I found these from: http://thorntonmelon.blogspot.com/ and i thought you people might like them. oh, and since school's started again, I probably won't be making as many posts as often.
Kimo

Is melted ice cold or warm?

2004-10-05T17:39:00.000+10:00

howdy,
gah!! I've been staring at this blank screen for a long time. what the hell am i meant to put as a title? Well i'll make one up at the end of this post, unless i think of something else between now and then. Ahh, first day of term 4. We only have 8 weeks left of school..I think. Well, that can't be too bad. Damn this bloody science thing. I HATE HATE HATE etc... it like so much. lol, yeah well i hate it a lot.

Thanx for promothing this place Prinx. New readers are always welcome, not that old readers aren't. Old being people who have been here before, not like old people. Not that I have anything against old people...ok, i'll just stop now.

OMGosh, i think, apart from R.E. and I.T. the next most useless thing at school would have to be assembly. I mean no offence to those that perform, i have nothing against you. that is, unless you take over 5 minutes to perform. No offence, i mean really. It's all repeated like 5 times in the one song. why don't you just play it all once thru and anyone who wants to listen can come and have little private sessions or something coz i don't have the patience to sit there, braindead and bored and listen to the same tune played over 5 times. It doesn't give you enough space in your head to tune out and actually think. But that's not my point. I'll explain it to people who don't know what happens at our school:

When we walk into the hall, the deputy principal says "shut the f*** up" without actually saying those exact words. Then we have to sing. Then some person performs with their instrument. And then the principal goes on and on about who knows what: "I urge you to..*tune out*" And then some girl gets some award for some thing that no ones ever heard of or something, I think it was geography mapping thing or something. AND THEN, the priest guy, i won't say his name in case someone wants to stalk him or something, prays to us or something: "Dear God...*tune out*" And yeah. It's the most mind numbing 45 minutes of school, well, apart from R.E. And it's only meant to be half an hour or something.

Anyway, this has taken me like 3 days to write because: 1) My internet keeps stuffing up. 2) I have nothing to say. 3) I've been doing other stuff. So well here it is, and i'd like to say congrats to Prianka, Britt and Wendy who've made up their own blogs. Well that's no excuse for not coming here. Well I'm going now, I think I should be doing some I.T. so cya lata,
Kimo

Coke and aspirin aren't an aphrodisiac

2004-10-04T19:22:00.000+10:00

hallo,
How is everyone? I'm OK, if anyone was wondering. I went to Southland with Georgia today. We watched dodgeball. lol, that was pretty funny. Well before that we had about 2 hours to kill so we went and tried on some clothes and stuff. I found this cute dress at Myer for $110 and this other pink dress at Hipster. I liked that one. Then we went into this weirdo clothes shop and George tried on this denim dress. I was cacking myself. ah well. then we went to the beach. actually we went to a park first, but there was this annoying kid that followed us around.

I just thought I'd post, but today i have absolutely nothing to talk about and i don't feel like talking to you. Don't take it personally. I've had like 10 views over night or something. WHY DON'T YOU COMMENT?!! nah, just i would like to know who comes and goes around here. Well I'm hungry and really bored. Did you know I drew some pics these holidays. Well not really pics...it's just like fancy writing, i guess. Oh yeah, that reminds me, LAST DAY OF SCHOOL HOLIDAYS!! Oh well, school can't be too bad, can it? Lol, you just wait a couple of weeks and see where i wanna shove school.

Well i'm going now, cyaz,
Kimo

As well as pics, i tried writing some poems. And just looking through some of Slipknot's lyrics, I FOUND ONE OF MY LINES!! God, I've never even listened to this song and it has my line in it: You all stare, but you'll never see. well mine was kinda like that: you stare at me, but you never see. godammit, ripped off of my own thoughts.

...and it left, as fast as it had come.

2004-10-02T13:24:00.000+10:00

hallo,
phew it's gone, but you can still find it if you want...

Well i got my hair cut yesterday!! yeah, i was excited. And yeah. Sorry to confuse you, if you didn't get the last two posts I made. well, now i have nothing to say. hmm, i think i'll talk about my music then..well not MY music, just the music I listen to:

Well if people are allowed to sound high <-- as in drug high or happy or just plain boring. But noooo, people are suddenly not allowed to sound angry or depressed. Just coz they don't sound like everyone else, it doesn't mean that they're not singing. or at least making music.

I had something else to say..oh yeah. hah, i bet ur all jealous of all the posters on my wall at the moment. hahaha, Linkin Park, Slipknot and Korn. Somehow, I don't think my parents really agree with my err.. taste in music. or bands. Well they havent said anything yet about the poster with Slipknot and their masks.. Yay, my room has that sweet smell of fresh posters.

Yes, lol, i remember what i got so weirded up about. wtf is child pornography?!! I mean: "..with children as young as 2" How the hell do u get turned on by some friggen 2 year old?!! Weirdos. Yes, go raid their houses and stuff coz people who like that kinda shit don't belong on the streets. Freaks.

Gah, my internet keeps stuffing up. I was talking on MSN, then it got to this boring spot and then suddenly when i wanted to say something, i wasn't even signed on. bloody hell.

Well I'm gonna go err relieve myself, lol. Cya lata,
Kimo

I can't see my desk

2004-09-28T16:17:00.000+10:00

hi,
OMFG!! I go to burn a CD- an 80 minute one, might i add. AND IT ONLY BURNT 67 F#$&EN MINUTES OF MUSIC!! Far out, i'm cut. aaanyway.

Ugh, I'm bored again. Well not again, it's been one looong boring stretch. I'm just gonna copy Sublime and tell you all about my friends *Alphabetically*:

Alan
Well he comes and looks here so I guess he's now my friend. I don't think we're ANY MORE THEN THAT. I think PEOPLE think we are. Lol, anyway he's just a nice bloke. lol, bloke is so the wrong word. Can you get someone that's just overly nice? I'm not saying it as a bad thing, I just meant like, he just is never..mean? I'm not saying everyone is, I just mean he's always, constantly nice. That's something that I could never be. If someone's pissing me off, I think you can tell. He's nice to be around, but I can never think of what to say, lol.

Angela
I've known Angela for ages, but only recently we've actually been friend friends. I dno, she kinda just morphs into the crowd, not that that's a bad thing. Gah, I bet she'll read this hoping for something interesting, lol. Well you can thank her for this place, she introduced it to me. Well, Angela's nice and she's always got good advice, I guess. Lol, what can i say?

Georgia
Yes, Georgia. She's been my best friend since year 4. I reckon our worst year was year 6 when we were in different classes. Well she's in Ballarat at the moment so I can't talk to her. She does dancing and music and stuff. We actually don't have THAT much in common, but we get along so well. We can telepath thoughts to each other. Lol, Georgia has got to be one of the funniest people around.

Jia Wen *Jong*
Jia Wen just appeared out of nowhere in like the middle of last year. She doesn't really have much input though, but that's only coz she does that double shrug thing. But she's always reading, i don't think she really cares what happens around here. Well, good on her, I guess.

Prianka *Prinx*
Prianka is an avid fan of this place, and i applaud you for it. Haha, Prianka is so funny. And she's so smart as well. I have to disagree with everyone else though. I don't really think she's a blonde in disguise, she can just have her "blonde" moments. Lol, don't we all.

T.A.
T.A.'s been my friend for ages. She came up with the name "Kimo" in year 4. I remember that. And I've always wondered what the hell is a Kimo? Well, she's an all-rounder. She just walks up to someone and just get along with them. And she's funny too...her only problem is that she likes LOTR. cough cough, lol.

Wendy
Wendy came to our school in yr 7 but we only became friends in like the middle of yr 8, but we're good friends now. She's azn, like me...and half the world, but we have so much in common it's scary. Well, sorta.. It's weird that it feels like i've known her forever, but actually, it's only been like a year or something. She's fun to be around and she's good to fight with. The only thing is, she can be a workaholic.

Well I do have more friends, but these are the spesh ones. This took me ages to write, so you better appreciate it. And if you're not on here, soz, tell me and I'll write one for you. I'm gonna make another post, actually, Ill do that later.
Kimo

I just choked on nothing

2004-09-27T14:13:00.000+10:00

hello hello,
well then. I feel like talking, but I don't know what about. I think I might move schools. But where can you find a good school these days, that don't cost a couple of cars..or at least one good car. But if I move, then I have to make new friend s and then all my other friend's'll be at another school, then "it'll never be the same"!! But I mean seriously, around $15 K a year is a lot of money. And personally, I think it's a waste. I mean, what would happen if i don't even do well in VCE?!! oh well.

I'm so ... i dno, i'm gonna go now. I'm sick of this place. this blank screen has been staring at me for ages. piss off blank screen. gah. anyways,
Kimo

gah

2004-09-25T14:22:00.000+10:00

Hello,
If you've been keeping up with my posts, you'll notice i said i was gonna disappear for a while. by that i meant i'll stop coming here and msn. BUT THE TEMPTATION IS SO STRONG. Anyway, it hasn't really worked. gah. didja know i spent like 6 hours straight the other day here? yeah, well i did and then i got a huge headache. funny that. and i only got off coz my bro came home.

well i have nothing to do. well actually i do, but im not gonna do it..just yet. i don't really have anything to say either. I just came to say hi to you people. Hmm, there really isn't much to do on the internet. or else where. what can i do? i have to take my cousin out 2moz. yay yipee. *cough* i might go somewhere...somewhere? BUT WHERE? i dno. such tough questions. What do 11 year olds like? lol, dyu reckon it'll be wrong to introduce korn and slipknot to her? maybe. it might damage her. ok, i'll wait til next year. oo, christmas is coming up. and then new years. oh, george, britts, jong's bday first. yeah, then priankas afta new years. then ugh flicks. then 2 days lata will be MY BIRTHDAY!! yay. i'm excited. well, as excited as you can be 5 months before your birthday.

did i say i wanted to go to sydney. yeah, well i still do. i might go with my aunty. she seems to be going. oh. i just remembered. some1s getting married or sumthing. hmmm. ok, dw, just thinking to myself.

umm. i like seriously have nothing to talk about. Someone recommended "cradle of filth". they said it was good, but not many people like that kind of stuff. *cough* i see why. I mean it's not like really weird or anything. it's just empty music. i mean like theres some dude singing *cough* lol, no offence but he sounds like he's squealing or something. well, high pitched screaming/singing. and theres like an organ or somehting. i think it's classified as "death metal" or something. I assume because they sound like they're half dead or because they sing about death or they sound like death or somehting. oh well. oh and i seem to have their cd. all 11 tracks sound the same. well, if that kind of stuff does it for you, sure why not.

well, i think i'll go now. i havent really said much. yes, dragging on skills are pretty good. i seem to have dragged on about nothing for 3 paragraphs. woohoo. well i will go now and stop wasting your time.
Kimo

my gosh pt. 2

2004-09-23T14:08:00.000+10:00

me again,
You asked for some lyrics, so here they are:

She seemed dressed in all of me, stretched across my shame.
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me
I'd do anything to have her to myself
Just to have her for myself
Now I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do when she makes me sad.

She is everything to me
The unrequited dream
A song that no one sings
The unattainable, Shes a myth that I have to believe in
All I need to make it real is one more reason
I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do when she makes me sad.

But I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me

A catch in my throat choke
Torn into pieces
I won't, nO!
I don't wanna be this...

But I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me

She isn't real
I can't make her real
She isn't real
I can't make her real

^ That was for Vermillion Pt. 2. The slow song, where i went "emotional" over. It's a sad song, alright? And it's like acoustic with NO drums and it just sounds nice. I only recommended it coz i didn't think you'd like their other songs. Well, if you want to actually hear it, then just download it. *cough* I mean, don't download. who said that? Downloading is illegal.

Anyway well, hmm. I hate milkbars. They suck as much as living in Whoop whoop. haha, the worst thing would be to live in a milkbar IN Whoop whoop. hah. imagine THAT. Even worse than just milkbars would be to work in one. I those fags that just prance in and just take their time choosing something and then verbally harrassing the poor little girl behind the counter. I saw this one incdident where the guy started shouting at the girl because it was "too expensive". I think he was drunk as well. And another time, i saw this old man say, "G'day gorgeous, I brought you some flowers!!". Personally, i don't think she should have taken them coz who knows where they've been...All this at my local milkbar.

I wanna go to Sydney in the Christmas holidays, but the chances of me getting lost is about: 99%. I don't know my way around and I don't think anyone will wanna go with me. or at least be allowed to go with me. I've been branded as "evil" by a friend's mum. I think I've said so before. She doesn't trust me anymore. She thinks I drink alcohol, do drugs, hang out in Chingvale too much amongst other "evil" stuff. lol, sure why not. So yeah. my bro wanted to go to Sydney too. But that's coz his friends are going. I wanna go to, but i dont wanna tag along with him. Maybe i'll hang out with my uncle and my cousins or something. well, i havent told my parents yet. oh well. i'll plan it then deal with it later.

well i'll be off now. I really should get some work done before it's officially too late.
Kimo

my gosh

2004-09-23T13:19:00.000+10:00

hi
WHY GODDAM F#$&IN WHY CAN'T I SLEEP?!! WHY THE F#$& CAN I BE SO GODDAM TIRED YET TAKE 2 HOURS JUST TO SLEEP?!! AND THE SLEEP THAT I DO GET ISN'T EVEN SATISFYING!! Far out. I'm sick of getting 6-7 hours of sleep everynight. I'm so used to getting like 8 hours and taking away an hour off everynight is making me disfunctional. Well, even more so than usual.

Yesterday we went out. we being a couple of us. and yeah. not much happened. lol, we went to the city and bummed around.

I really wanted to say something else, but I can't remember what..dammit. I think i'll disappear for a while. I haven't felt like talking to anyone in such a long time. hmph. oh well. OH i remember what i wanted to talk about:

OMFG DO YOU REALISE HOW MUCH IT SUCKS LIVING OUT IN F#$&EN WHOOP WHOOP?!! Does anyone realise how much i HATE this place?!! I mean I'm so far out of civilisation that something could happen and i'd be the last to know. I mean i see COWS grazing in PADDOCKS on my way to school everyday. My relatives have get-togethers every sunday night. but no. we never go because we live in WHOOP WHOOP. Everyone has fun in chingvale and just hang. but no. we live in WHOOP WHOOP where there's so much to see and do.. like looking out at the great view of.. A F#$&EN MOUNTAIN. WHO THE HELL WOULD VOLUNTARILY LIVE SOMEWHERE LIKE THIS?!! not me, for one. I don't think my bro likes this place either. and what's even worse, well actually here's the whole list:
- No one lives around here
- The only place to go is Knox the shopping centre. and once you've been there once, you've seen everything to see.
- I live at least 20 minutes away from someone I know.
- I don't have a driver's lisence. If i did, I wouldn't be stuck here everyday.
- I heard kookaburras the other day. I'm not exaggerating, i really DO live in Whoop whoop.
- I'm stuck here for another whole year or more.
- It's colder here than in other places. And we don't have a heater.

So yeah. Feel privilaged to live among others.

We're all growing old so quickly, it's scary. My bro's finishing school next year and i'll be in year 10. lol, that hasn't hit me yet, but just see me when it does. I'll be hysterical. Hmm, I have a week left of school holidays and i have nothing much planned. Aww, i'm so annoyed about sunday. I can't go anywhere with Georgia like we'd planned. It's coz my mum said it's too quiet, it's dangerous, only weirdos are out on sundays...etc. except i was allowed to go, i'd be some weirdo then, wouldn't i? Oh well, i'd rather be a weirdo with Georgia than at home with my dear cousin. dear 11 year old cousin.

Hmmm. Anyway, why does everyone bag my music? I don't take it personally, but you can't really judge if you've never listened to the stuff. I mean i have the right to bag all i want coz i've tried listening to your stuff. I've listened and even tried thinking like you, just to get the right...atmosphere? I'm really trying to like your music, but it just doesn't do it for me. Slipknot and korn on the other hand.. lol. I've given up on you hopeless people. Even if i forced it on you, you will never get it.

Crap. I have some homework to do. That sucks. Why should i have to do work on my holidays? well, i'll forget everything otherwise, i guess. oh well, i think i'll make another post. this one looks kinda long, but i could be wrong.

Me

soz

2004-09-21T13:31:00.000+10:00

Hi,
Well nice of you to find this post. If you don't want to read about me being a little drama queen, then stop reading from now. Well, I can hear you going: you're not a little drama queen, but after you read this, IF you read this, then you might think otherwise. I just want to get all this outta my system, so you really don't need to read the next bit. Well, here goes, and don't think I'm weird after this..i've always been weird.

Well what I wanted to say/ask/ramble on about is: depression. I mean everyone gets depressed once in a while don't they? Well i know i do. it's a sad fact. but that's not what i wanted to say. I also wanted to say, is it still normal if you get it constantly. God, I don't know why i'm telling you this, perfect strangers or best friends out there, but i mean I know everyone has their bad days, but what happens when it turns into a bad week? what happens when what was a once in a long while thing has now turned into a monthly-oh-so-familiar hole that gets deeper everytime you fall into it? Confession: I've been this --> <-- close to full on wanting to commit suicide. It's not a nice thing really, and i hate it.

I actually probably won't ever commit suicide...maybe. When you, Alan, said that i wasn't boring, well actually, that kinda picked me up a little. But actually, my mum made me feel better too. She didn't say anything in particular, but i know she cares. and i think you people do too, or else, why the fuck are you reading this? I know it's gay and all, but little things really do count to someone on the brink of madness.

But seriously, what diff if i did leave this world? Would it affect you? Hopefully. It's just that, when i'm in this hole, i feel like i'm never gonna be as good as anyone else, i'm always a failure, no-one likes me, i'm so lame, i'm so lonely... and stuff. Then, I know it's probably not the best thing, but i listen to music..you know like slipknot and stuff where they're constantly singing about suicide and stuff. But in one of those "get to know me better" email things i said i listen to slipknot when i'm angry. Well the next best thing is to cry it out. Listening to sad songs just gets the tears out betta. *hah, canon in d is a pretty good crying song. Weird to think it fits in some sort of category as slipknot. Wehehell, SOMEone sounds all pro about it.* So well, anyway that's what i do; cry myself to sleep. Then, usually, i'm all betta the next day.

If not, then I plan my suicide.

But I still don't get it. Why me? I mean I haven't gone through some whole traumatic thing or anything damaging. This is the bit that I mean when i say I'm being a little drama queen. I really shouldn't complain, since there are people starving and stuff and I have it all to them. So why should I be so down all the time? I dno and it feels like I have no right to feel like this. It's like when those millionaires, or at least rich people commit suicide, and everyone asks: why? I'm not saying I'm all rich and that I have everything, but I have a life that half the world could be jealous of. I have a loving family, I have great friends, I go to school, I live in a house, I have food and water, I can read and write. So why the hell am i so fucken depressed all the time?
Hah, i wrote a couple of poems while i was depressed. Keep in mind i'm no poetry sorta person and i don't write poetry very often, especially when i'm not forced to. and i like rhyming poems, so it might sound weird:

Take a hold of my hand
And look into my eyes,
See inside my heart
And figure out my lies.

You'll never comprehend
All the darkness in me,
All those fucken demons
Laughing with glee.

Don't be offended,
But this life is shit.
Oh, it's only my opinion,
I'll get over it.

I'll only say it once,
I don't like to cry,
So i'll leave that behind.
This is my final goodbye.

I had to this other bit that went: Seize my shoulders, shake out the pain, stop my crying ...<- i dno wot goes here. See me wane? Keep me sane? Oh not again? Well here's another one. I like this one better. Oh, and just in case these are misleading, i'm not killing myself anytime soon.

Listen to the kids
Who don't have a clue.
Carefree and joyous,
They've never felt blue.

All of these children,
Are having fun.
All are happy,
All but one.

That one was me,
Bullied and teased.
I cut my wrists,
Everyone was pleased.

Well as you might have noticed, I've taken out the "comments" button. Only because if someone did happen to comment, it'd make all this reality. I'm fine with my thoughts and i don't really want to hear whether you care or not, coz if you didn't you wouldn't have even gotten this far. So i really appreciate you reading this. Just ponder about what I've said, forget about it and don't recommend me any sort of professional help.

Kimo.

umm

2004-09-20T13:59:00.000+10:00

Greetings.
I'm so annoyed at Wendy. How could she just look forward to our outing so much, ORGANISE it during school and make it the highlight of our holidays and end up not being allowed to come. How can she sound so lighthearted about it as well?!! I was going hysterical about it and she was just like "oh, I by the way, I can't come." like it was a trip to the local milkbar or something!! And I offered to convince her parents for her and she said I'd never see daylight again. But she HAS to come. It just won't be fun without her. I'm not saying the other people who are coming aren't fun, it's just it'd be funner *funner? is that a word?* with her than without. The nerve of her. *sigh* yes, i know it's not HER fault, but i could seriously ask her parents if she wants to come. I'm getting the impression she doesn't even want to come. ugh.

When someone says "your dragging on skills are great!!" is that a good thing? lol. I suppose it is..A couple of people have said I can go on about nothing much. I try to keep things interesting, but I don't really know how interesting I really am, if any at all. Because even I wouldn't read this blog. Sorry, but I wouldn't, but that's just me. hahaha, i like my power to force this place on you people. Lol, I just sent a formal complaint to wendy. Here's a great link for everyone out there: http://flooble.com/fun/go.php . And another great link : http://fujiko07.blogspot.com . I'd like to have power in forcing Fujiko's blog on you people as well.

Well I smell lunch and I'll see you later,
Kimo

uhh

2004-09-19T14:51:00.000+10:00

Hello,
Do you know what i hate? I hate being an insomniac. ugh. It sucks and only this morning, have i had a nice long sleep. 9 1/2 hours, actually. I've had about 6-7 every other night these holidays. don't you hate that? like when you're dead tired but you just can't fall asleep? I woke up at 7 this morning and i couldn't get back to sleep until like 8 or something. god, i HATE it. i hate it more than i hate...umm...well.. *insert hated thing*. well anyway.

Do you know how bored i was last night? Think of the most boringest time you've ever had. well it was more boring last night. I had absolutely NOTHING to do, no one to talk to, and it's not like i could have gotten any sleep. ugh. NOTHING. absolutely nothing is what i have to do. and so i'm bored out of my brains at the moment. well i was even more so last night, when i had even less to do than now. now i at least have the internet. it's only the end of the first week of holidays and i'm sooooo bored.

hmm...can you lose interestingness? i mean i think i was once interesting. well i've been so bored for so long i've turned boring. like really boring. Like i've lost the ability to even form sentences proper. you get? ugh. well. see what i mean? ok i did that on purpose but anyway, i've turned excruciatingly boring and it's killing me. I'M SICK OF BEING BORING. i need something interesting to happen. even RE was more interesting than my life is at the moment.

oh and i have something to tell you people. GO ON TO FUJIKO'S BLOG!! *http://fujiko07.blogspot.com* she said no one's been there. shame on all of you. go on it NOW. well not exactly now. you can go when you've finished reading this and made your comment. anyway. who knew these holidays could drag on so much, yet go by so quickly. what have i acheived these holidays? as muc as i have done: nothing. AHH!! georgia's on MSN. long time no talk to her. I'll see you people lata.
Kimo

distraught

2004-09-17T17:15:00.000+10:00

hello,
well as you can tell, this place has had a change. :( all my hard work IS GONE!! but now i have my comments and archives back. Well. great. now what? i've even lost my people counter. damn this place. and wtf is with my posts? they've got all this crap on them. ugh. well i really can't be bothered changing them. Oh well, just think all those O's with squiggly lines on top are apostrophes and the O's with lines on top are quotation marks. and the E's are dot dot dot's. yeah well you kinda can get the drift of wot im talking about.

So anyway, since it just deleted my post, i'll just start again. Well, not much has been happening lately. maybe i should get my chatterbox back. hmm, i'm too scared to now. oh well, i'll live without it. So, i'm bored and yeah. I feel like...going to sleep. hmm now thats a good idea. i woke up at 8:30. ugh. i've woken up at about that time everyday. it can't be good for me. anyway, i'm going to do something somewhere. ugh. braindead.

Kimo

3rd post in an hour

2004-09-14T14:20:00.000+10:00

Hi again,
Do you think I’ve been subliminally turned against god? I’ve just kinda noticed the lyrics from a song I’ve been listening to (Korn-Got the life) :
God pains me, I’ll never see the lie he wants us to see
God told me, I’ve already got the life oh I say…

But it’s not really that bad is it? Oh well, I don’t mind being an atheist, except I’d rather not call myself that. Here’s another theory of mine: “God” made aliens, who landed on earth and then some germs or some shit dropped off them and that evolved into humans and stuff. And then when we die, we decompose. Wow, how intellectual is that? Well that’s my theory and I’ll go by that. I call it, Kimo-ism, and the followers are called Kimolians. “What do you follow, Christianity? Buddhism? Hinduism?” “Nope, Kimo-ism, I’m a Kimolian.” And I don’t discriminate against gays. Or anyone else. I mean you could smell and still be a Kimolian. I know I do :D

So…have I finally run out of thoughts? Nope. Oh yes. Do old people talk crap because they’ve said everything they’ve wanted to say? OH NO!! I’ve already started talking crap, so I’ve run out of stuff to talk about!! I’M TURNING OLD!! Lol, nah. I just don’t want to run out of stuff to say. I like exercising my rights to talk crap without being too much of a weirdo. I like my weird thoughts. Does anyone else like Slipknot? I do, and I thought only hardcore people listen to them. I’m not hardcore. Normally azns don’t listen to rock. I’m a weirdo. I think I’m turning white. As in Aussie. I’ve been told so by my bro. Well here’s some proof:
I eat fried rice with tomato sauce.
I hold my chopsticks the wrong way.
I’m a wanka. Hahaha, just kidding.
But well, I still look like a fob. It’s all good.

If you don’t have anything to listen to, try Follow the Leader by Korn. It’s pretty good. And so is Slipknot- Volume 3: The subliminal verses. That’s really good and there’s some slow songs for non-rockers. I’ve required a reputation now as some rockish person who listens to crap and when I say something’s good, no one believes me. Ugh. You pop and r’n’b listening freaks are the weirdos. How can you say, “I don’t like the sound of screaming.” Yet you’re constantly listening to people wailing at you in different forms. Ugh. ß That sums up pop and r’n’b. Well it’s at the end of the 3rd page and I wanted to make a scarf. So I’ll go and do that now. Oh no, not yet. I just thought of something else I wanted to say. And now it’s gone..good one.
Ahhh, yes. I remember. I’ve come up with another question, although, it’s not as good as the others: If you saw my diary, would you read it. Now I don’t mean this. You know I don’t mean this. I mean my other one which I put EVERY thought and feeling into. I was pretty serious about those other questions. I hope someone answered yes to any of them… I hate this. I sound so depressed and sad. Oh man, I need a life or else I’ll start making stuff up. This is giving me a headache. But well, it’s either this or the price is right. Ugh. I’d rather this.

Do you know what I find completely useless? “challenge for life” it’s this “fun” program going on at school for us year 9ers. It’s meant to make us motivated and wanna come to school. Yeah, wrong approach teachers. Making us swim is pretty bad. Life saving-worse. Hah, glad I’ve gotten that one over and done with. The other components: volunteering and “be real game/ rock and water”. With the volunteering, we had to go weeding at some place and go do stuff with the elderly. Ugh, ugh. And NOW, when I thought it was all over, the teachers fight back and bite us on the ass. We have to do like 12 weeks or something of crap all. The “be real game” is where we randomly pick some person and make up their names and stuff and then we pretend we’re them. It’s a big waste of time because everything’s done for you and only the most braindead person would have any trouble with it. But we’re all brain dead by the time it comes to do anything. I mean the teacher just craps ON and ON and ON… We have to make up resumes about MADE UP PEOPLE!!! I mean wtf is with that?!!

Well. I’m full of hate, aren’t I. Hmm, I think I come across as a pretty mean person. I’m not really. I just speak my mind. Well, that’s if I feel like speaking at all. I’m really bored now. Well I’ll get started on that scarf. I just got this pink wool. Pretty cool. And I payed $5 for it so it better make a good scarf or else I’ll be annoyed.

Well cya lata then, Kimo.

I can’t actually see my blog at the moment, coz this is still Word, but if my calculations are correct, I don’t think I have anymore “archives” or comments. So if you really want to tell me anything, feel free:
kaeti_@hotmail.com
kaetio@gmail.com

18th post

2004-09-14T14:17:00.000+10:00

Well hello again.
*sigh* I’ve had so much thinking time, I don’t think it’s healthy. Did you know they said keeping a diary isn’t healthy? I don’t want to stop though. It’s one of those things that once you start, you can’t stop. I just came back from my second trip to Parkmore. I got this top for $5 at Go-Lo. : D bargain. Anyway, I pity those that are still going to school. Poor, poor you people. *sigh* Being at my gran’s place hasn’t done much for me. I’d rather roll around in my own bed. I mean, there’s not much room here, so I have to sleep in my aunt’s bed…with her. Did that sound wrong? Anyway, I’m scared I take up too much room or hog the blanket or something and so I’m …ugh, I was gonna say stiff. My gosh, why not? I’m not a guy. I can be stiff and sleep with my aunty in her bed. Hahaha. Anyway, don’t you hate it when you want more sleep, but you just can’t get it. omg, why does this keep sounding so bad?!! Ugh, I give up.

I was told by a friend’s mother that I was evil because I go out too much. Omg, that is the worst thing someone could say to me. 1) I hardly even go out. 2) I’m not evil. 3) what does she know? Hahaha, no offence or anything, if you’re reading this. Pfft, but I doubt she will. And so yeah. Ugh, I have something I want to tell you people. Actually I don’t but what the heck. Oh, and by the way, this is an online diary. That kinda hit me the other day, that I actually have an online diary. I thought that only weirdo’s have online diaries. But then again, I’m not totally out of that category. I meant that people who put their diaries on the internet are weird because the whole world knows their thoughts and stuff. Well. Dw, I’m probably not making sense.

Well back to what I wanted to say. I think I act differently in front of different people. I mean well, I don’t go high in front of my grandma and other stuff. Like, *sigh* at that dinner with Alan, I just felt weird. Like …I dno, I can’t explain it. I mean well I’ve tried to connect the different me’s, but I dno, it just doesn’t really work. I’m so much more quieter in front of my relatives than other people, but that might be because they’re always judging. Oh I dno. Well it’s just some particular relatives that judge me hardcore. Like all my relatives on my dad’s side are so bad!! I mean they blame everything on my mum as well. Ugh, I hate them. They’re always like: “My children are smarter than yours. My children go to a private school. I’m so rich. I lick my mum’s ass and like it just so that she’ll like me.” Ugh, it makes me sick.

On the whole, I can be the same person, but like a teacher said: “some people are just quiet. It’s a defense mechanism.” I don’t like being quiet. But then again, I’m usually only quiet when I’m brain dead with nothing to say. That’s the worst thing. I hate it when I have nothing to say. I normally don’t though. Reading this, it sounds like I’m some mental patient in need of professional help. I don’t really, but I just …I dno. Ugh. I hate this. I prefer writing in my actual diary diary, but I’m too lazy. But this is so weird. You know all my personal stuff. Well I can blame myself if anything gets weird between us, coz it’s me that writing this stuff and putting it on the internet. Omg, anyone could be reading this. Please don’t stalk me.

So far, I’v’nt said anything majorly interesting. Except that I have major mood swings. God, I don’t really. I hate the term “mood swings”. That’s for people with PMS. Wow, I’m on my 3rd page of Word. I really need to get a life and stop talking to you. Well, since you’ve read up to here, well you won’t mind if I kept going, will you? Of course not. Well I’m not stopping you from getting up and walking off, am I? Noooo. Well, hahaha, I’ll make another post coz I don’t think this will fit.
Kimo

Ugh

2004-09-14T14:16:00.000+10:00

Hello readers,
Yeah, it’s me again. Do you like go onto the computer and think, “gee, I can’t wait to read the next episode of Kimo’s life”? Well, good on you. Long time, no post. Well it hasn’t been THAT long, it’s just I found myself missing this place while I was at my gran’s place, which is where I’ve been the last few days. Wow. I never thought there could be a more boring place than r.e. class. Lol, well it’s not THAT bad if it has a computer, I guess. But what’s a computer without the internet? Useless. Well actually, I’m typing this on Word and I’ll copy it onto my blog later. Well, since there’s no MSN to distract me, you might find something intelligent in this post. Or not.

Haha, Word’s saying I have heaps of spelling mistakes. Oh well. So anyway, like everyone else, I have to talk about religion. Oh my god. Well I’ll tell you my views of it, and you can stop reading now, if you’re not interested. I’ll start from the start. A friend once said, at the dinner table might I add, “ I’m an atheist”. I nearly choked on my pizza. Then after much thought, I’ve come to the conclusion that I too, am an atheist. Eugh, it sounds so weird. ME, an atheist? Atheists are like..so sure of themselves and so … I dno, not me? But I’ve never wanted to be Christian. I don’t really believe in God that much. Or Jesus for that matter. And I’m a bit iffy on Buddhism. And the rest are just crap. Like what the hell is Kabbalah where they wear $30 pieces of string around their wrists? I have no idea. And, lol, I’m not into Satanism. So yeah. Can you just be not religious? And I still don’t get what a soul is. I don’t think I have one. I mean great explanation the RE teacher gave us: “a soul is, umm… *sigh* it’s like *points to chest* something in here. And it’s…. I can’t really explain it…go meditate and listen to god…” I mean WHAT THE HELL?!! Yup. Got it. That thing. Here. Yup, totally get it now. ^. -

So anyway, I’m sick of religion. I mean what has it ever done for us? I was reading a CD insidey bit thing and the person goes: “I’d like to thank Jesus for inspiring me throughout this year, and for helping me through my lows. Without You, this album could never have happened. There is nothing more relieving than knowing You are in control of my life. May You shine through me…” Yeah. I’m serious that that’s what she wrote. Wtf is “you are in control of my life”? No, you’re the one that controls your life. You make your own decisions and that little voice in your head is NOT god, that’s YOUR voice. Just coz your heads so empty it makes an echo, doesn’t mean it’s god.

And being an atheist can’t be easy. Especially when all your relatives are Christian and they think you are too. Do you know what I heard my aunt telling my 3-year-old cousin? “Who made you so smart? God did.” I don’t know who made you smart, since your dad’s a druggie, but I DO know who made you, and that wasn’t god. That was your parents… Yeah. wow, this much is like a whole page on word. Font: times new roman, size: 12. ugh, this is more than I could write on my English essay. Damn this. Haha, 600 words. Huh? Now it’s 607. That was weird. Anyway, I’m gonna make another post; I don’t think much more will fit here.
Kimo

this is interesting

2004-09-11T15:35:00.000+10:00

hello,
technically my holidays don't start until Monday, but oh well. Do you know what? well i'll tell you what. I woke up at 6:00 AM and i couldn't get back to sleep. So i stayed in bed. I finally got out of bed at 8:00 AM <-- that means i stayed in bed for like 2 hours. And then i did my maths homework. that's pretty impressive. maths homework at 8 in the morning. Yeah, I've recruited so many fans of this place!! Well I dno about fans, but frequent readers. Well nice to see you here. Oh my gosh, I've been here for like two hours and that's all i've written. yay. i'm sooooo interesting. Well i've made this place slightly nicer. yay---> like the game? I do. Way cool, dude. And I did it alllll myself. it's pat on the back work!! Anyway, i'm over it. no actually, im not, but i have nothing more to say about it.

Well. still here? I would have given up on the second sentence. Ooo, now i've got a chatterbox. MADNESS. If you look over there--> in my friend's list is "computer people". Well i tried to remember their names from one web page to this one, and i couldn't even do that much. I mean I was kinda braindead. Anyway, back to the "computer people" if you click on the link, you might see why I called them that. And they sent me an email to join in the gmail thing. So I joined, and I thought, what the hell, I don't need 1 gig of email space. I'm not THAT spesh. well if you wanna know i'm kaetio@gmail.com. kaetio because they wouldn't let me have any less.

Well, i'm so bored. ugh. it's ONLY saturday. like not EVEN the holidays and i'm bored. oh well, i'll find something to amuse me. oo, wat's that i hear? *eat me*. food's calling me, so i think i should go.
Kimo.
And don't forget to comment, or else i don't know you care.

I've run out of meaningless titles

2004-09-10T09:02:00.000+10:00

Hello,
You know i am so over that bloody "hahahah" post. It took me so long to publish. I have come up with a theory:
I'm not really funny, i just laugh a lot and hang around funny people so people assume i'm funny.

And i have a few questions as well:
If I went blind tomorrow, would I remember what you look like in 10 years?
If you wanted help, would you come to me?
If I died tomorrow, would you regret not saying anything to me?
If I died tomorrow, would you remember me in 10 years?

ahhh, such heavy questions.

Oh, it seems i am back in my dear IT class. Mr S's monotonous voice is killing me. damn. and no music. damn damn. And i don't even get what we're meant to be doing. damn damn damn. 6 HOURS UNTIL THE END OF TERM 3!!!!! omg (i say that so much, soz any christians who are offended) i'm so excited about the holidays. i'm not going anywhere, or doing anything interesting, but still. anywhere away from schoolwork is somewhere i wanna be. It sounds like i hate school, but well, i do. well i can't really say i hate it, it's a place away from home. but i don't hate home either. well let's just say, i get sick of being in the one place for large periods of time. ugh, i'm getting confused.

Hmmm, Fujiko's got a new layout. i'm so jealous of people who can make a work of art, effortlessly. IT SUCKS. Hmm, does anyone know what they want to be when they grow up. that sounds stupid. lol, it's not like i'm gonna grow much more. well, i mean when you're an adult. that sounds stupid too. i don't wanna get old. well not old. i mean i like being dependant on people, coz im too lazy to be independant, but i want to be independat coz i dont like being depenant. ok, i'm being indecisive.

well i have to go now. class is over.
Kimo
oh, and i found how to put more people on my friend's list. wow. welcome sublime flamingo.

hahahah pt. 2

2004-09-09T19:03:00.000+10:00

hello,
Did you know that last post took 3 goes for me to find out that it was too long and the computer refused to publish it. Well it could at least have told me it wouldn't work. oh well. and i noticed quite a few typos. oh well. u kinda get the drift, don't you...?

hmmm, i was gonna talk about something, but i can't remember...oh yes, TERM 3 FINISHES TOMORROW!!!!wooooohooooo. ahhh. the only problem is the english essay i have to do on romeo and juliet. im so sick of those stupid ****s (insert any 4 letter swear word). Anyway, not much been happening. oh and i found some interesting blogs: http://sublimelylime.blogspot.com *sublime flamingo* and http://iamruined.blogspot.com . yeah. and fujiko's is still good. great. better than mine.

I was so bored today that i green-outed my diary. green out being a new invention to which i haven't seen the likes of before. white-out that's green. wow. except it says on the side: sniff this product. i think mine's been tampered with, because under the white-out i found the words: do not deliberately... weird huh. it's like a conspiracy against me.

these things should have something counting down your number of characters like on phones coz this is stupid. i don't know how long i'm allowed to crap on for... hmmm, i'm in a boring mood. does anyone else agree with me on boring moods? alan thinks not. yes, you can have boring moods. moods where you're just boring. AND i was having a whole debate with jong, can you just not think about anything while you're awake. my answer: yes. like you can just blank out. and i had another whole debate with wendy. do you have tomato sauce on your fried rice? my answer: yes. if you don't then it's just plain and boring. her argument is that it's gross and you use soy sauce. well, i dont care about her. i'll just have my tomato sauce. she can suffer and never experience nice tasting stuff. *sigh* i'm still trying to convert her into rock from her chinese crap she listens to.

well i think im running out of space,
Kimo

hahahah

2004-09-08T10:46:00.000+10:00

hello,
I'm giddy. no not really, i just had the urge to write that. this post probably won't even be funny. wow, that's like false advertising.

well i thought of some of the biggest tortures in life:
Getting out of a warm bed and into a cold room.
Getting out of a warm shower and into a cold room.
Getting out of a warm car and into a cold place....
and the list goes on:
Having the first/last bite of a funsize chocolate. It's not fun. It's torture coz it's only a taster.
Reading Shakespeare.
Having to do an essay another day *Friday* so the week is 3 times longer.
Having cold hands and feet.
R.E.

That's not all of it, but I don't think you want to know them all. Anyway, has anyone looked at Fujiko's blog? http://fujiko07.blogspot.com. Sorry Sublime Flamingo i've never known what your site's called but follow the link from one of my comments people and have a look at it. damn you all. Your little blogs look so much nicer than this place. oh well, i'll live. anyway, i tried to put a chatterbox here, but the html is too weird. meh, i can't be bothered.

If anyone saw my comments on Fujiko's page, i'll elaborate on my thoughts. OMG, our teacher was half an hour late so we couldn't finish our essay in class. SO we have to do it on Friday, our last day of term 3. Dammit, i was hoping to finish it in class TODAY (wendnesday) and cruise through the rest of the week without any pressure. Stupid *beep*.

Oh i think i'll go now. oo there goes the bell.
well cya lata theb
Kimo

sigh

2004-09-06T19:10:00.000+10:00

Hello
I made a post yesterday but my stupid internet just cut off. Well it's gone all fast so that's ok then, I guess. Well. I'm so much happier today, but no more energetic or alive. just happier. As in, I've done my house debating, jap test and NEARLY finished my stupid Romeo and Juliet crap. Anyway, hmm, I'm sooo not interesting. well at least not at the moment. brain dead is what i call it.

*sigh* I'm so bored and my mum's making me get off the computer. so stupid. I'll end up coming back on anyway. I'm like magnetically attracted to this stupid mass of plastic. Well, do you wanna know about Saturday night? Well I'll tell you, even though I'm over it and only coz i have nothing else to talk about. Well I went to my grandparent's place and i was with my aunt and bro and there was nothing to do so we went out to dinner. My aunty brought her friend/boyfriend, i dno which, and i brought alan. yeah. not much interesting happened. i was pretty braindead then as well. actually, you could say i'm braindead when i'm not high. do you realise i don't really type much, it's just this font is so big it looks like i'm writing heaps.

On sunday i went to chingvale and met wendy. we just watched my bro's friend eat her banana fritta. wow. so interesting. then she had to go and then i had to tag along with my bro and is friend coz well, chingvale's not the best place to walk around by yourself.

well i'm going to dinner and i might come back. my hands are cold. i'm bored. crap, i've got english crap to do. omg, it's due tomorrow. goddam...*sigh* i really really really can't wait until the holidays. goddam, this last week of school's dragging on and on like there's no tommorow. lol, i know it's only monday, but it's been ages since i was in my nice warm bed this morning. wow, it feels like YESTERDAY or something. well i really should go. my mum's death stares are really giving me a head ache, well, i've got a headache.
cya lata,
Kimo

hello

2004-09-04T11:06:00.000+10:00

hi.
how is everyone? I got like 7 hours or less of sleep and I'm pretty awake... That don't really make sense, but oh well. Aaanyway...I just made a post yesterday, so why am I making another one? not much has happened since last night... hahaha. REALLY, not much has happened.

You know what I saw the other day? I was at the local milkbar, and some lady wanted to buy this drink called ... errr I can't remember but it was one of those bottled drinks with the little pop top AND SHE ASKS FOR A STRAW!!!! I mean what the HELL?!! lol, that was so stupid.

Hmmm, so anyway, not much doing. DO YOU KNOW WHAT? Well, I'll tell you what. My parents have like $200 credit on their phone or something and I share the phone bill with them and so they're gonna be paying for my next teo phone bills. YAY. I think everyone should get a 3 phone. I mean it's like got COLOURSCREEN and that's about it. Well it has a camera and stuff too.

have I told you about the Robert blackwood hall concert that happened on Tuesday night?!! OMG, the only thing more boring would be speech night. Sorry Georgia, but I mean 2 hours of music is pretty bad. Well, it might have been better if ... well, if it just didn't happen at all. *sigh* i'm so mean, but it's not like I'm saying the PEOPLE are crap, it's just the music was a little...boring? repetitive? tiring? I dno, don't take my word for it. i dont' know anything about music so don't let me offend you.

so anyway... i'm cold. it's meant to be spring, godammit!! it was warmer in WINTER!! i'm sick of being cold, i'm sick of it as much as i'm sick of school. omg, i still have homework to do. ahh well, it can wait until tomorrow... well i did well on my maths test!! phew, that's a relief coz i don't wanna be kicked outta the advanced class. nya, that sounds really puncy. aaanyway, ROMEO AND JULIET CAN GO TO HELL. OMG, why the f*beep* do we have to friken learn about some play that was made agaes and ages ago? i mean WHO CARES? like seriously, who does? Not me.

well...i have not much else to say. i'm still cold. and my hot water's gone cold. omg, i just downloaded a song, but not really. stupid piece of annoying stuff. it didn't play. bloody hell. none of my songs are playing!! i need more songs. any suggestions? as in songs to download. anyway, i say that a lot, yeah well im gonna go now, i'm kinda bored, but i don't wanna do any homework. *sigh* i'm so lazy. eugh, the cold water's gone funny. not funny-haha, more funny-weird. So

yeah, cya lata then.
kimo

cough

2004-09-03T20:28:00.000+10:00

Hi to anyone reading this.
I just CAN NOT wait until the holidays!! I mean could they come any slower? And could this year go any faster? OMG, I'm already freaking out about VCE!! It's like coming and coming VERy VERY VERY VERY...QUICKLY!! OMG *insert swear words* I'M GONNA BE DOING VCE JAP NEXT YEAR!!! That's really scary.

Aaanyway, I've figured I wanna have 2/3 kids and get married in my 20s and I'm gonna be rich and live in a big house and have a done up car. I'm gonna have a good job that I like and one which pays well. AND for my formal, I'm gonna go there in a done up car and my date will have to drive... AND yeah. I know most of it probably won't work out and I'm being a little ambitious, but still, that's what i WANT to happen and if not, then oh well.

:( OMG, the song : Vermillion pt.2 by Slipknot is so sad. It makes me feel so depressed and makes me wanna CRY everytime I hear it. awww. I want a hug... Anyone? umm ok then.

well anyway, I think I'll go now since no-one's on msn. I'm hungry. damn, i have english, jap, debating to do. ( what the hell? I'm not even good and i'm doing debating? hmm, AND bloody hell, i didn't get "school debating" on my report and i did 3 DEBATES!! ripped off) and thank god all my maths is finished. phew.

well, thanx for reading this, and don't forget to comment,
Kimo.

hehe

2004-09-01T14:30:00.000+10:00

Umm, I don't think it worked last time, but go to www.e-messenger.net to use MSN on the school computers. Don't spread it though, coz then there'll be weirdo people online and then it'll get banned and then we'll be stuffed AGAIN. My blog doesn't even work on school computers. Maybe I've sworn in one of them... Oh well, I can't help that. HAha. I've found another one. It's www.piglet-im.com they're both dodgy. Anyway, better than all those bloody emails.
Signing off, Kimo

mmm

2004-09-01T07:46:00.000+10:00

Hi people.
So it seems people have been reading this stuff that I'm writing. well, if it's not too much trouble, could ya comment so I know you've been here? Yeah well anyway, I've been told off for using real names on these posts and in this blog thing. Please don't stalk me. Anyway, it is Sakura's birthday today!! Woohoo. OK, well, I'll tell you what I got her: a green box with: some chocolate, her favourite one, lollies, a CD case thing and 5 CDs: Slipknot *self titled album*, Iowa by Slipknot, Volume 3: The Subliminal Verses by Slipknot, Hybrid Theory and Meteora by Linkin Park and All Eyez on Me by Tupac. Yeah. I felt tacky 'coz they were all burnt. As in copied CDs, not physically burnt... Anyway, soz Alan. I'm still feeling tacky for your present.

Aaaanyway, does anyone know what they're gonna do for work experience? Any suggestions? I have noooo fricky idea. AND I'm in science and who the hell wants to know about how whales hold their breathe? Ooo or why do trees lose their leaves? Coz they're demented? I DON'T CARE!!! Anyway, I'm bored...

Gotta go now, Kimo.

Meh

2004-08-29T18:34:00.000+10:00

Well today i've been cramming like crazy. That'd be really wrong if I was a guy... anyway, I have 2 maths tests, a Japanese test and some problem solving thing. That's so mean of them to do this. I can't wait until the holidays!! So I've heard I should live life a day at a time, it's just that's no fun when you're not high, and i'm not high everyday. I mean I'd be fine if school was interesting, the problem is it's not. Not in the least bit interesting. Goddamn, they could at least employ people under 50. At the most, 60. But any older than 60 is going overboard. It's not that I hate old people, it's just that there's a point when people just aren't interesting anymore. When was the last time an old person was interesting for something normal? *cough* Our R.E. teacher for example, I'm guessing she's hmmm, 50-60. She has THE most boring voice I have ever heard. She just goes on and on and on and on and on... about who knows what and she doesn't really notice much. And I think she's half to three quarters deaf. ugh.

Sorry this isn't really very interesting, but I guess if you've read up to here, you must be hooked. yay. that was sarcastic if you hadn't noticed. How come I only have one friend? J**** C****. Man, i really should stop saying that. I've beeped it out since i don't want to offend anyone, and I don't want to do any blasphemy. Anyway, I have just lost all my thoughts... Can you ever run out of thoughts? Oh and other questions I've thought of are: hmmm, ok maybe not. Well I had some really good thoughts, and now they're not coming... Oh well, I'll get back to you on them then...

It's Sakura's birthday on Tuesday, and I don't know if I've told you, but from yesterday, it was exactly 6 months until my birthday!! I'm excited. Yesterday was all nice and sunny and so warm, I can't wait until summer!! Summer has all the exciting stuff: my birthday and Christmas. Woohoo. that wasn't sarcastic. That was excited. Oah crap. I still have more homework that hasn't found the brains to do itself. I'd swear, but I don't want to scare anyone off. I want as many people as possible to read this because I'm a sad little girl with no friends. nah, just kidding. Do you know what song REALLY annoys me? That nina Sky crap. That's bullshit. that's not music, that's just twins "singing" about lame ass crap.."Move your body.." WTF? That kind of crap should be illeagle. Like that other bloody song by mario Winans: i don't wanna know. well seriously, i don't wanna know either. Go wail in someone else's ears. Someone who cares...

Well I smell dinner...and a fail on 3 tests if I don't go now. So I'll be off and I probably won't be back for a while. :( a loooong while. Damn, i was gonna go but heaps of people just signed onto MSN.... oh man, hard decision.. to talk or not to talk? I think I should refrain myself... I really need to go now.
Well talk to you later, Kimo or Kaeti or Funky Monkey, hahaha, dw.

moof

2004-08-27T09:23:00.000+10:00

Hello again. Well that last post was kinda weird. oh well. Hope you could read it. If not, there wasn't much in it anyway. So anyway, I think I'm on my way to converting Sakura into a Slipknot fan. Well maybe... It's her birthday in 4 days!! YAY I'm getting excited for her. Now I can't wait til it's my birthday. ooooo it's in EXACTLY 6 months and 1 day!!!! yay, can't wait 'til Christmas either. OOO, except, we'll ALL be OLD. *sigh* Well since everyone's gonna get older, I guess I have to as well... Actually, do old people get high? Do you know what I wondered last night? Can you get gay animals? Hmmm...
Well I have no more thoughts, so I think I'll go now and stop wasting your time..
Kimo
oh and I'm so cut that I couldn't reach the bar of the "pinnacle of terror". Does that mean I'll be too short to reach my dreams or something? That's a little dodgy. And does that mean only tall people can reach their dreams? That's stupid.

Ihih

2004-08-24T12:46:00.000+10:00

Olleh,
Wow, siht etis si os looc? yllautca ereht saw rehto ffuts nettirw ereh tub ti t'ndid ekam ences...dna siht seod. siht t'nsi yllaer taht drah, okijuF dna gnoJ koot sega ot epyt ekil eno drow!! ahahah yeht kcus. sey, okijuF, uoy kcus.
Ew era ni eht yrarbil ta eht tnemom. siht si nuf. ti si os gnisufnoc.++ nehw uoy kool ta ti siht yaw. haey llew i evah ot og won
ayc atal, omiK <.>
*depleh yb okijuF dna gnoJ*

Hmm

2004-08-22T19:28:00.000+10:00

Well hello there readers. I'm just sitting here doing work. Well sort of... I WAS until YOU rudely interrupted me. Nah, that's OK, I don't mind. Anyway, I was trying to get on here yesterday and it wouldn't open. Stupid overrated bloody ADSL internet. But I'm not complaining, I know for a fact that those worser off with modem or nothing would do a lot for this internet. Oh well, you win some you lose some. So anyway, I actually cleaned my room today. Wow, that's a first. It took me like 3 hours. Actually you'd be more acurate in saying "readjusting" my room. I still have homework to do and it's Sunday night. Damn, don't you hate it when you put it off then suddenly you hae heaps of homework? Well, I do. You know what's dodgy? Fujiko can get on to her blog at school and I can't. That's so bloody not fair!! Anyway, I probably should go now. And I just wanna say GOOD LUCK Georgia in her aerobics in Adelaide and in her ballet exam. Multitalented!! Well, I really SHOULD go now.
Cya, Kimo.

...

2004-08-19T20:02:00.000+10:00

hallo readers. I'm trying to do too many things at once!! Think AND type. So really, it isn't true, Alan, girls really aren't that good. So yeah, I guess I should tell you about my day. Well today..today.. not much has really happened. I ate alotta crap. Hahaha, that reminds me, Georgia got this icy pole and that was just what it looked like. Hahaha, and icy POLE. hahaha, I really should get a life. Anyway I really DISLIKE *dislike being a toned down version of what i could have said* two particular girls at school. Actually I dislike more, but they're not the one's i'm annoyed at, at the moment. Well these two people, Fujiko, I know I shouldn't say so, but I mean really. I have nothing against them, but it seems they think I'm weird and annoying. And it's not like when you go, haha, you're so weird. It's more of, OMG you're so weird and annoying. *sigh* I really try not to get angry, seeing as that will just satisfy them, but I don't know if I can hold myself back if they say anymore about me. So anyway, I'll talk to you later. I don't know who "you" are but anywho, talk to "you" later.
Kimo

yeah

2004-08-06T09:05:00.000+10:00

Well, since no-one's really going to read this, what's the point? This is stupid, 'coz even I have trouble finding this. So anyway if you do read this, then hmmm... i can't do a thumbs up, but that's what I'm doing to the screen so just imagine it in your head. How come my thing doesn't look as good as Angela's?!! Bloody hell. And why don't the school computers don't even let me get into my MSN group? Oh yeah, join my group: http://groups.msn.com/allhailme Yeah. I joined Angela's forum about manga and crap. What the hell? I can't even do anything on it. They tell me off for doing nothing!! Stupid mods. It's even worse than gaia. Yeah I'm in IT again. I have one of these thingys on Xanga and I can't remember how to post. Anyway, gotta go and do maths. yay. what fun!!
Kimo

hi

2004-08-04T10:23:00.000+10:00

Yeah well last night we won our debating!! YEAH!! And I was totally ripped off!! The bloody guy was such a suck. He was totally flirting/ sucking up to a girl off the other team just 'coz her dad is like his teacher or something. So rude. And they started AGREEING with us. AND one girl just read off her cards and didn't even look up. The worst thing is that I totally prepared and everything and i got the same points as an under-prepared team. Ripped off to the max. Anyway, I wasn't as nervous as last time. Thanx Mrs Hicks. Yeah so anyway, I haven't been on MSN in 2 days. Wow. I'm in IT, this is so boring. That works on 2 levels. THIS is boring and so is IT. Yeah I'm sorry this is boring, you really don't have to read it. That reminds me, I haven't written in my actual diary for a while...
Kimo.

This is my first post

2004-08-01T19:23:00.000+10:00

Hi, I'm really hungry and I can smell food, but it's upstairs and the computer's downstairs. Nothing much has happened today, except I've had heaps of homework over the weekend and it's sunday night so naturally I think i'll start on it. Have to go, I really need to do my homework.